Adam Vanzant's Blog

Uninspired

I just can't finish this short story. Ugh, I don't know what's wrong with me. I just can't seem to want to finish it but at the same time I do. I think this job is sucking all of my joy out of life and that just isn't right. i did write a piece of a poem and that's a shame that that isn't even finished. I don't know what the hell is going on. I'm unhappy though

:( this cover is going to kill me

Who knew it would take me a month to find someone's hand to use for the cover of a short story. It's just a hand, no fake blood, no props, a fucking hand. But i finally found someone and the picture has been taken and now I'm thinking of changing the cover. I'm so indecisive and lack creativity. Hopefully Role Model will be done tomorrow, we will see.

Stuck

I'm trying to work on a short story and I am actually very proud of it. I would be even prouder if I could actually finish it,shit, it's a short story; there is no real excuse. I just don't wanna do anything, fucking depression. However, in my despair I have decided to start working on Prose 2. I never thought there would be anything more than the 1 book and now I am in the middle of writing 2 and trying to start another.

I wish I could just get something done so I could feel a little better about myself. It's time for meds....this is some bullshit, but it makes for a decent story.

oh Hastings guy

I went to Hastings and bout 2 writing magazines, hoping something will inspire me to finish this book. The guy at the register said," oh, you're a writer, what do you write?" I wanted to say "nothing anymore" but I didn't. I explained to him that I'm stuck right now so I only have the one book and that it was only meant to be one ever but now I have 1 1/2 trying to get out of my skull but I need something to make me want to do it. He said that he has a hard time starting and I explained to him an easy way to get started and finishing whatever it is he plans on doing. While my heart felt heavy for being a hypocrite, I was also wondering why don't I just do that myself?
But then again why don't I diet knowing all the health shit I know, why don't I do a lot of things I can do because I know how to do them and I just don't? I feel better helping other people than helping myself, this is a weakness that I think I will use in my next interview.
Hastings guy has me thinking and I have to go bother him next week since I told him that his homework was going to be to start something and I needed proof that he at least attempted. I think I am going to finish a chapter, I can't have him doing something I'm not willing to do myself.

I need someting.....

I'm in desperate need of inspiration. I have some ideas that I could put down, I just.....don't want to. I'm also not quite satisfied with them.
Maybe..... hell, I don't know. Someone help me out. :)

writers block

I need some motivation. I'm suddenly stuck, not exactely due to writers block, but because I just don't have the desire write now. Which is really sad to me because I have so much to say at the moment.

Someone help a bitch out.