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For Joe.

I always write poetry on Mondays. Today I wrote two. This one is for Joe.

Poetry Monday #19 – Clarity

Clarity.

Misguided voices in your head.
Speak of hatred, anger, death.
Whisper signs.
Corrupt your mind.
Silently lie
in wait,
of your last breath.
Don’t give in.
The voice is pretend.
Your wounds are real.
They throb and bleed.
No longer hidden
where eyes can’t see.

Poetry Monday #18 – Selfish

I want you broken, battered, and beat.

I want you on your back unable to stand.

Its more convenient for me.

It satisfies my needs.

My impulse to help.

My desire to please.

Is it selfish?

Maybe.

Everthing about this poem is selfish. It’s meaning. It’s orgin. Just writing these words are completely and totally selfish of me. Don’t people say its ok to be selfish every now and then? Or am I making that shit up so I canfeel like less of a dick for writing this poem? For even having these thoughts...

Poetry Monday #17

Don’t really want to blog. So, I wrote this poem.

Share. Dream. Live.

Fuck Love

I need to write a blog today.

Me and Tarryn at Authors in the OC

I wanted to write about me. Me. Me. Me. ME.

But I can’t. Because I finished a book called Fuck Love and it was so fucking amazing I can’t be all about me.

I must give props to Tarryn Fisher. You make pain so beautful.

You write words in a way that are so real. So fucking real.

I have all these words swirlingaround in my head. You pluck them out like brain bingo and arrange them in a way that I’ve always wanted to express myself...

Big Goals for 2016

Lunam, book one

I just sent off the manuscript for my second book. It’s totally not like my first one.It’s a fantasy set in reality. If that makes any kind of sense.

It has wolves, and hot guys, and unwanted pregnancies.It’s all over the place and it’s fucking awesome!

The book is called Lunam. Look for lots and lots of promo coming soon. Release date is early spring 2016

Thizz, A Love Story

Thizz, A Love Story is being made into an audiobook. Not to brag, but I found some kick ass actors tha...

Write or Smoke Crack?

I hate when people ask how many books I’ve sold. I tell them I don’t know. Because I truly don’t. I got a very, very small royalty check from Amazon last month and I was like YES! People actually paid money for my book!

If I didn’t write I’d probably smoke crack.

I don’t know, maybe the world doesn’tneed another writer.

But I know for a fact the world doesn’t need another crack head.

Do what you love.

Last Monday

Inthe Big Chill Jeff Goldblum plays writer and he’s asked what his novel is about. He says, “I’m going to write about this weekend.” Glenn Close asks, “What were you going to write about before?” He says, “Last weekend.”

That is by far my favorite line of the entire movie. In fact, it might be why I even like the movie.

If you’re reading this and you’re a writer you know exactly why I love that line. Because sometimes, in the midst of writing, you realize you have no idea what you’re writing...

My hands smell like onions and other random facts about me.

I fell out of a moving car once. I’m missing 2 teeth – my “fangs”. I was born without them. So was my sister, it’s a genetic thing. I use 3 times the amount of creamer than the serving size suggests. I like creamy coffee. My ears are smaller than my 4-year-old niece. I prefer Five Guys over In & Out Burger. I ate 6 German chocolate cake petit fours today. It took me 7 years to write Thizz, A Love Story. I own 8 pairs of boots. I was born 9/6, both numbers are divisible by 3. Three is my favo...

Why Logan Lerman…

Why Logan Lerman is my Matt.

Those blue eyes are what soldme on Logan in the beginning. Last night I watched Fury and Oh. My. God. The Percy Jackson kid was basically the hottest actor in the tank. And we are talking about a tank filled with:

Shane from The Walking Dead,Shia Labeouf,and Brad Pitt.

No have not lost my mind. Logan Lerman outshined them all. In the blue eyed, baby-face, I’m really a great fucking actor and who knew it – kind of way.

Which led me to an uncharacteristic mid-week p...