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My Facebook page reached 1500 Likes, so, as promised, here is the PROLOGUE for What He Really Feels (Book 2, He Feels Trilogy).


Release Date: October 3, 2013


If you haven't read How He Really Feels (Book 1, He Feels Trilogy), be warned that THIS PROLOGUE CONTAINS SPOILERS!

What He Really Feels is told from Travis's point of view.

Note: This book is currently unpublished and the content may change upon publication

***JUST ONE MORE SPOILER ALERT!***



Okay, are you ready? :)



What He Really Feels: Prologue

They say hindsight is 20/20. And, unfortunately, they are right.

In hindsight, it wasn’t great timing for me to tell Julianne Becker that I had loved her for most of my life given the fact that the love of her life had just dumped her.

Waiting might’ve been the smarter move.

But I hadn’t waited. I’d had a few too many beers, and it gave me enough liquid courage to tell her how I really felt. And, apparently, she’d had a few too many beers, too, because she gave into something that sober Jules would’ve been smart enough to stop.

I was a goddamn idiot to think that it would work out, but my drunken mind tricked me into thinking that she would feel the same. I had loved her forever, and she had been sending me signals all night.

Turns out what I misinterpreted as “signals” was really just one friend leaning on another friend.

Sleeping together had been an obvious mistake, but I didn’t realize it right away. No, I awoke the next morning thinking that we were actually going to be together. I celebrated. I took the day off work and hung out at her apartment, lost in bliss as I took in the familiar surroundings that looked different through the eyes of a man whose love was returned. I was so blinded by that love I had for her that I couldn’t see the truth staring me in the face. She loved Nick. She would never love me, at least not the way I loved her.

She might not have made the best decisions, but with that stupid hindsight thing, I hadn’t, either. Looking back, I can see that pursuing a woman who wasn’t available was pretty fucking stupid. The outcome was tragic and painful, and I fully blamed Jules for using me, but I was starting to see that it may have been a little bit my fault, too.

I had made other bad choices, like going out to the bar with Dan when he was visiting from San Diego and using it to make Jules jealous. But I was hurt, and I acted foolishly out of pain. I knew her well enough to predict how she would feel when I told her that I’d messed around with a girl at the bar. She was hurting, and I had used that to make her jealous.

Deep down, I think I knew that my chances were slim. Once I had her, I had to use whatever ammunition I could to keep her. But it all backfired when the douche bag decided that he wanted her back.

That was the one thing that I had zero ammo against. She was obsessed with him and in love with him, and no matter how much she loved me and cared about me, I was no match for him in the quest for her heart.
And so I had to get out.

The one good decision I made was moving to San Diego. After that night when Jules called things off with me and took back Douche Bag Nick (as I liked to refer to him in my mind), I was broken. I liked to think of myself as a guy’s guy, a manly man… but what she did had killed a part of me and left me feeling empty and alone.

I needed to get away, and San Diego was apparently my answer.