Roxy Queen's Blog - Posts Tagged "taboo"
The AfterMath
Last week I came clean about pen names, the origin of one of my books (from fanfic) and the reasons I went about it. The following days were a little crazy. Lot's of anger, a little stress and many kind comments. Nothing I say below with satisfy my detractors. It will probably only make them angrier.
Frankly, with everything going on in my life I am simply out of F*cks to give on that situation.
To be clear, I did talk to my friend Sam (AG). She never saw my blog post as she was in the throws of an illness. I waited 3 days and confessed, linking her to all the drama. We talked. I almost puked. It was how we deal with things in our friendship because that's what we have. A friendship that goes beyond business and politics and who is better, Spike or Angel (Angel, duh) or Sam or Dean (undecided). If she feels like talking about it I'm sure she'll chime in when she's up to it. If not, all I can say is we're okay.
So let's talk about the rest of it. What happened from coming out of the p2p closet? Well, I definitely disappointed some people. Definitely. They feel betrayed and deceived and I can't take that back and I'm not sure I can apologize for something done with intent. There's some upset over the use of the word "Nasty FanFic Police," but...well, people show you who they are. We all make choices about our behavior and how we manage it. That's all I have to say about that.
People feel the need to address how I'm simply using the fandom to sell books. Well, yeah, sort of. I mean, I'd love for all my fanfic followers to buy my books. That would be amazing. The reality is a few did. I'm always happy when my books find a home (Many of the sales were for original fiction, like my book Audrey Exposed)and with readers who are enthusiastic about the work.It's a nice feeling--One I won't deny.
Hard Facts: Posting my message on ff.net via The Merman allowed me to contact several thousand readers (although about half of what it would have been if I had done it through my more popular story, COH). The Merman typically has a handful of readers per day (maybe 20, compared to COH, which has, looking at the stats, about 600+ daily). It looks like about 8k people have read The Merman and announcement since last week. As an author that's such an amazing and interesting number to see. It makes you feel good that people are interested in what you are doing (if it translates to sales, which FTR, are a small faction of that overall number). It's nice to hear from readers, positive or negative (most were positive) and one interesting result was connecting with over-seas readers. Again, as a self-published author, is really hard to do.
My Angel Lawson blog, which I only linked this blog and the ff.net announcement had more hits than any other blog I've written in a long time. And on here, there were more than 70 comments. Plus private messages, comments on ff.net and DMs there as well. I made about 3 new friends on GR and possibly 3 on Roxy's facebook page. I haven't checked her twitter in months so who knows (Sorry--overwhelmed).
So in the end do I'm happy I reconnected with some readers. I hope they found some books they enjoy. I'm relieved to have this off my chest because managing the two accounts so separately/secretly was really overwhelming me. How I'll manage it in the future I am not sure (Feel free to friend me on Roxy's FB--I do try to keep better connected there). I suspect any extra notice I've gotten will fade pretty fast? That's how it seems to work. No complaints. Just commenting. So those who think this is about some sort of financial end game really do not understand how this book business works. At all.
Thanks for reading,
RQ/AL
BTW, (yes, deplorable self promotion.) My short story Tempted: Tyson will be available on October 1st. .99 cents. Here's the cover reveal:
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Frankly, with everything going on in my life I am simply out of F*cks to give on that situation.
To be clear, I did talk to my friend Sam (AG). She never saw my blog post as she was in the throws of an illness. I waited 3 days and confessed, linking her to all the drama. We talked. I almost puked. It was how we deal with things in our friendship because that's what we have. A friendship that goes beyond business and politics and who is better, Spike or Angel (Angel, duh) or Sam or Dean (undecided). If she feels like talking about it I'm sure she'll chime in when she's up to it. If not, all I can say is we're okay.
So let's talk about the rest of it. What happened from coming out of the p2p closet? Well, I definitely disappointed some people. Definitely. They feel betrayed and deceived and I can't take that back and I'm not sure I can apologize for something done with intent. There's some upset over the use of the word "Nasty FanFic Police," but...well, people show you who they are. We all make choices about our behavior and how we manage it. That's all I have to say about that.
People feel the need to address how I'm simply using the fandom to sell books. Well, yeah, sort of. I mean, I'd love for all my fanfic followers to buy my books. That would be amazing. The reality is a few did. I'm always happy when my books find a home (Many of the sales were for original fiction, like my book Audrey Exposed)and with readers who are enthusiastic about the work.It's a nice feeling--One I won't deny.
Hard Facts: Posting my message on ff.net via The Merman allowed me to contact several thousand readers (although about half of what it would have been if I had done it through my more popular story, COH). The Merman typically has a handful of readers per day (maybe 20, compared to COH, which has, looking at the stats, about 600+ daily). It looks like about 8k people have read The Merman and announcement since last week. As an author that's such an amazing and interesting number to see. It makes you feel good that people are interested in what you are doing (if it translates to sales, which FTR, are a small faction of that overall number). It's nice to hear from readers, positive or negative (most were positive) and one interesting result was connecting with over-seas readers. Again, as a self-published author, is really hard to do.
My Angel Lawson blog, which I only linked this blog and the ff.net announcement had more hits than any other blog I've written in a long time. And on here, there were more than 70 comments. Plus private messages, comments on ff.net and DMs there as well. I made about 3 new friends on GR and possibly 3 on Roxy's facebook page. I haven't checked her twitter in months so who knows (Sorry--overwhelmed).
So in the end do I'm happy I reconnected with some readers. I hope they found some books they enjoy. I'm relieved to have this off my chest because managing the two accounts so separately/secretly was really overwhelming me. How I'll manage it in the future I am not sure (Feel free to friend me on Roxy's FB--I do try to keep better connected there). I suspect any extra notice I've gotten will fade pretty fast? That's how it seems to work. No complaints. Just commenting. So those who think this is about some sort of financial end game really do not understand how this book business works. At all.
Thanks for reading,
RQ/AL
BTW, (yes, deplorable self promotion.) My short story Tempted: Tyson will be available on October 1st. .99 cents. Here's the cover reveal:
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