Alexa Bigwarfe's Blog
October 31, 2019
What to say when a baby dies
It can be difficult to know what to say when a baby dies. As we wrap up another October, which is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, I think it’s important to share this post again. It’s been a long time since I wrote it, and it deserved a refresh. What To Say When a […]
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October 15, 2019
Try listening to her, not fixing her – October 15th
The worst day of my life was December 12, 2011, when I held my 2-day-old daughter as her last breath left her body. The doctor prepared us at her anatomy scan at 20-weeks gestation that she would likely not survive, but I held fast to hope over the next 10 weeks until she was born, that […]
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October 3, 2019
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Book Bundle
We are proud to feature five of our books that support Grieving Mothers, in honor of October – Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. October 15th is International Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness day We’ve compiled a beautiful collection of these five books and are offering them all for the low price of 9.99! You’ll […]
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January 7, 2019
Healing retreat for Grieving Mamas
In 2019 I am going to fulfill a dream. I am hosting my first ever retreat for grieving mothers. A weekend of being loved and spoiled. Why? Because losing a child, no matter what age they were, how long you carried, or how many or how few memories you have made, is truly one of […]
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December 12, 2018
It’s OK to still be sad, mama
Today marks 7 years since my Kathryn breathed her last breath in my arms. She was two days old. But those two days changed everything for us. For me. For my future. I still cry. I cried today when I posted the only picture I have of me holding my sweet baby girl. I still […]
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June 5, 2018
Let them help you – a note to grieving mothers
A Note To Grieving Mothers Recently, a dear friend lost her father. She didn’t tell us until two days later, and when she did, she asked us not to contact, call, text, or otherwise blow up her inbox. I understand where she was coming from. After Kathryn died, I didn’t want to talk to anyone. […]
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March 1, 2018
Healing and healing and healing
Grief comes in seasons… There is that first season, that seems like it will never, ever end. Then it gradually fades into less frequent, and usually less predictable, moments of pain and sadness. Then the weird stuff happens. Like guilt. You begin to wonder if it’s OKAY to actually be happy. If you’re somehow being […]
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December 12, 2017
Dear Kathryn… six years later
It’s been six years since she left us. It’s hard not to relive that day. For two very short days, we watched her struggle to breathe and live. My husband and I prayed that somehow a miracle would happen, but one never came. Dear Kathryn – I want you to know you’re missed. We love […]
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December 7, 2017
World #TTTS Awareness Day
I’ve got a lot of sentiments and emotions about this. I’m feeling guilty that I haven’t been advocating as hard or frequently lately for TTTS awareness. It is the primary reason, after all, that I started this blog. That, and to survive the grief of losing one of our daughters because of Twin to Twin […]
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October 23, 2017
Finding Joy After Loss
I was honored to be asked to speak at a Pregnancy and Infant Loss Ceremony this year. Throughout the month of October, we remember all babies gone too soon. I didn’t have a hard time deciding what to speak about – I knew I wanted to give the message of finding Joy. I wanted to […]
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