A brief break from the (hopefully amusing) whining and ranting and goofing for this observation.
It has only just now hit me why this experience is so challenging. Not just for me, but for everyone, because it strangles one of our most fundamental--and most instinctive--social impulses:
Being on a jury confronts us with a remarkable situation, overflowing with complicated characters, profound questions and very real emotional consequences.
And then forbids us, from the first moment of the trial--"Do not discuss this case, do not form an opinion, try not even to anticipate forming an opinion or fashioning a vision of events"--from turning it into a story. Even for ourselves.