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Day 1,986: don’t like it

I have to make tonight’s entry another short one because it’s already time for bed, and I don’t like it.

I need to start getting ready for bed earlier. Like, a good 15 to 30 minutes.

Uuuuuggghhh.

Good night y’all. ‘Twas a good day today

Day 1,985: It was both

Today was both a good day and a stressful day.

It was a good day because I got a metric shit ton of work done. All the little straggly bits from my week that I didn’t finish, plus a lot more. AND a decent amount that stuff were things that took real energy, real creative thought and time…the kind of thing I’ve really struggled with getting done.

Well, I did them.

Because of doing them, I think my anxiety spiked a bit. Plus we got a four-legged house guest in the afternoon, and don’t get me wr...

Day 1,984: Easy Peash

Today, I went with the flow.

I accidentally went to therapy an hour early. I shook my head, chuckled at myself, and just took a walk and looked at 4K TVs at the Best Buy down the street.

There were like three or four other things that didn’t go as planned today…but I didn’t sweat it. I just went with it.

It’s late.

Need to sleep.

Night!

Day 1,983: Whew

This week was a relief, you guys.

I felt like me. I didn’t get a ton of writing done, but goddamnit, I felt like ME.

And I *did* get shit done this week. I put in my time. I didn’t over-achieve or even try to…I just achieved.

I have a much better, much less anxiety-ridden grasp now on these deliverables I have to take care of for my Story Grid certification.

I had a true moment of clarity with the beginning of my novel.

I got writing done and I didn’t feel like shit about it. To be honest, I...

Day 1,982: Birthyear

Tonight’s entry number is the year I was born. Crazy!

I’m feeling better. This week has been a good one for my psyche. I feel calm, focused, and energetic. At least until I get home, and then I feel tired. But that, I think, is normal.

Got my new project for work today. It’ll be an interesting one, stimulating, a challenge. I’m genuinely looking forward to it.

I really like working with this particular team, the innovation team. They’re testing stuff. There’s room for exploration, critical th...

Day 1,981: A Quick

I had good ideas today. Clear. Ideas that I think work.

I’d been doubting the beginning of my book. It was feeling too hard. Too much. Too complicated. But that was the darkness, not the light. The clarity I had today on how to start this story solidified that it was going to work.

Not a lot of work done today, but getting that down felt really good.

That said, it’s time for sleep

Day 1,980: It’s Decided

I finished reading the first book of my Story Grid certification requirements today. The Killer Angels.

It was pretty good. Dragged in parts. Not a book that made me really feel anything, BUT…it was rather spectacular in its ability to bring to life those several days in the town of Gettysburg.

It was vivid. Remarkable, in fact.

So, it did tickle the old mind strings, if not the heart strings.

Next up will be to do a rough write-up on the materials I’ll need to submit for review. I’ll tackle...

Day 1,979: Whatever Comes Out

Finished watching The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, season 2. It was really good.

Except for the last two episodes. Which is a shame, because endings really matter so much, don’t they? We, as an audience, are so much more willing to forgive a bad beginning, or even a bad middle, if the ending is good. Though, that’s rare, isn’t it? Usually a bad ending is caused by a bad beginning and/or middle. But, there are exceptions.

Gotta nail the ending.

It wasn’t so much that Mrs. Maisel made bad choices. It...

Day 1,978: Better Days

I have a cycle I run through whenever I get depressed. I’ve just recently realized it.

I get anxious about something until it builds to some kind of breaking point. After that, I feel depressed, and my mind and body go into shutdown/recovery mode. I take a break…

And then I feel better.

My body resets. My mind clears, and the anxiety and depression dissipate because I’ve stepped away from what made me feel that way in the first place.

I have absolutely no idea if this is a healthy cycle–I’ll...

Day 1,977:

It’s tough when you don’t feel good. I don’t feel like those words quite adequately express what I want them to, but they’re all the words I seem to have right now, and honesty is more important than eloquence.

I have the feeling that I haven’t been always honest with my blog posts over the past few months, or year.

Part of that is I’m good at keeping my spirits up, and letting go–at least for a night’s sleep–of my worries and anxiety. Ie- by the time I sit down and write these entries, I’m u...