Max Davine's Blog - Posts Tagged "new-year"
Christmas Card
Oh, my, it’s a tough time of year for some of us. It’s those few weeks at the end there, when no matter how great your friends are, or how many you have, everyone’s got something more important to do. It sounds awful, but I know. You might have spent the year thinking, not this time, only for it to come full circle again, even just at the last minute. Of you might have already been in that state of resignation that readied you for the onslaught of happiness that does not require you. See, I may not know what it’s like to be out there, raising a child alone, or to have gone through a divorce, but I do know how it feels to have that shadow behind you, threatening to make you believe you’re as useless as everyone has inadvertently made you feel throughout the year, culminating at this point. Where is that sweetheart you gave your time and attention to? Where is that affection, that never came in all the passing months and seasons? Where is that voice telling you, it’s all worth it? Did they go away? Where they ever there? I know how it feels to be the only one you can draw strength from, when the only person who believes in your is yourself.
It’s especially hard for the creatives, in this situation. The aspiring, the rising, even the accomplished. You’re fighting an uphill battle to be heard and appreciated as it is, your every ounce of energy is spent on being the one who sees your potential, and fights, every day, to achieve it. Because nobody has your back, and your industry doesn’t want you. See, I know.
All I can say is, don’t fall into that trap. Even if it’s true. Who knows, maybe we’re not meant to do it alone. Maybe we’re all built for co-dependence. This time of year is a cold reminder: you can be as defiant, embittered, strong, tough, savvy and self-supportive as humanely possible, it doesn’t dull the sting that late December bears. But, you know what? It passes. It ends. You’ve got a-whole-nother run starting in a week’s time. And maybe you’ll never achieve the heights you dream of, but is that why you do this? You do it for the love, right? So, love the fight. Give them a fight. If it’s to be a failure, make it one that will give them scars to remember you by. Make a mark, somewhere along the way, if not at the top. Never stop fighting, until the fight is done. Then, when you have nothing left, keep working. Keep going. See how fucked you can get.
Just don’t give up. I won’t either.
It’s especially hard for the creatives, in this situation. The aspiring, the rising, even the accomplished. You’re fighting an uphill battle to be heard and appreciated as it is, your every ounce of energy is spent on being the one who sees your potential, and fights, every day, to achieve it. Because nobody has your back, and your industry doesn’t want you. See, I know.
All I can say is, don’t fall into that trap. Even if it’s true. Who knows, maybe we’re not meant to do it alone. Maybe we’re all built for co-dependence. This time of year is a cold reminder: you can be as defiant, embittered, strong, tough, savvy and self-supportive as humanely possible, it doesn’t dull the sting that late December bears. But, you know what? It passes. It ends. You’ve got a-whole-nother run starting in a week’s time. And maybe you’ll never achieve the heights you dream of, but is that why you do this? You do it for the love, right? So, love the fight. Give them a fight. If it’s to be a failure, make it one that will give them scars to remember you by. Make a mark, somewhere along the way, if not at the top. Never stop fighting, until the fight is done. Then, when you have nothing left, keep working. Keep going. See how fucked you can get.
Just don’t give up. I won’t either.
