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Day 2,167: Ugh

I feel like my day got torpedoed at the end…or more like I torpedoed it.

It was a mix of both, to be honest. I got behind with work, and that made me available late to go and get my afternoon writing session in…and then there wasn’t anywhere available to write.

I don’t like that about my current writing situation. I don’t have a dedicated writing space that I know will be there for me. I’m at the mercy of what’s available.

Maybe tomorrow I need to scope out more options. It would mean going t...

Day 2,166: The Best

I’ve had one of the best Sundays in a while, today.

I can’t tell you exactly why it was so good. I mean, I can: I got everything done I wanted to get done…but in terms of WHY I was able to get all that stuff done and feel so good about it? I don’t know. Except maybe that it’s good to be home, and I’ve been writing.

I realized or remembered something this week about my writing: it’s okay to make a mistake, go back and delete it, and then figure out what do write instead. That takes time, and t...

Day 2,165: The Routine

I was taking in therapy today about how much comfort and safety I get from my routines.

I’ve been out of those routines here for a little while with all the traveling and stuff from the month. And here’s the thing: I always look forward to traveling. Genuinely. I actually love it. I remember as a kid thinking about how amazing it would be to be an adult and get to travel where you wanted, and pack a big suitcase and wear fancy clothes and fly around to all these neat places and take photos.

I...

Day 2,164: Up and Down

Man, writing is a gd rollercoaster for me right now. The ups and downs.

I had a breakthrough on this scene today. I was tired as fuck, but I got to work on time and I sat down and I banged out my morning session and there it was: the scene I’d been looking for.

Magic.

Carried over into my second session, too, after work. Magic.

And then I thought of something the scene needed, and so I tried to put it in tonight…and it’s not perfect. Uuuuuggghhh.

Day 2,163: Foul

You ever wake up grumpy? No reason, just foul?

I freaking almost never do that. I’m a happy waker. Or, at the very least, I’m a tired zombie waker.

Not today.

I woke up grumpy. Stayed that way, just feeling in a funk, till around lunch time…and then some time in the afternoon, the cloud lifted. For, again, no particular reason. I felt normal again. I feel normal.

I think it’s just decompressing from a very intense month. I wouldn’t be surprised to feel funky again for a day or two in the next...

Day 2,162: Wins and Losses

I wrote all three sessions today. That’s a win.

The writing wasn’t great. I’m on a sequence of scenes that clearly need to be fixed. They’re not working. They’re not ringing true. There’s an emotional truth that’s not being observed. So…I’m working and reworking them. That’s a loss, I suppose. At least for now.

The A’s played like crap in the Wild Card Game. Again. Two years in a row. Soundly defeated. That’s a loss.

I had a good day at work today. Eased in with some work that wasn’t too ment...

Day 2,161: Cutting through the bullshit

It’s different this time around, the writing.

I can feel a bullshit scene right now. I can sniff it much better and clearer than I used to…this most recent scene that stuck me in the mud–which came at the worst possible time, too, since it was in the midst of all this travel and big life events, of which scared me away from the keyboard–took me two actual days of writing to figure out it was bullshit. I wasn’t observing the truth of the situation, and that was gutting it. I had Petrick just g...

Day 2,160: Home

Home and wiped the eff out. Whew!

Traveling was pretty easy peasy, praise be. So glad to be home with the pups. Gonna pass out.

Night!

Day 2,159: Dog’s Plan

Had breakfast today at the diner across the street from our hotel. It was okay. We both got bagels and lox. Satisfying, but nothing crazy special.

Joe Hill, the writer, was randomly also there. I guess he’s doing a signing over at Powell’s tomorrow.

Then, we came back to the hotel and took a nap. Or, Liz took a nap whilst I played some switch and watched the A’s play their last game of the regular season. They play the Wild Card game at home on Wednesday. We lost today. So, 97 wins. The exact...

Day 2,158: Julianne + Mike

Julianne and Mike have joined houses. Three cheers for the Weston-Ho clan!

The wedding was absolutely gorgeous. It was cold af, but that’s why I brought a nice warm sweater