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The Last Homely House

It seemed to me at the time that I had stumbled upon the Last Homely House.

That rainy, misty day, I wandered in my car like Tolkien’s Bilbo on his way to Rivendell. Upward through the North Carolina mountains, around one bend and still another, finally making a slow decent, I found this small stone-wood-built, 50-year-old house above 4,000 feet.

The property that day was deep within a rain cloud. Surrounded by close-knit Smoky Mountain peaks, it seemed to float upon a lofty, mystic sea. Like Bilbo, once I’d arrived there, I never wanted to leave. We purchased the home shortly after.

Today, I write you from a back porch where I can see and hear so many things.

I see tiny mountain homes embedded into the landscape across airy divides. I see the bulbous, green contour of hills rolling before me with some other-worldly symmetry. I see the hills change—under traveling light and shadow, beneath rolling mists and the horizontal passage of rain clouds. I’m actually immersed in the weather here compared to the distant sea-level spectator. The sky is more focused up here as well—the richer colors, the effect of light, the personality of each visiting cloud. It’s no exaggeration to say the heavens here are closer.

The wildlife is abundant as you might expect. I’ve seen a few black bears up just a bit higher. Around the house, there are several large, white-tailed rabbits that make me want to pick up the book, Watership Down to discover where they’re headed. I’ve counted at least ten species of birds who are not shy around humans when gorging on our feeders. There are chipmunks and butterflies and black snakes, honey bees, bumble bees, and benign wasps. I hear the rumor of rodents too, but they must keep to themselves.

The sounds are constant, but are in no way annoying like in the city. The wind sighs and saunters here and there, roosters crow well beyond the waking hours, hound dogs bellow, humming birds buzz, the other birds chirp and caw and chatter. There are the sounds of men, but they’re usually distant and often hard to place, whether above or below or from any certain direction: disembodied voices, lawn mowers, weed eaters, the slow roll of cars over gravel. It all seems a part rather than an invasive clamor.

As I’ve written previously, I moved to the mountains to pursue Thoreau’s deliberate, essential living, to discover what more direct contact with God’s creation had to teach me. Whether into the mountains or into God’s presence, I’m always longing to go higher and deeper. And now God has granted me a higher place to dwell, to stop and rest, to listen and know—about as high and deep a place as I’ve ever been able to call home.

Each step brings me closer—from the city to small town Main Street, from Main Street to this little piece of Rivendell up in the Smokies. Like Abraham, I have some sense of where I should journey next, but am never sure of the more distant destinations.

Discovering such a sense of place isn’t the end, of course. We also need a people and a purpose. Now that I’m here, I wonder what new people and purpose await me. Mostly though, I wonder whether this homely, heavenly place will have any lasting effect on my homely, wandering heart.

I’m patient to await such answers. For now, I’ll sit on this porch and rest in the certainty of gratitude—that I’d be so privileged to bear witness to such unfiltered glory.

This is my Father’s world,

And to my listening ears

All nature sings, and round me rings

The music of the spheres.

This is my Father’s world:

I rest me in the thought

Of rocks and trees, of skies and seas—

His hand the wonders wrought.*

* Maltbie D. Babcock, This Is My Father’s World, 1901.

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About John Michalak

An author, speaker, musician, and minister, John Michalak has spent more than 20 years equipping others in the areas of life-change and personal relationship. John’s inspirational new book, 365 Devotions To Embrace What Matters Most is now available from Zondervan publishing.

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Kindness Is Leadership

It occurred to me this morning: many of us don’t feel like we’re called to be leaders and feel a bit insecure when being asked to step up as a leader.

However, one area where we’re all called to leadership is kindness. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I don’t think kindness can be performed without leadership.

You can’t be passive and be kind. You can’t just react to things. You can’t just wait for things to happen to you. You certainly can’t be kind if you’re waiting around for others to be kind to you.

Kindness requires leadership. You need to step out and be pro-active in order to show others genuine kindness. It requires focus, attention, often mental and emotional preparation and forethought. It requires standing out in the crowd when the world stays passive in their indifference and reactionary criticism.

Kindness involves guiding people with grace when they’re stuck and need to be pulled out of whatever mess the world has them in. It requires leadership to notice strangers. To speak warm words of greeting to people you’d normally ignore.

It certainly requires leadership to love your enemy or those you’re at odds with. It requires leadership to forgive, to humble yourself and make the first move toward reconciliation.

Now, being a leader usually means you have followers. But, leadership begins with invitation. And what has more potential to invite others to be kind than kindness?

So if you’re like me and feel out of your depth at times when asked to step up as a leader, remember that every time you exercise kindness toward others, you’re leading others into the light of God’s grace.

Finally, the best leaders are also followers, which gives me hope in this area, since I so often fail at being kind. I actually have a chance at living a life of kindness when I follow heaven’s supreme leader of love and sacrifice.

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About John Michalak

An author, speaker, musician, and minister, John Michalak has spent more than 20 years equipping others in the areas of life-change and personal relationship. John’s inspirational new book, 365 Devotions To Embrace What Matters Most is now available from Zondervan publishing.

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My Head Is Bowed

My head is bowed.

Not because I’m praying, but because I don’t want to trip over an unseen rock or protruding root. However, I don’t want to miss the larger view either. I want to look up as much as down. Which, is a good thing.

I like this trail. It has natural variation in its straight paths and uphill grades. It moves from the deep embrace of forest to expansive views of the lake. It has a variety of flowers, plants, and trees. It’s long enough to challenge me and short enough to finish in a few hours.

The trail allows me to breathe. Or at least remember that I’m breathing. To breathe deeper. Slower. Faster. It feels like I’m the car and someone is filling my tank with the breath of life.

The trail reminds me of my body and the way I move. My left foot throbs with a soft pain, alerting me that I must favor one foot over the other. I feel my extra pounds more succinctly, because I’m actually carrying them somewhere. But, I don’t feel as condemned about my weight as when I’m still. Some people can’t walk this trail at all. Lord, thank you for my ability to walk.

The trail does challenge me. Especially when I start out. I regret the walk in the beginning. My initial aches and shortness of breath overcome the beauty that’s around me. But, I’m going somewhere. I’m doing something. My convictions mute my complaints. Eventually, my physical limitations are diminished by joy.

I feel God. He is not the rock. The tree. The blade of grass or the bird. But he is here. Oh, he is here! His touch is everywhere and infuses me with his peace, his love, and his tender care in a way I could never find in a church building. My eyes well up in gratitude.

I worship God by the very act of walking.

My head is bowed.

For you, O LORD, have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the LORD in the land of the living. – Psalm 116:8-9   

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About John Michalak

An author, speaker, musician, and minister, John Michalak has spent more than 20 years equipping others in the areas of life-change and personal relationship. John’s inspirational new book, 365 Devotions To Embrace What Matters Most is now available from Zondervan publishing.

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Engage

It’s 28 degrees, but I’m not feeling it.

Ok, I’m bundled up with my winter coat and knit cap, but I’m sitting when I should be moving and am still unaffected by the cold.

My dog is at my feet, content to watch meandering cars go by. We’re stationary this morning on a sidewalk of brick, surrounded by quilting and chocolate shops, stores selling crafts and scrumptious food and drink. The light poles are wrapped with Christmas pine, ribbons, lights, and ornaments. Just beyond the man-made structures lie the fading autumn colors of the Smoky Mountains. The town breathes the pace of contentment and freedom.

My wife and I just made a big life-change in a series of similar changes. We moved to a small, mountain town on the border of uncounted natural wonders. We’re renting a reasonably-priced, rustic apartment above historic Main Street—one that’s about half the square footage of our previous home.

We’ve come here to engage. To further simplify, declutter, to train our focus more on what’s real and meaningful. We’ve come to, both figuratively and literally, get a bit closer to God, to experience his presence on his high-altitude trails, his mountain streams, amidst his wildlife and plant life.

We’re now in a location where we can walk or bike most anywhere. We’ve left the safe confines of our suburban isolation and moved to a place where we can more easily look people in the eye, learn first names, better serve, minister, and leave the mark of love with those we encounter.

We’re here to frequent farmer’s markets, join card games, and learn how to clog. To support local businesses and get to know our neighbor. To build better relationships with the homeless and those who live on the margins. To relate to other human beings without the filters of technology, long-commutes, and busyness that distract so many of us from what matters.

Sure, we’ve enjoyed some privileges that allow us to do such a thing. We both work from home and could take our jobs with us. We sold our house at a profit and plan to use the surplus, not to get a bigger home, but to eventually buy a simpler home with a tiny mortgage. We don’t have kids, so we’re freer to go where we like.

But having said this, I think most anyone can accomplish what we’ve set out to do. You also don’t have to move to the mountains. You can accomplish much of what we’re attempting from wherever you are. This has just been the choice we’ve made.

I’ve taken other steps that aren’t dependent on location. I’ve given up our two televisions. I still watch some content online, but am weaning myself off, at least from within our home itself. I suspended my Facebook account for a while or perhaps forever. I’ve “upgraded” from a smart phone to a flip phone. More radical changes will likely follow.

I don’t pretend that I know what I’m doing. I’m a self-focused, technology-dependent, introverted, slothful, glutton. I can be as news or social media-focused, as obsessed with technology, entertainment, and consumerism as the next person. Changing where I live or what I own won’t necessarily change my heart. But, it can ease the path and open the door of my heart to focus more and more on what matters.

So, I invite you, if you wish, to join me on this journey. My plan is to write regular updates on my insights, epiphanies, successes, and failures in living this next chapter. Take my words as you will in our own journey. Read or don’t. Comment or don’t. Take your own steps and, if you like, share them with me and others. Or just read and consider—wherever you are—the ways God may be calling you to declutter and un-filter, to simplify, to engage.

In less…there is more. And I have the feeling, starting anew, that there’s so much more than I ever imagined.

“Everyone who thirsts, come to the waters, and you who have no money come, buy and eat. Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why do you spend money for what is not bread, and your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourself in abundance.” – Isaiah 55:1-2

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About John Michalak

An author, speaker, musician, and minister, John Michalak has spent more than 20 years equipping others in the areas of life-change and personal relationship. John’s inspirational new book, 365 Devotions To Embrace What Matters Most is now available from Zondervan publishing.

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Stop in the Name of Love!

We so often look for God’s will on where we should go with our lives. But what about the times we need to stop? My sermon examines Acts 16:6-12 when God told Paul to stop. It reflects on how this account might apply to our own approach to sharing the Gospel with others and to our lives in general.

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About John Michalak

An author, speaker, musician, and minister, John Michalak has spent more than 20 years equipping others in the areas of life-change and personal relationship. John’s inspirational new book, 365 Devotions To Embrace What Matters Most is now available from Zondervan publishing.

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The Ring Of Truth

In slumber, I sleep

In stupor, I stoop

In sacred, I soar

I recently applied for a part-time administrative job at the local zoo. I love animals. Some tell me I love animals more than people. That probably depends on the animal. Or the person.

Because I love animals, I debated whether working at a zoo wouldn’t trouble my conscience. The jury’s still out on this for me, but the argument that these creatures are being raised outside their natural habitat does trouble me.

Our most common vision is of the large cat, be it lion or leopard, who paces back and forth within his confines. Many zoos have larger, more organic environments than just cages, of course. But you’re still left to wonder—is this where they are meant to be?

I too often find myself pacing like the lion. I push forward against the boundaries of my life. Wishing I were somewhere else. Learning to adapt inside my cage. I satiate myself with processed food or binging on a favorite television show. I try to discipline myself to do the right thing. I sometimes act when I shouldn’t or don’t act when I should. I too often sigh with resignation more than I roar with life.

But then in my stupor, I have the vaguest recollection that cages are often of our own making. And then I do something small, seemingly insignificant, and it all comes back to me.

Months ago, I woke up deep within my cage. I rose to go to work, buried underneath a landfill of wasteful anxiety—how was I going to solve the innumerable tasks the day held for me? I began to strategize, to push back against the fear, to breathe in and out and take one step forward.

It was early in the morning. Next thing on my long to-do list was to wipe the condensation from my car…when I looked up into the pre-dawn sky. There, against a canvas of the darkest blue were just the fewest stars and the sliver of a moon. And my heart said, “Oh…”

Are we like the caged animal? Are the bars of our own making? Do we, like John Donne once said, “neglect God and his angels for the noise of a fly, for the rattling of a coach, for the whining of a door”? Where is our natural habitat? Is this where we’re meant to be?

Maybe, by a simple change of focus, or by a shift in location or activity, we’ll move ourselves beyond the cage of our slumber or stupor to the realm of the sacred. The truth will finally ring true in our ears, and our heart will say, “Oh…”

Unlike the poor lion, most of our cage doors are already open. It’s a daily choice whether we’ll step outside.

“One of the great sorrows which came to human beings when Adam and Eve left the garden was the loss of memory, memory of all that God’s children are meant to be.” — Madeleine L’Engle

Embrace What Matters – The Book Is Here!

About The Book

It’s said that as human beings, we spend about a third of our lives asleep. But, too many of us spend the rest of our lives in a type of waking sleep, held captive by the bonds of distraction. The shiny trinkets of entertainment and materialism, the prisons of anxiety and brokenness: these hypnotize our souls into a resigned stupor, where we assume we’re living day-to-day, but are never truly alive.

The book 365 Devotions To Embrace What Matters Most is less a Bible study than it is a conversation you might have with a friend over coffee. It speaks to you and invites you to devote a few moments each day to learning, or remembering, how to live your life to the full.

In easy-to-understand, practical terms, it speaks to both the earnest spiritual pilgrim who needs a return to base camp, and to the person who has never given much thought to spiritual matters, but would like to explore that journey.

It’s never too late to live the wide-awake, passionate life you once envisioned. Embrace what matters most, and start living a life rich with purpose, delight, and eternal meaning.

Reader Reviews

“A book to embrace! Life is about relationships, and John Michalak brings that home to your heart…I read from this book every day and will purchase more to give to people I care about.”

“I think the book can speak to those who don’t necessarily know God. It can be a platform for those who wonder and are curious about what else there is in this life and how to look eternally.”

“This is a wonderful read…The author writes in a manner that allows the reader a sense of hope while pursuing a deeper understanding of why they are here and what their purpose is. If you have a shelf, this book should be on it!”

Where To Get It

It’s being sold in bookstores nationwide including Lifeway, and Barnes & Noble. It’s also being sold everywhere online, including Amazon.

MAIN SECTIONS & WEEKLY THEMES

PART 1: Who You Are, Why You’re Here, and What You Should Do About It

Your Identity Matters

Your Purpose Matters

Your Growth Matters

Your Learning Matters

Your Wisdom Matters

Your Productivity Matters

Your Adventures Matter

PART 2: How You See the World

Your Perspective Matters

Your Focus Matters

Your Sense Of Reality Matters

Your Sense Of Wonder Matters

Your Awareness Of Creation Matters

Your Awareness Of Art Matters

Your Awareness Of Industry Matters

Your Awareness Of Time Matters

PART 3: How to Free Yourself from the Rat Race

Rest Matters

Peace Matters

Simplicity Matters

Provision Matters

Stability Matters

Personal Matters

Uncool Matters

Joy Matters

Living Matters

PART 4: The Importance of Your Relationships

Relationship Matters

Love Matters

Romance Matters

Family Matters

Parenting Matters

Friends Matter

Community Matters

Strangers Matter

God Matters

PART 5: What’s Wrong and How to Make It Right

What’s Wrong Matters

Weakness Matters

Healing Matters

Forgiveness Matters

Openness Matters

Communication Matters

Presence Matters

Hope Matters

PART 6: How to Become a Better Human Being

Your Character Matters

Your Choices Matter

Your Discipline Matters

Your Consumption Matters

Your Movement Matters

Your Attitude Matters

Your Humility Matters

Your Manners Matter

Your Giving Matters

Your Faithfulness Matters

Conclusion

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Like The Blog? You’ll Love The Book!

I’m excited to announce that my first book, 365 Devotions To Embrace What Matters Most, has been released by Zondervan Publishing!

It’s had a strong launch so far: it debuted at #4 on Amazon’s New Devotional Releases! And in just one month, it’s already surpassed the total average sales of any currently-published book.

If you liked reading my blog, I truly believe you’ll love the book. I’d be honored if you would consider picking it up and letting me know what you think.

It’s being sold in a number of book stores and everywhere online, but here’s a link to the Amazon page.

Thanks so much again for your support!

John Michalak

From Blog To Published Book!

I have some exciting news, blog-readers. I wrote my first book last year and Zondervan is releasing it this July! The title is “365 Devotions to Embrace What Matters Most.”

I have you to thank for this. I started this blog several years ago, and while my posts have waned lately, the articles I’ve written–and that you have so kindly responded to–were in many ways the inspiration for the content of the book. This blog has been my “playground” for developing my voice as a writer, and that voice is now going to be read (hopefully) by a lot more people.

I wrote the book as a conversation. And an invitation. The language is real-world and practical. It’s meant both for the spiritual veteran who’d like some course-correction and for the person who has never given much thought to spiritual matters, but would like to explore that journey.

AVAILABLE FOR PRE-ORDER

It’s already available for pre-order in both hardback and ebook on Amazon if you want to be first in line! I hope you’ll buy it and read it. I hope that if you like it, you’ll tell your friends about it (you can share this post on Facebook if you like!). I believe in the message it sends. And I believe that, despite myself, God is going to use it to encourage and guide many who long for a life that matters.

ABOUT THE FLOWERS

I never thought I’d have to be literal with the phrase “don’t judge a book by its cover,” but I will do so here. While I’m deeply grateful to Zondervan for publishing the book and understand that they know far more than me about how to sell a book, the cover reflects a more narrow marketing strategy than I would have preferred. Far more women buy devotional books than men, so that’s been their decided target audience.

But, believe me…inside the cover, the book is 100% for both men and women. So, a note to my male readers: your man-card is in no jeopardy whatsoever by reading this book! And if you still have some misgivings, I can suggest some nice camouflage or duck tape slip covers to retain your reputation (or just buy the ebook and no one will know).

SNEAK PEEK!

To give you more of an idea of what’s in the book, here’s a sneak peek from the introduction, and a summary of weekly themes:

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“Time can get away from us.

Sure, occasionally time seems to muddle on forever—when we feel like our workday will never end, or we’re watching the clock in school, thinking the bell will never ring. But the older we get, the more we realize that minutes have become hours, days have become months, years have become decades—and suddenly half of our lives have passed and we wonder where the time went and, more importantly, how we actually spent that time.

Did we step out the door to see the world and discover its wonders? Or did we waste it, moving from one favorite television show to the next? Did we find out what we were called to do and push forward through obstacles, such as tight finances, lack of education, or the desire to further

refine our character? Or did we allow fear or laziness to win the day and spend our lives settling for jobs that left us less than inspired? Did we embrace the richness of close relationships and family? Or did we go from one superficial encounter to the next, running away when life got too messy? Tick . . . tick . . . tick.

If you’re reading this, the clock hasn’t stopped for you. As long as you’re breathing out and breathing in, you still have time make the rest of your life matter. And although the clock hasn’t stopped, I would like you to stop. For a few moments each day, spend a little time meditating

on the things that matter. Things such as:

• who you are, why you’re here, and what you should

do about it.

• how you see the world.

• how to free yourself from the rat race.

• the importance of your relationships.

• what’s wrong and how to make it right.

• how to become a better human being.

Think deeply on what matters. Then take the necessary steps to begin embracing a life that matters.”

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PART 1: Who you are, why you’re here, and what you should do about it

Your Identity Matters
Your Purpose Matters
Your Growth Matters
Your Learning Matters
Your Wisdom Matters
Your Productivity Matters
Your Adventures Matter

PART 2: How you see the world

Your Perspective Matters
Your Focus Matters
Your Sense Of Reality Matters
Your Sense Of Wonder Matters
Your Awareness Of Creation Matters
Your Awareness Of Art Matters
Your Awareness Of Industry Matters
Your Awareness Of Time Matters

PART 3: How to free yourself from the rat race

Rest Matters
Peace Matters
Simplicity Matters
Provision Matters
Stability Matters
Personal Matters
Uncool Matters
Joy Matters
Living Matters 

PART 4: The importance of your relationships

Relationship Matters
Love Matters
Romance Matters
Family Matters
Parenting Matters
Friends Matter
Community Matters
Strangers Matter
God Matters

PART 5: What’s wrong and how to make it right

What’s Wrong Matters
Weakness Matters
Healing Matters
Forgiveness Matters
Openness Matters
Communication Matters
Presence Matters
Hope Matters

PART 6: How to become a better human being

Character Matters
Choices Matter
Discipline Matters
Consumption Matters
Movement Matters
Attitude Matters
Humility Matters
Manners Matter
Giving Matters
Freedom Matters
Faithfulness Matters

CONCLUSION

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Now….go spread the word! Thanks.

Album Review: Beyond The Frame

(Note: This is the first time I’ve reviewed any music on this blog. But, the music in question more than fits the theme of relationship.)

When I first started seminary, I had no intentions of serving professionally as a pastor. I mainly wanted the education and credentials needed to write and publish Christian books. Several years later, I haven’t published one book, but I am employed as a full-time pastor/minister to incarcerated men in Nashville. So, the joke was on me. God decided to use my assumed calling as a creative communicator in the trenches of human suffering and transformation.

While Andy Gullahorn and I have lived different lives and are different people, I suspect God is leading him along a similar line of vocational discovery. Andy has always been a wonderfully, creative communicator. His songs have always entertained, amused, enlightened. But with his latest record, Beyond The Frame, I think God is using him, as he’s done with me, in the role of a pastor.

A pastor attempts to reach out. To love well. To listen. To empathize. To join people at the depths of suffering. To accept people for who they are while encouraging them to rise above who they’ve been. Andy’s new record does this in spades.

The lead track, I Will, is my favorite (as are most of Andy’s lead tracks). The instrumentals in the song are fluid, transcendent, inviting us “beyond” as the album title suggests. The lyrics remind me of the most intimate small groups I’ve participated in—offering the healing and safety we can all have when we let down our guard with other people and get real about our stuff. We are all broken, but together we have a chance to journey towards wholeness. Andy shows up at our small group in this song to lead the way.

Like any good pastor, Andy urges us to attend marriage counseling in The Surface Of Things. He both empathizes with our hopelessness, but doesn’t let us off the hook in our despair with the song Any Less True. He knocks us off our pharisaical high-horse with Line In The Sand.

He weeps for a wayward soul who steals because that’s all she thinks her life is worth in Favor Is A Foreign Tongue. He comforts an anxious father in Sleeping Sound. He sits silently listening to the pain of mourning parents in Nowhere To Be Found. He softly sermonizes us out of our worldly slumber to make an eternal investment in The Other Side.

For those crazy for Andy’s satire, you do have Skinny Jeans, but in this album at least, Andy has moved beyond his usual tool of emphasizing truth with humor to a place of measured, even somber counsel for all of us at the most vulnerable places in the human journey.

Good Pastors join before they invite. Jesus certainly did. Most of the record is Andy joining us and inviting us to join him—not at the highest pedestals of snarky, social commentary or for a spiritual celebration that rings more hollow than holy, but in the trenches of dysfunction and despair where most people can find themselves, but where few expect to find anyone else.

In the most pastoral sense, Andy joins us there to remind us that we are not alone. And then, he invites us transcend beyond the frame of our despair, to consider that together, there is hope. There is more to our story.

From the final track, Grand Canyon:

There are endless tears

And suffering you can’t explain.

There are dark grey clouds

That never seem to drift away.

There’s despair in the morning

That would tie us to the bed.

But the story isn’t over yet.

You can order Beyond The Frame from different locations on the web. To get the physical CD & digital download (and to put more money in the pocket of the artist and his family), visit The Rabbit Room. For digital downloads only, visit ITunes or Amazon.