Eddie Whitlock's Blog: Reader and Writer - Posts Tagged "purpose"

What is next?
This thought came to mind this morning as I was having an out-of-body experience at work. I have that sometimes: I’m thinking about something to the point that I suddenly realize I’ve been automatically doing my job without actually thinking about doing my job.
I try not to do this when I drive.
The thinking this morning that led to leaving the present was this: What is left? What do I have to look forward to between now and my death?
I don’t have anything on my schedule.
I’ve done anything that I have a reasonable shot at doing. From here on, it’s gravy.
You would think there would be a way to donate my remaining years to someone with a lot of stuff left to accomplish, some fellow who is dying and doesn’t want to because he never saw Paris Hilton.
I know, I know. I’m talking a brave game, but when the Grim Reaper comes, I’ll be scared shitless of death just like everybody else. I know that. I’m not suggesting I want to die.
I’m just suggesting that there ought to be something important for me to do, even if I don’t know what it is.
And I wonder if everyone has similar thoughts, wondering if there might something super-important hovering out there, waiting for us to find it and do it.
And we aren’t even smart enough to look for it.