Mary Newman's Blog - Posts Tagged "relaxing"

You know the song "Anticipation" by Carly Simon? Sure, I'm showing my age right now, but go on YouTube and look it up if you don't know it. Now in place of the "anticipation" in the chorus, replace that with procrastination. It works, huh? That's been going through my head all week. Like an ear-worm. It's also what I've been doing in regards to my writing. I feel so guilty.

At first, it was all the cold weather that was playing havoc with my body and everything hurt. Yesterday and today, it's the sunshine and wanting to get out in it and just soak up the nice. That's my excuse for not working on the book running around in my head. My characters are sitting around looking bored interspersed with bouts of pouting and glaring at me. Sometimes being a writer is tantamount to being mentally unhinged - I hear voices and they get mad when I don't do what they say.

My second thought for this blog is the fact that I am, in fact, an adult. Been one for close to 40 years and I'm just tired of being the voice of experience. Honestly? I hate adulting. Somewhere along the line, people started thinking I knew what I was talking about and had the experience to deal with all of life's problems. I just want to look at them and say "I'm just as frickin' clueless as you. Why are you asking me?"

Let's face it, regardless of how many self-help books you read or how many counseling appointments you attend, there is no set guide for life. It doesn't exist. There are hints, of course, and you can take clues from the experience of others, but there's no absolute rule that says you have to handle a certain situation a certain way or the world will end, the sky will fall, and life as we know it will cease to exist. Me? I muddle through as best I can and I have the scars to prove it.

Today, I've decided to ignore adulting as much as possible. (Once I finish this blog) Sometimes, you just need to step back, look at the world through the eyes of a child, and wonder at the awesomeness of it all. You can't do that as an adult because you're always worrying about what bill needs to be paid, what responsibilities you need to take care of, the future, life in general, and anything else that crops up in your life. Maybe this should be a new goal for me: Take one day a week and enjoy life- look for shapes in the clouds, watch the birds and ladybugs flying around; just relax and pretend there's nothing that needs my immediate attention. I really like that idea.

If you need me I'll be in my imaginary castle with the unicorns and fairies serving tea and cakes.