Cristina Istrati's Blog, page 6

Let your light shine. The world is waiting for it!

There is a light within you. It`s a light that only you have and is 100% yours. Nobody has ever had this light of yours, or the color of it, and nobody will ever have it.

Why?

Because you were born with it and nobody can ever take it, steal it, borrow it or copy it from you. No. That can never happen. The reason is simple: your light is unique and the Creator blessed you with it so that you can have your own mark of originality. I dare say that our Creator never wanted small copies as His children.

How could He want such a thing when he himself is a living proof of his endless originality?

Under these circumstances, you think He would want for his children to look alike, think and feel the same? Do the same things/activities, enjoy the same things, have the same ideas and so on…? My best guess is that the answer is no.

No, He never wanted these things for his creation, nor did he ever require it from them. Pretty healthy, logical and normal thinking, isn`t it?:-)

And how could it be otherwise when everything around us is touched by uniqueness?

Therefore, I imagine our Creator, sitting on his chair ( if he has one; maybe he likes sitting on the grass, instead?:D), and saying to himself:

I am original. Everything I have ever created on this planet is original. Hence, I do not want multiple faces of the same thing/person. No, not at all. I want original things/persons/skills/aptitudes/talents. So, it is my wish that every human being and soul should have something of its own, something that differences them from the rest of the people; something like a light among other lights. Yes, this is what I want and will do .

And thus, the Creator blessed every soul with qualities and talents that only that soul has.

We may enjoy the same things, we may do the same things( such as singing, writing, sculpting, engineering and so on) but we do not sing in the same way; we do not write, design, sketch, draw etc…in the same way, you follow me?:)

And believe me, this is the great part!:)

So, the way I see it is that we all are made out of the same divine essence; we all are these amazing, magnificent, unlimited beings who have come on Earth to explore and experience life. This is clear as day light.

The only thing that places “a difference” between us is how we do things & what we enjoy doing.

I often like to refer to the tree analogy. See, a tree has a root- a root through which it takes from the soil the minerals and nutrients it needs in order to grow tall and strong, right? This tree has many, many branches and leafs. The leafs are so many that it would be hard for us to count, but do you think that those leafs are all the same? Yes, they have the same shape and size but even so- they are unique and possess an absolute individuality. Isn`t this marvelous?:)

The other wonderful thing is that the tree wouldn`t be complete without all its leafs:) Yes, they fall when autumn comes but this happens after they “shone their light”, meaning they served the tree and now they are free to go.

I really do hope I have not lost you so far with so many words..:P Things are pretty simple, my dear friend:)

It`s really up to you to see and understand what I am writing here:) At any case, please take your time:) I don`t want you to rush:)

We have plenty of time ahead of us, and I am not going anywhere:)

Going back to our blog post, the point I am trying to convey is that the worlds needs you, my friend, just as the tree needs its leafs.

This whole world – just as we know it – wouldn`t be the same without you to shine your light upon it, as this makes all the difference and frankly – it is the very purpose and mission you were born to accomplish.

Of course, nobody is waiting around the corner to judge your or force you in anything – no, it wouldn`t be possible. Our Creator gave us free will. This means we are free to choose whether we`ll shine our light or not. But I do have a question to ask you, my friend:)

If you came here, if you faced all the trouble to come into this physical realm to experience life, wouldn`t it be a lost and waste to have made this journey and not share your special talents & light with the rest of the people? Every person has their “own light color” and this means that the more people shine their light, the more colors in our world to see!:)

Isn`t it great? Can you imagine how colorful our world would be?:)

Only one favor to ask you, my fellow human being: shine your light. I am curious and excited to see it:) Please don`t keep me waiting…:)

Much love,

Cristina

Love is the way- the only one!

Whenever you think about love, how do you feel? Whenever you feel love, how do you feel? Do you feel alive? Do you feel inspired, light, uplifted?

Is this what you feel?:)

I can hear your yes, my friend:) as love is exactly what I am experience right now, as I am writing these letters…:)

It`s beautiful, isn`t it?:) Love is beautiful. Love is life. Love is God and God is love…These two can`t be separated:)

I watched Jesus of Nazareth last night, and today, when I had to write this blog post, I didn`t have to think too much about what I will write:) The topic came pretty fast and with ease to me: love. Love is the way and it`s the only one.

Why am I writing about this topic, and what has that to do with the movie?, you may ask:)

The answer is this: love is what`s all about in the movie, and I totally got that as I was watching it:)

Don`t get me wrong. It`s not the first time for me when I watch this movie, oh no.

I believe I watched it for 4-5 times so far. But that happened when I was smaller and as a child/teenager you don`t get to understand too much from a movie, do you?

For some time now, I have been wanting to watch it, as if something (or somebody) would whisper:” Watch the movie, watch Jesus of Nazareth.”

Well, when seeing that “the voice” wouldn`t let me at peace, I finally took action. I searched for the movie and watched it online last night:)

For those of you who saw this movie too, you know that it`s full of messages, hidden meanings of the words, deeds and events. It`s also full of teachings- the part I love the most:)

So, at the beginning of the movie, I didn`t pay too much attention or interest and frankly, I was looking forward to getting to the end of it, so that I can say:” Ok, movie watched! I can move on to the next thing”. I am serious, this is what I thought.

Hope Jesus won`t be upset with me for saying this But I am a writer, and a writer must be authentic- no matter the circumstances.

As I was saying, the first part of the movie didn`t impress me too much. It`s where Jesus is a child and not much is happening at this stage.

But starting with the part where he gets older- this is where it gets really interesting. He speaks to the crowds, spreading God`s truth and love; he heals the sick and comforts those in pain and misery; he performs miracles and the people are inspired by him, by the truthfulness of his words.

They are given a new hope of salvation and he lifts them up from the weight of their sins.

And what I noticed is that the core message of Jesus`s coming into this world is love. Love, love, love and again, love. Everything he ever thought, said and done came from this place of unconditional love, and this is so very well shown when, as he saw the crowd, went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to him, and he began to teach them The Beatitudes.

1Blessed are the poor in spirit,

for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

2Blessed are those who mourn,

for they will be comforted.

3 Blessed are the meek,

for they will inherit the earth.

4Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,

for they will be filled.

5Blessed are the merciful,

for they will be shown mercy.

6Blessed are the pure in heart,

for they will see God.

7Blessed are the peacemakers,

for they will be called children of God.

8Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

9Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

“Love your neighbor as thyself; love and pray for your enemy; feed the hungry one; cloth the naked one; do unto others what you like to be done unto you…” all this and so much more are Jesus`s teachings, teachings that can be defined with one single word: Love. Whoever has love is his heart, can fulfill and experience these commandments with so much joy and ease!

The moment when he was crucified… my eyes welled with tears as the scene is so sensible and touching! There he was, on that cross, enduring the heavy weight of our sins and ignorance.

And what did He do?

He embraced it all; he didn`t put up resistance nor did he fight back. Instead, He accepted it all; he accepted it willingly and kept his loving, kind, compassionate nature, saying:” Father, forgive them for they know not what they do”

And in the night when He prayed in the Gethsemane garden, what did He say?

“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.”

Isn`t this the ultimate act of love? Isn`t this the ultimate proof of unconditional and unlimited love? Wasn`t Jesus the embodiment of pure love? I believe He was.

He knew it. He knew it very well that only love could wash away all sins and misery; He knew that only love could heal the world and people`s suffering souls and hearts; He knew that it was only through love that He could endure all that pain and agony while on that cross.

Why? Because He loved our world, He loved the people and He wanted for them to be cleansed by all sins and be at peace again and reconciled with Father from Heaven.

When the movie finished, I had this thought that Jesus can have more than 12 disciples. The entire world can be His disciples. Everybody who wants to follow Him can be His disciple, a true living example of His message and teachings. I believe this is what being a Christian really means.

We must love each other; we must understand, care and respect each other. It is through love that we can do it. If we put aside our egotistical side and open our hearts instead, we`ll find it that it`s rather easy to love and be loved; that it`s easy to look at ourselves as brothers and sisters and it`s easy to realize that we are not alone and each person`s words or deeds has an impact over our world.

Give love and surround yourself with it, as it`s the only way you can feel connected with everything else around you. Arthur Baker said it so well with his song (one I simply love!:)), LOVE IS THE MESSAGE !:)))

Much love,

Cristina

 

Fie-ţi ţie adevãrat…

Zilele trecute, stãteam la fereastrã şi priveam cum vântul sufla peste frunzele copacilor, şi ele se desprindeau lin, fãrã pic de rezistenţã, unduindu-se şerpuitor pânã la contactul cu suprafaţa asprã a pãmântului- destinaţia lor finalã.

Am urmãrit o vreme acest ”spectacol” al naturii. Mi se pãrea fascinant- felul cum crengile îşi lepãdau frunzele sub bãtaia vântului, copacii legãnându-se aidoma uni bãtrân greoi, apãsat de anii numeroşi adunaţi de trupul sãu, cerul mohorât, gata sã plouã dacã acei nori se mai înnegreau mult- o fascinaţie care-şi avea izvor în însuşi firescul acelui spectacol. Era un peisaj captivant, unul care-ţi atrãgea atenţia deşi nu ţi-o cerea. Nu cerea nimic, de fapt.

Ba mai mult, peisajul dãdea dovadã de autonomie absolutã, manifestându-se tot la fel de liber şi nestingherit chiar şi în absenţa vreunui spectator. “Interesant…” am gândit eu. “Nu-i extraordinar cum Dumnezeu şi-a lãsat amprenta divinã peste tot şi în toate?”

M-am întors la masa de scris, intuind umbra unei melancolii în sufletul meu. Nu ştiu précis de ce, dar ceva legat de ceea ce vãzusem mai devreme nu-mi dãdea pace. Fereastra era în faţa mea; iar am fixat-o.

La scurt timp dupã, am înţeles şi de ce. Am înţeles motivul pentru care mintea mea revenea iar şi iar la acea imagine. Descoperirea a venit însoţitã şi de un zâmbet, pliindu-se perfect pe buzele mele: acea reprezentaţie tãinuia un adevãr al vieţii la care nu mã mai gândisem niciodatã pânã atunci, un adevãr pe care îl poti numi cu uşurinţã, “toamna vieţii.”

De ce toamna vieţii?

Pentru cã, asemenea frunzei care se desprinde de creangã, e şi viaţa noastrã, dragã cititorule. E tot la fel de fragilã, nesigurã şi vulnerabilã. Ĩţi închipui tu oare cã atunci când vântul se porneşte, frunza are ştiinţã dacã se va dezlipi sau nu, dacã va mai sta agãţatã de creanga de la care îşi trage seva? Nu are ştiinţã de aşa ceva. Pentru ea, pot fi ultimele clipe din existenţa sa ca frunzã sau, dimpotrivã, existenţa ei poate continua.

Ei, cam aşa e şi cu viaţa noastrã, o cãlãtorie care începe în pântecul mamei dar finalul ei nu-l cunoaşte nimeni, nici unde, nici cum.

Şi atunci, te întreb eu, dragã cititorule, oare nu e important sã-ţi fii ţie adevãrat? Oare nu e important sã pui sufletul tãu mai presus de orice, şi mai mult de atât, relaţia ta cu tine însuţi sã fie cât mai curate? Oare nu e important asta?

Eu zic cã da, dat fiind cã şi sfântul şi evanghelistul Marcu ne învaţã la fel, când spune: Cãci ce-i foloseşte omului sã câştige lumea întreagã dacã-şi pierde sufletul? Sau ce ar putea sã dea omul, în schimb, pentru sufletul sãu? – douã întrebãri semnificative la care sã ne gândim serios.

Cãlãtoria noastrã pe acest pãmânt nu este infinitã. Dacã a avut un început e doar normal sã aibã şi un sfârşit. Important e ce facem noi şi mai ales, cum trãim noi cu noi înşine, de-a lungul acestui fir existential de la A şi Z. 

Relaţia ta cu tine însuţi/însãţi e cea mai însemnatã/relevantã relaţie pe care o vei avea vreodatã.

Ce importanţã are cã eşti înconjurat de un milion sau douã de oameni, dacã tu te simţi singur în interior? Ce importanţã are cã tu acumulezi averi în vreme ce sufletul tãu plânge? Ce importanţã are cã ai aceastã lume (materialã) la picioare dacã tu te simţi gol pe dinãuntru? Conteazã alergãtura ta dupã una sau alta, dacã tu ai uitat de sufletul tãu?

Mai au toate acestea vreo însemnãtate când de partea cealaltã a balanţei stã scânteia ta divinã?

Am sã te las pe tine, dragã cititorule, sã-ţi rãspunzi la aceste întrebãri, pentru cã eu mi-am rãspuns şi ştiu sã fac alte alegeri în viaţã, acum.

Nãdãjduiesc cã vei vedea, sub lumina celor afirmate mai sus, legãtura dintre ele şi exemplul frunzei. Nu ştim nicicând când putem fi “desprinşi” de la creanga vieţii, creangã care ne susţine şi ne dã tot ce avem nevoie.

Dacã tot nu suntem pe acest pãmânt pentru veşnicie, şi nimeni nu-l moşteneşte, sã ne fim nouã adevãraţi, şi sã nu ne lãsãm orbiţi de mirajul strãlucitor şi multicolor oferit de lumea pãmânteascã; sã trãim în pace şi împãcare cu noi înşine, cã de restul are bunul Dumnezeu grijã; sã mergem la culcare cu mintea seninã, şi sã avem grijã de ceea ce gândim, spunem şi facem, astfel încât sã putem privi fãrã urmã de jenã, ruşine, vinovãţie sau remuşcare în acei ochi cu care vedem dar cu care suntem şi vãzuţi.

Fie-ţi ţie adevãrat. Va fi cea mai vie şi împlinitoare amintire a ta.

Cristina

 

You are perfect. No change needed!

I bet there have been people who told you, to some point in your life, that you should change, that you should be such and such, and do what it is required from you not what you`d like to do, isn`t it?

I know it, because I have been there myself, too. I guess there`s not a single person in this whole word that hasn`t heard “famous” lines such as:” You better stop fooling around and start doing what`s best for you!”, or “ You need to change. It`s not good for you the way you are right now. You absolutely need to change”

All this leaves me speechless!

How do they know what`s best for You?

How do they know You need to change?

And most of all- who do they think they are to tell you that you need to change? I`m serious, what makes them think they have the authority or right to tell you that you need to change? Isn`t it silly? Isn`t it arrogant? Isn`t it a violation of the person’s rights? If you ask me, my answer is yes to all of these questions.

In my opinion, there isn`t a single person on this planet that has the right to demand this change from you; not even your parents.

And why am I saying this?

Because parents were given to us for them to raise and care for us- not to change us.

It would be kind of silly, wouldn’t it be?

Here we are, sent on Earth by God, in the most perfect form that could ever exist and our parents are waiting for us to “make the adjustments”?!

How stupid is that?!

Differently put, we are spiritual travelers- everybody is. So parents are like a gate through which we come into this world. Under these circumstances, since when can a gate have demands over the traveler that passes through it? Pretty logical, right?

If this would be the case, then I guess God wouldn`t be so perfect, would He? He wouldn`t be the perfect creator that we all know as, right? So, since He is not “perfect”, what kind of a God is He, in the end?

I do believe that after the above mentioned question, you`ll see my point and agree with me that indeed, God is perfect and perfectness is everything He does.

Therefore, nobody should ever worry or get frustrated about the fact that he/she can`t fulfill the “expectations” that people imposed upon them.

And when I say expectations, I am referring to those well-known standards that are so high it makes one dizzy. For real! This has another bad side, too: whenever we feel we don`t fit and we can`t be at height, our self love and esteem drop so low that we feel we are worthless and being perfect is the furthest thing we could possibly think or accept.

See my point?

This is what happens when we give up on ourselves for the foolish quest to please others. Oh well, this is another topic Funny how I seem to jump from a topic to another…:D Nothing planned, of course :-))

So, going back to our today`s topic:-)

I do mean it when I say that you are perfect. I really do. You may think I am crazy or am talking nonsense. I can accept that, because I know you`re not seeing yourself the way I do. And the way I look at you tells me that you`ve been wonderfully made; you`ve been touched by the most perfect creating hand that exits on the face of the Earth; that you are unique and deep down, at the bottom of your soul, lies an ocean of love, understanding, acceptance for you and everything else around you. You just need to remember these things- that is all.

This is what I know about you, this is my truth and it is enough for me, regardless if you agree or not.

Nobody can ever impose something on you- not even family, friends, relatives and most certainly- not society. You were sent “wearing” a perfect shape, with everything included in it. So it is with a fruit,  plant, an animal and so on.

When you look at them, aren`t you charmed by their beauty and perfectness?

Would you ever change something about them? Would you change the shape of the fruit or your dog`s color? Would you? You wouldn`t, right?

So it is with you, my friend:-)

You are perfectly made, and you DON`T NEED any change. Please stop listening to the people who`re telling you you do. They are wrong in their judgment simply because they haven`t accepted themselves either. Their judgment is a clear sign of their own unacceptance.

The only thing you need to do is shine your light and perfectness. This is what God wants from you:-)

Much love,

Cristina

 

 

If you are to be a woman then… be a real one!

God has been very generous with the female gender. Maybe one of the reason is because women don`t have such great physical power like men do. As a substitute, God has blessed women with grace, intelligence, strong sense of maturity and responsibility, intuition, playfulness of the mind and soul. God knew what He was doing, this is without doubt;-)

Yet, when it comes to being a real woman, what does it mean? Or what does it imply? How does a real woman look like, how does she cope with life and its challenges? How does she think, behave…?

Well, chances are we may never find the perfect or supreme answer to all these questions, as everybody has their own way of thinking and looking at things. And for more than a million times these ways are different, which is a good thing.

We need variety, don`t we?:-)

But I do can share with you my own thoughts and feelings around the subject.

If it happens for you to get touched or inspired by them, it`s great!:-) If, by any chance, what I am about to write won`t move you, then I guess we`re on different pages and the energy of my words didn`t find a destination in you- which is fine, too.

At the end of the day, we didn`t come here to impress one another. No. We came here to explore and live life, and if it happens for our energy fields to resonate one with another- it`s even better!:-))

Ok, going back to the topic:-)

A real woman…?

A real woman, in my view, is someone who is aware of herself- this is, let`s say, the first criteria.

Aware of herself? What does it mean?, you may ask.

A woman who is aware of herself is a woman who knows her worth. She is the type of woman that lives completely in the fullness of her spirit, mind and body, a woman that knows she`s so much more than the physical layers that her mind and body secure for her.

What I mean to say is that a real woman is first and foremost, a spiritual woman, as this is the place where it all starts and where all her beauty comes from. Without spirituality, a woman is like a walking doll, being able to take care of her things and run her life as she pleases to but still- a walking doll.

Now, if I would be a man, I wouldn`t want a walking doll by my side. I am serious! If I would be a man, I would search a woman that has a strong relationship with her Creator ( I won`t say God, as I don`t want to suggest any idea of religion).

Why would I search a woman like that?

Simply because, a person (regardless female or male) without the presence of their Creator in their lives is a shallow person; is a person that won`t care too much about their fellow countrymen or anything else happening around them; is a person that has their main focus on the material side of this world and we do know that everything in this physical realm is momentary, don`t we? This type of person will most definitely yawn when somebody else will show interest or talk about the supreme force that created this world or important matters that our planet is facing right now. For all these reasons, I wouldn’t want a walking doll by my side.

Going further, a real woman takes full responsibility for herself and her life. She will not ever blame others for what`s going on in her life because she is strong and has brains enough to accept and admit the fact that she is the only one who has control over her life.

A real woman stands up for herself and speaks her mind whenever she feels she has to; a real woman loves herself ( as a main premise for a rich and fulfilling life), respects and takes care of herself and she`s doing all this without the smallest expectation of getting these “presents” from her dad, brother, friend, boyfriend, husband or whoever it may be.

How come? Because she knows that she is the center of her life and she may want to stay this way if she wants to live life fully. If there`s something she wants to be, do or have, she`ll get down to work and achieve that thing!

No excuses, no waiting, no delaying, no postponing, no “whys”, no “buts”….no nothing! She just gets to work! Simple as that!

A real woman is someone who never accept less than what she`s really deserving; a real woman is a woman with pride, dignity; she has great self-esteem and most of all- she cares about the relationship she has with herself. A woman like that walks tall, regardless of the circumstances in her life; she is both a dreamer and a do-er; a woman like that keeps her cold blood and judgment even when it seems that all hell broke loose!

A real woman has self-confidence and she approves of herself, she approves what she thinks, says and does, and she doesn`t need any approval coming from somebody else; a real woman is free in the way her mind works and her way of being, and has but only one mantra: ” I can do it !!”.

She has her own life, her own career and money and she will not ever relay on her husband for the things she needs- financially speaking. A woman like this has no fear of speaking her mind and say “No!” when it is required.

A real woman is delicate; a real woman is elegant, funny, feminine, sexy, gracious, seductive, mysterious, she`s polite and well mannered.

A real woman is independent, capable, courageous, and passionate! Oh yes, a real woman is excited about having babies and becoming a mother!:-)

She represents the perfect balance between the spiritual and material side of life; she brings peace where there is war, she brings harmony where there is revenge, she brings love where there is hatred, she brings light where there is dark.

In my view, this is how a real woman looks like.

Now, I`m curious to find out what your thoughts are:-) How does a real woman look like from your point of view?:-)

Can`t wait to hear:-)

Much love,

Cristina

 

La o cafea cu personajele mele… :-)

M-am trezit într-o dimineaţã de duminicã cu un gând: “Oare ce mai fac personajele mele? Pe unde mai sunt, ce mai pun la cale, cu cine? Sunt fericite, sunt triste…?”

Cã îmi era dor, zãu aşa…Nu mai ştiam nimic de ele:D

Ĩn sfârşit, las gândul sã treacã şi mã apuc ba de una, ba de alta- nimic concret, în tot cazul- cã doar era duminicã…:-)

Toate bune şi frumoase, dar acest gând nu-mi dãdea pace. Şi mã gândeam la personajele mele din primul roman, din al doilea, din poveştile de copii pe care le-am scris pânã acum… Nu fãcea sens!

Cum adicã, sã-mi fie dor de personajele mele?! Nu e cam ciudat?

O fi, dar acesta era sentimentul.

La urma-urmei, unui scriitor îi este permis absolut orice, inclusiv dorul de personajele sale. Pãi, de ce nu, de vreme ce el le-a creat?

“Hai sã fac ceva despre asta”, îmi zic eu. Iau un volum din Confuzie seducãtoare, iau şi manuscrisul celui de-al doilea roman – Ispitã nobilã – şi mã aşez la umbra nucului din curte. Iau cu mine şi o ceaşcã de cafea, cã, de!, merge altfel cu ea:D

Cu mare dragoste dar şi grijã, încep a rãsfoi paginile volumelor din faţa mea. Un zâmbet mare mi se lipeşte pe buze, şi o umbra de mândrie mi se furişeazã în suflet când vãd ce am creat, când recitesc cele ce am scris.   

Da, mândrie. Ştiu, ştiu: marele pãcat al scriitorilor.

Dar nu cumva existã şi o mândrie pozitivã?

Genul acela de mândrie care te face sã te simţi încrezãtor în forţele şi talentele tale, care te stimuleazã sã vrei sã împlineşti şi mai multe?

Ei, la acel gen de mândrie mã refer eu:-)

Nu, nu m-am referit nicio secundã la genul de mândrie prosteascã, himericã, orbitoare, care îmbatã omul şi-l trimite pe un vârf de munte utopic, închipuindu-şi cã el e stãpînul lumii. Nu, nicidecum.

Lumea nu aparţine omului şi nu el e stãpânul ei- limpede ca lumina zilei. Cine crede altfel are gândirea la fel de irealã ca şi muntele de care vorbeam.

Sã revenim la întâlnirea cu personajele acum…:-)

Precum povesteam, iau volumele şi le rãsfoiesc, nutrind înãuntrul meu bucuria, mândria şi recunoştinta de a fi scriitor, de a purta în mânã magia şi puterea creatoare a condeiului, de a fãuri propriile lumi şi personaje, de a evada spre alte universuri şi mai ales- de a trãi veşnic prin cãrţile pe care le scriu. Când acest gând îmi atinge mintea, simt cum inima mi se umple de fericire şi revarsã asemenea unui fluviu pe timp ploios.

Toate aceste lucruri mã cheamã iar şi iar la masa de scris, nu pot altfel. Şi recunoştinţa mea e infinitã, cãci fac ceea ce iubesc sã fac; fac acel lucru care reprezintã însuşi motivul venirii mele pe acest pãmânt.

Trec mai departe, mai dau câteva pagini.

Personajele mele dragi, atât principale cât şi secundare…:-)

Divine Anderson şi Lucas Brown, din primul roman. Elisabeth Waidhofen şi Andreas von Hochwaltmont din al doilea roman… Le simt aproape; atât de aproape cã am senzaţia ca stau cu mine, sub acel nuc.

E o comunicare tacitã între noi, pot sã o simt. Şi nu am nevoie sã-mi vãd sau aud personajele, ca sã le simt prezenţa. Nu. Eu ştiu cã ele sunt cu mine. Nu am nevoie nici de cuvinte; cuvintele sunt de prisos în acest caz. Comunicarea noastrã e de altã naturã, o comunicare aleasã care perforeazã sfera fizicului şi se duce sus, cãtre metafizic. E o comunicare de la creator la creaţie şi invers, ca o punte ce uneşte doua lumi aparent diferite şi totuşi, atât de asemãnãtoare.

Asta e relaţia cu personajele mele

Zâmbesc, şi le mulţumesc cã m-au ales pe mine pentru “naşterea” lor.

Ele, pe de altã parte, îmi mulţumesc pentru cã le-am dat viaţã, cã le-am adus în acest plan fizic; pentru rãbdarea pe care am avut-o cu fiecare, ascultând cu blândeţe nevoiele şi dorinţele lor; pentru cã am fost duhovnicul cãruia ele au mãrturisit şi bune, şi rele; pentru cã au ieşit dintr-un bloc de marmurã, trãindu-şi propria formã acum.

Eu nu mai am ce sã mai adaug la asta. Iau ceaşca cu cafea şi beau din ea, privind cu ochi strãlucitori spre cer

A fi scriitor este o binecuvântare şi unul dintre cele mai frumoase drumuri pe care poate merge cineva. Mulţumesc, Doamne, cã m-ai aşezat pe acest drum!

Cristina

La o cafea cu personajele mele…:-)

M-am trezit într-o dimineaţã de duminicã cu un gând: “Oare ce mai fac personajele mele? Pe unde mai sunt, ce mai pun la cale, cu cine? Sunt fericite, sunt triste…?”

Cã îmi era dor de ele, zãu aşa…Nu mai ştiam nimic de ele:D

Ĩn sfârşit, las gândul sã treacã şi mã apuc ba de una, ba de alta- nimic concret, în tot cazul- cã doar era duminicã…:-)

Toate bune şi frumoase, dar acest gând nu-mi dãdea pace. Şi mã gândeam la personajele mele din primul roman, din al doilea, din poveştile de copii pe care le-am scris pânã acum… Nu fãcea sens!

Cum adicã, sã-mi fie dor de personajele mele?! Nu e cam ciudat?

O fi, dar acesta era sentimentul.

La urma-urmei, unui scriitor îi este permis absolut orice, inclusiv dorul de personajele sale.

Pãi, de ce nu, de vreme ce el le-a creat?

“Hai sã fac ceva despre asta”, îmi zic eu. Iau un volum din Confuzie seducãtoare, iau şi manuscrisul celui de-al doilea roman – Ispitã nobilã – şi mã aşez la umbra nucului din curte. Iau cu mine şi o ceaşcã de cafea, cã, de!, merge altfel cu ea:D

Cu mare dragoste dar şi grijã, încep a rãsfoi paginile volumelor din faţa mea. Un zâmbet mare mi se lipeşte pe buze, şi o umbra de mândrie mi se furişeazã în suflet când vãd ce am creat, când recitesc cele ce am scris.   

Da, mândrie. Ştiu, ştiu: marele pãcat al scriitorilor.

Dar nu cumva existã şi o mândrie pozitivã?

Genul acela de mândrie care te face sã te simţi încrezãtor în forţele şi talentele tale, care te stimuleazã sã vrei sã împlineşti şi mai multe?

Ei, la acel gen de mândrie mã refer eu:-)

Nu, nu m-am referit nicio scundã la genul de mândrie prosteascã, himericã, orbitoare, care îmbatã omul şi-l trimite pe un vârf de munte utopic, închipuindu-şi cã el e stãpînul lumii. Nu, nicidecum.

Lumea nu aparţine omului şi nu el e stãpânul ei- limpede ca lumina zilei. Cine crede altfel are gândirea la fel de irealã ca şi muntele de care vorbeam.

Sã revenim la întâlnirea cu personajele acum…:-)

Precum povesteam, iau volumele şi le rãsfoiesc, nutrind înãuntrul meu bucuria, mândria şi recunoştinta de a fi scriitor, de a purta în mânã magia şi puterea creatoare a condeiului, de a fãuri propriile lumi şi personaje, de a evada spre alte universuri şi mai ales- de a trãi veşnic prin cãrţile pe care le scriu. Când acest gând îmi atinge mintea, simt cum inima mi se umple de fericire şi revarsã asemenea unui fluviu pe timp ploios.

Toate aceste lucruri mã cheamã iar şi iar la masa de scris, nu pot altfel. Şi recunoştinţa mea e infinitã, cãci fac ceea ce iubesc sã fac; fac acel lucru care reprezintã însuşi motivul venirii mele pe acest pãmânt.

Trec mai departe, mai dau câteva pagini.

Personajele mele dragi, atât principale cât şi secundare…:-)

Divine Anderson şi Lucas Brown, din primul roman. Elisabeth Waidhofen şi Andreas von Hochwaltmont din al doilea roman… Le simt aproape; atât de aproape cã am senzaţia ca stau cu mine, sub acel nuc.

E o comunicare tacitã între noi, pot sã o simt. Şi nu am nevoie sã-mi vãd sau aud personajele, ca sã le simt prezenţa. Nu. Eu ştiu cã ele sunt cu mine. Nu am nevoie nici de cuvinte; cuvintele sunt de prisos în acest caz. Comunicarea noastrã e de altã naturã, o comunicare aleasã care perforeazã sfera fizicului şi se duce sus, cãtre metafizic. E o comunicare de la creator la creaţie şi invers, ca o punte ce uneşte doua lumi aparent diferite şi totuşi, atât de asemãnãtoare.

Asta e relaţia cu personajele mele

Zâmbesc, şi le mulţumesc cã m-au ales pe mine pentru “naşterea” lor.

Ele, pe de altã parte, îmi mulţumesc pentru cã le-am dat viaţã, cã le-am adus în acest plan fizic; pentru rãbdarea pe care am avut-o cu fiecare, ascultând cu blândeţe nevoiele şi dorinţele lor; pentru cã am fost duhovnicul cãruia ele au mãrturisit şi bune, şi rele; pentru cã au ieşit dintr-un bloc de marmurã, trãindu-şi propria formã acum.

Eu nu mai am ce sã mai adaug la asta. Iau ceaşca cu cafea şi beau din ea, privind cu ochi strãlucitori spre cer

A fi scriitor este o binecuvântare şi unul dintre cele mai frumoase drumuri pe care poate merge cineva. Mulţumesc, Doamne, cã m-ai aşezat pe acest drum!

Cristina

Go inside the mine if you want the diamonds.

I was reading the other day an article on how one has to do the work in order to fulfill their dreams. Big article…:D

I guess there`s no Aladdin’s lamp here, is it?:D

It would be kind of fun;-) and even if it would be, we still need to take action for what we want to achieve. It`s just how this Universe works

So, since no lamp is near us :D, what to do?

Well… Take action, anyway!

Truth is it`s not always easy. As humans, we face all kinds of obstacles or resistance when it comes to materializing our desires. Even the most inspired people have their ups and downs, confronting themselves with issues like this -every now and then- at least.

The good news is that we have a choice. Always. I know you want to see your dreams come true. I mean, who doesn`t? And there`s no limit to it! You can have it all!!

But for that, my friend, you`ll have to go inside the mine. Quite a challenge, isn`t it?:-)  And what do I mean when I say, “Go inside the mine”?

It`s a metaphor, of course, but it expresses perfectly what I want to say.

Let me be more precise.

Ever thought about what a miner goes through when he steps inside the mine and starts doing his work? It`s not at all nice, is it?

I mean, that darkness, the dust, the humidity, heat… and on top of all this comes the toughest part: he actually needs to grab his tools and carve into the stone to find the diamonds. Pretty harsh task, isn`t it?                

But what will he hold in his hands when he exits the mine?  Yes, the beautiful, expensive and priceless diamonds…:-)

Hope I haven`t lost you so far, my friend:-) as this is the part where it gets interesting!:-)

The same principle applies in our lives, too. I mean, the rest of the people who don`t work in a mine. But we still have our own diamonds to look for, still have our own carving to do.

And we aren`t doing it with tools. No. We`re doing it with our minds, souls and body and the reward is … expansion. This is our foremost diamond we get, once we decide to step in and do the work.

And all the things I mentioned before, sweat, darkness, heat, dust and so on…

These are our bridges we need to walk on or rings of fire we need to go through so that we can, eventually, reach our goals- whatever these goals may be. They are waiting for us on the other side.

This also brings in psychology and spirituality because, once you burn these stages, you`ll be another person, a person that is much more mature, developed, committed and ready to face life`s challenges. You`ll be, as they say, weather-beaten.

So, to have or not to have the diamonds?:D I bet this will sounds pretty familiar to you…:D

But it really does sum up what I want to say here. If you know what you`re diamonds are and are committed to go after them, then, my friend, you`ll have to step inside the mine. And you`re not the only one. Nope

Everybody who ever wanted something ( bad enough!!) and achieved it, they walked into the mine and dug for their diamonds. It`s the only way one can get what they want. And it`s not a one time job, my friend. As long as you have diamonds you want to have, you`ll have to keep digging. There`s no shortcut here.

On the other hand, if you don`t want to experience the mine, that is fine too. It is your call to make- at the end of the day. You can relax somewhere outside the mine as there`s nobody who can force you to go in. But this comes with a price: you`ll never know what your diamonds are, let alone to hold them in your hands.

You see my point?:-)

Hope I made you reflect on this, as it`s an important matter. For me, at least:-)

So, what will you choose, my friend?

Much love,

Cristina

 

 

You`re honoring God when you honor yourself.

This seems to be quite a paradox, isn`t it? Because nobody has taught us to do it.

But even so, please don`t shut yourself before this statement and I do understand if it`s something you`re reading or hearing for the first time.

I understand, my friend

I really do, because we weren`t taught to honor ourselves, we didn`t see this at our parents our grandparents or elders, therefore, how could we possibly know about it?

Well, the answer is simple: we don`t.

But this can be changed and this the good part:-)

Yes, it is:-)

And you know why?

Because, it lies in our hands Simple as that:-)

It lies in my hands to honor myself. It lies in your hands to honor yourself. It lies in their hands to honor themselves. And the list goes on and on and on…

The reason for this is because God gave us total freedom and responsibility for our lives. This can only mean that we`re free to treat our mind, body and soul in any way we choose to (followed by the specific consequences, of course. It is after all, a cause-effect world we live in)

So, what do I mean by You`re honoring God when you honor yourself?

Simply put, I mean this: God smiles when He sees that you take good care of yourself. God smiles when He sees that you`re being the best version of yourself. He smiles when he sees that you`re acknowledging the infinite power and potential that you have within you.

This is what I mean

Now, you may think, Why would God smile when He sees all this?

Good question:-)

And the answer is this: He smiles because you`re being who you really are and who you were meant to be; He smiles because you`re expressing your gifts and talents into the world, making it a better place with them. He smiles because you are fully aware of all the greatness that is within you and you live by it day by day.

And let me tell you another thing, too. When you`re honoring yourself, you honor the divine spark and light that He placed in your soul. Yes, this is what happens…:-)

Isn`t it wonderful?:-) Aren`t we the most blessed amongst all creatures? :-)  

I truly believe we are, my friend…:-)

It is vital to honor yourself, my dear fellow human being

It is important to honor your soul, as it is the most precious thing you have and will ever have. This earthly life isn`t long and doesn`t last forever. Earthly things come and go, just like the sun rises in the morning and sets down in the evening.

So it is with our life. Is it beautiful? Certainly. Is it ours? Most definitely.

But it doesn`t last an eternity, therefore, why chase little and temporary things when it is our soul that truly matters and is with us till the end of all times?( If an end really exists, that is…:D Personally, I doubt it but that`s another topic)

Thus, we need to look after our souls and honor them, as they are the divine seeds given to us by God. They are the ones that really matter, and we better start honoring them…:-)

Then, come our mind and body. Why is it important to honor our mind and body?

Well, firstly because they are God given divine tools and it is through them that we can experience life. We honor our mind by using it well and wisely; we honor it by loving it and feeding it with uplifting, inspiring and positive thoughts. The mind is a very powerful tool; it can either help or harm us. The choice is ours and how we use it. Don`t get caught up by the collective mind`s attitude.

Honor your mind by thinking for yourself. This is where all your power and source of power is. Think for yourself and use your mind wisely.

The body is the third thing we need to honor in order for the Trinity to be complete

Imagine a traveler wanting to visit different places but doesn’t` have a carriage to do so? He can`t, can he? He needs a vehicle that will carry him throughout his journey.

Same thing with our bodies.

They are our “vehicles” through which we can walk, eat, feel, think, work. Without them, it would be IMPOSSIBLE for us to be here, in this human and physical shape.

That being said, it`s pretty obvious now why our bodies need special care and attention, right?:-)

They are these silent servants, giving us all and without asking anything back. At times, we get so caught up in our work and daily affairs that we forget that they need water, stretching, nutritious food (not junk food!), exercise and so on.

We tend to take for granted these divine tools called bodies but we shouldn`t as it is through God`s will that we came here, taking human form. It was His will to have these bodies…:-)  Therefore, don`t take it for granted, ok?

Instead, be appreciative for it, love your body, give it what it needs.

This way, the Trinity will be in harmony…:-)

You see now, my friend, how important it is to honor yourself? You see how important it is to have the Trinity (your trinity) in balance?

The soul is linked to the mind for it can`t fulfill its purpose without it. The body is linked to the mind and both of them are linked to the soul because it is the soul that keeps them alive. The soul is the divine wood that keeps the fire burning.

If the wood runs out, how will you maintain the fire burning?

Think about it, please…:-)

Sending you much love

And remember: God is happy and smiles when you love yourself, when you accept and embrace all that you are, and mostly- He smiles when you honor YOURSELF. This is what He wants you to do.

Love & Light,

Cristina

 

 

Letter to Michael Jackson…

I`m really happy for writing this now:-)

It`s a joy that fills my heart and nourishes my mind… Thank you, Lord, for this amazing moment:-)

Today is June 25th, 2014- five years since Michael Jackson passed away. I still find it hard to believe that it`s been so long already but I guess it`s what time does best, isn`t it? It just flies…

Oh well, since it is a special day, I wanted to write down some of my thoughts and feelings about Michael, as a humble tribute to the one who was and still is, the King of Pop.

Therefore, let me start..:-) Mm, but how should I start?:P

So many words and ideas come to my mind, begging me to immortalize them by adding them in this post…. I will do my best, I promise…:-)

So, Michael… I want to thank you for coming into this world. I want to thank you for being a gift to it, thank you for sharing your beautiful and loving soul with the entire planet. Thank you. I know it wasn`t easy, Michael. I know you had your fair share of struggles, battles, sorrow and trials, I know it.

And even so, you continued shining your light, you continued staying true to your spirit`s calling and purpose, and more than that- you continued honoring the golden treasure that was within you. For all this, I can only say- Thank you, Michael.

Thank you for making this world a better place. Thank you for your amazing songs; thank you for teaching us about love, about compassion, understanding one for another, peace among people. Thank you for teaching us about love and respect for nature, about God and His unlimited love for us, His children. Thank you, Michael, for not ever giving up what was important to you, not giving up on what was your mission, in spite all hardships, tears and pain.                                                                          

Thank you so much for being yourself and staying yourself, in a world where everybody is constantly trying to change you or dictate you how to be, to live your life. Thank you, Michael, for being a light of the world, a light that suffered silently and was surrounded by darkness.

And yet, this light was strong enough to keep lightening and enlightening the masses. Thank you, for your hard work and unshakable commitment. For all this, Thank you Michael.

Words are not enough to show you my deep gratitude, love and respect I have for you. Your beautiful soul, mind and body were definitely God`s tools and I am happy that you allowed Him to make you His instrument for spreading wonderful messages through your music. Thank you for being a clear channel, Michael, a channel through which flowed the purest of love, creativity, compassion, mercy for your fellow people, modesty, magic. You are amazing, Michael, and I know you can hear me when I say this now:-)

I am glad for being given the opportunity to share this time-space reality with you. You know what I mean…:-)

Thank you, Michael, for your kindness and gentleness; thank you for all the wisdom, love and harmony you spread around you and to everyone you came in contact with. Your spirit is full of light and goodness, and this is obvious from the way you served our world. Thank you.

Hopefully, we`ll meet again, my dear friend and fellow human being:-) I`d surely love that:-)

Wherever you may be, Michael, please know that there are people who love and cherish you and your work, people whose lives were changed due to your enormous contribution. Please know that you`re missed and your absence is sensed.

May you rest in peace, you glorious spirit. You`ve done well, you made a difference and you`ve fulfilled your vocation.

Thank you, Michael, for all the hearts you touched and inspired.

We`ll always miss you!