Michelle Gordon's Blog, page 33

Why I write

I have been wondering recently why it is I write. Why I can’t choose an alternative profession, why I couldn’t have been called to do something that I could train for, then get a job in and get paid well for, all the while still helping people and making a difference.

I believe that writing, for the natural writer, is not a career choice. It’s not even a choice at all. It is a necessity, something they must do, or else what is the point to life?

As well as that, for me, writing is a way to chase away the demons of mortality. I write because my fear of death is so strong, that I need to create something that will live on past my lifetime. I write about life after death because I need to believe that it is real. I need to believe that my soul will continue even when my body is still. And when I have departed for that other realm, that alternate dimension, there will be something tangible left behind that will declare that I was here. That I lived. And that I had something to say to the world.

Writing for me is not about the money, or fame (which is a good thing, as many writers never see either) but about quelling my fears and the fears of my readers too. I write to express the worst-case scenario in my head. I write to experience things through my characters that I am curious about, but have no desire to experience in real life. I write to get my darkest fears out of my system. I write to experience the different parts of myself, in a way that’s safe. I have always seen writing as my personal form of therapy. Years ago I would not have felt comfortable spilling my thoughts and secrets to a complete stranger whilst laying on a hard couch, but I would eagerly spill my thoughts onto the diary page in an inky scrawl, that no one but myself could decipher later on. My diary understood me better than any human being on this planet. And best of all, my diary never tried to give me any advice.

So why is it that I have been so stuck recently? I have been finding it so difficult to commit words to the digital page, that I find myself procrastinating on my writing to the point of craziness (is watching that youtube video really more important than finishing my novel? No, I think not). Have I stopped writing because I no longer fear my mortality, and therefore can find an easier way to make a living? No, that’s not it.  Is it because I have simply run out of things to say?

Well, anyone who knows me even a little bit will know that it’s definitely not that either.

I’m beginning to think that perhaps it is because I have been a little too happy recently. To be a writer means to be tortured, to feel things deeply, to hurt, to experience more ups and downs than a roller-coaster enthusiast, all in the name of gathering experiences and feelings so we can write about them. In the past few years, while writing my previous books, I have experienced the highest highs and lows so low, that it seemed impossible to recover from them. And all of those things are what makes my writing interesting. (I hope).

But recently, I have been on very even ground. Life has been tootling along quite nicely, quite easily, and very evenly. Which, considering my slightly weak stomach, is preferable to the steep slopes I have hurtled down in the last couple of years. But unfortunately, this wonderful, drama-free existence does not inspire me to write.

Which brings me to the conclusion that I must choose. Between being happy, or being a writer. Are those two things really mutually exclusive? Is it possible to write about the pain of heartbreak while having a whole and healthy heart?

I’d like to think so. Because quite honestly, this is not a choice I am willing to make.

In fact, I am going to choose, right now, to be happy, and to continue my writing. To have faith that this feeling of being stuck will not last, and that the words will flow again. And that I will publish my next book in September.

If you write, and you experience these moments of being stuck, please comment on how you get through them.

 

The Angels and Faeries are with us always, in all ways

Have you asked the Angels for help today? Or the Faeries? Because they are just waiting for you to say the words. I realised today that I had been getting overwhelmed by the amount of work I need to do, and the size of my expanding to-do list, and yet I had forgotten to ask for the Angels to help me!

I liked the idea in Ask and it is Given, by Esther and Jerry Hicks. You get a piece of paper, divide it in half, and in one half you write the tasks you need to do, and in the other half you write the tasks that the universe can take care of for you. Esther said that often she would find that those tasks would be taken care of by someone else, making her feel less overwhelmed.

I also decided that instead of having a to-do list, I should have a list of tasks that I would like the Angels to help me with. I created this on Vistaprint, and I may have to order some! You can get notepads printed on there quite cheaply.

 

During the photoshoot my sister did of me, a few of the photos had some interesting light formations on them, and though they are likely to just be the sunlight hitting the lens at an interesting angle, I’d like to think that the little purple lights in this one are Faeries:

 

And that the violet beam of light going through my body to the bright light in my sacral is healing from the Angels:

 

I’d love to hear about your Angel and Faerie encounters, or even the ways that you like to communicate with them. Please comment below if you wish to share

The Books have been released!

A little haphazardly, admittedly, I’m new to the whole book crossing thing! I should have made note of which number book went where, but I forgot… Anyway! They are out there, in the following locations in Monmouth -

La Piazza Tearoom – 76, Monnow Street. 

Savoy Theatre

Prego Bistro

and The Punch House

 

Looking forward to seeing if anyone actually registers where they found them and what they think of them on bookcrossing.com! Will update you if there are any sightings!

 

 

Quote Photos

On my Facebook page I have been posting images with quotes on them, mainly from The Earth Angel Training Academy, The Earth Angel Awakening, The Elphite and my new (as yet unpublished) book, The Other Side.

I have posted them all here on my blog so that anyone who isn’t on Facebook can see them. You can see them here (or click on the link in the menu above)

This is one of my favourites so far, and from the way it’s gone viral on Facebook, it would seem to be a popular one with everyone else too. If you like my page on Facebook, you will get updated when I post these pictures and when I post my Oracle Readings on youtube. Please feel free to share these pictures with friends.

Book Crossing Book Tour!

As an Indie Author/Publisher, I have inevitably ended up with copies of my books that are unsaleable for various reasons. I had a box of books destroyed by a courier (bent pages, ruined spines etc) and have had books returned from shops that have closed that are too beaten up to sell as new. I thought about selling these books at a discount when I do fairs, but then offering a damaged product didn’t appeal to me. As a book lover, I like to get a nice shiny copy when I buy a book, so I couldn’t bring myself to do that. I thought about just giving them away, but then I remembered BookCrossing.com. The concept is that you register a book, get a code, put the code in the book, and then release the book into ‘the wild’. The book is then picked up, read by someone, and they can log in with the code to say where they found the book, and what they thought of it, then they pass it on to someone else.

I thought this might be a fun way to get my books out there, but also an alternative kind of book tour! So I have registered four copies of The Doorway to PAM, and I have put a post-it note on the front of each book, saying that it is free. I have stuck a label inside, that says the book is on tour and what it’s Book Crossing code is.

I hope that people find them, pick them up, read them and then pass them on. And if I get a few more Amazon reviews that would be a nice bonus too!

I will be releasing these four books this week, and in the spirit of the book, I will be leaving one in a cinema, one in a tearoom, one in a pub, and one in a hotel. I thought about starting them from different locations, but as I don’t have a car at the moment, that may be a bit tricky, so I have decided to start them all in Monmouth, and then I can track to see just how far they travel! I will update their locations once I have released them, you can see them on my bookshelf on BookCrossing.com.

My label:

Launch of The Amethyst Angel website

For the last year, I have been assisting fellow Indie Authors with their publishing ventures. Myself and my editor, Elizabeth Lockwood, under the name of Purple Self-Publishing Services, were helping them with editing, proofreading and formatting their books, as well as helping with cover design and the actual publishing process, in print and online. Recently I have decided to revert back to my business name, The Amethyst Angel, which is also my publishing imprint name.

Instead of just offering guidance and assistance on the publishing side, however, I wanted to create something of a community of Indie Authors, who help each other in the selling and marketing process, to make the whole process just a little less lonely. So I have created my new site, and on it, I have featured the authors that I or Elizabeth have helped, and their books. The website will grow and evolve, as we help more and more authors, and as the community builds.

Being an Indie Author does not have to be a solitary, lonely venture. Let’s join together and make the journey together! If you are an Indie Author, or you would like to be, please do get in touch, I love to chat!

 

Advice from Amethyst’s Oracle

Today’s card reading from Amethyst’s Oracle, recorded in the woods! Don’t forget you can get your very own set of cards from my website. Just click here and scroll down.

 

Please feel free to leave comments, was the advice helpful to you?

Away with the Faeries!

Just thought I would post a few more of the photographs taken the other day, in particular the Faerie ones. It was so much fun climbing and hugging trees and dancing about with wings on!  I think everyone should try it at least once in their lives Thank you again to Liz of Madapple Designs for making it happen!

An Earth Angel Photoshoot!

Wow, had so much fun yesterday! My amazing sister, Liz of Madapple Designs, came up to see me for the day, to take some new photographs of me. My current author photo makes me look far too serious and boring and a bit miserable, quite frankly, and considering I write about Faeries and aliens, it just didn’t fit! So I decided that I needed some photos that showed my fun side too. My sister was keen to extend her portfolio, and by the end of the day, we had some great shots! Now I just need to decide which ones to use as my author photo. There’s so many cool ones I may have to rotate them every month.

Here is Liz in action -

For the mermaid-style part of the shoot, we had Luc in charge of the hose (he only sprayed me a couple of times!!)

The final shots will be posted very soon, I just need to choose the best ones, Liz took close to 2000 shots!! Of course there are a few where I was making ridiculous faces, so that’s narrowed the process a bit. I now have a LOT of respect for people who model on a daily basis, posing all day is hard work!

I will post the final photos on here and on my facebook page later today.

The Speed of Change

I know that I am not the only one who has noticed just how quickly life seems to be changing at the moment. To me it feels as though my life has been a constant series of changes since around 2006. More has happened in my life in the last 7 years than happened in the previous 22 years. Why is this? Is it simply the idea that time speeds up as we age, or is it more than that? Because it is not just that things are changing quickly, but that things and situations are being rapidly manifested.

Just four days after writing about Twin Flame Relationships, everything changed for me.

I met up with my own Twin Flame, for dinner and to chat. Despite not having been together in a relationship for more than 6 months, we still missed each other’s company. He was the one who had sent me the video on Youtube of the stages of a Twin Flame relationship. He had recognised our relationship in the patterns described, and thought I would find it interesting. We talked all evening, and met up a couple more times over the course of the following week, and by the end of the next weekend, (14th July) we were back together. He asked me to move in with him and so here I am, just 20 days after writing about getting a second chance to be with a Twin Flame, with my Flame, living the life that I had always wanted to live.

Did I manifest it? Or were we fated to get back together? I was only in the area because my dear Faerie friend from Peace of Stone had invited me to stay with her for the week. What if I had refused the invitation? Would my reunion with my Flame not have happened? Or was it because I chose a parallel universe where we were together? Have I skipped to another dimension, another reality?

I suppose the real question is, does any of that matter? I had hoped that perhaps I would be able to offer some guidance and wisdom to other souls out there who know their Flames but are not with them. I guess all I can say is – if it is meant to be, then it will be. And don’t hold on to the past. It was only when I truly and completely let go of the idea of being with my Twin, only when I accepted that it may well never happen, cut all energetic cords and ties to him, that it finally did happen. I was willing to move on, to live my life without him, and to make the best I possibly could with what I had.

So perhaps gratitude for whatever we have in our lives, even if it’s not what we really want, is the key to manifesting what we do really want.

What do you think?