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The Evil of Inaction

Neurotypicals want to believe that all the evil in the world is attributable to “bad people” and that they themselves are immune from those pressures that beget antisocial deeds.  We know this to be false as many neurotypicals commit great atrocities in the name of religion, passion, “duty,” or any number of other things.  However, […]

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Anathema

My blood always boils when I hear claims that psychopaths are guaranteed to be soul-sucking monsters that contribute nothing to society.  If psychopathy is reflective of neurophysiology in which those structures that control affective empathy and impulse control (for example) are deficient, then we must realize that not everyone with those physiological profiles are unchecked […]

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Love, Symbiosis, and Identity

I’m in a period of my life in which I have many more questions than answers.  Eternally skeptic, I am probably a bit too obsessive in my search for “truth” when it comes to what resides between my ears.  The topics of interpersonal relationships, “love”, and my role in these endeavors have been focal points as of […]

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The Limitations of Stoicism

Even as my overtly antisocial behavior continues to wane, there are facets of the psychopathic condition that will remain lifelong regardless of the level of mellowing and restraint that overtakes me.  Most notably, my shallow affect and lack of affective empathy will remain until the day that I die.  This has proved challenging in my […]

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The Light and the Dark

This is the last post for 2015.  By the time the dawn shines on January 1, 2016, I will have remained clean for a year now. These are the fibers that only twitch.  These are the vessels that give me strength.  These are the claws that are ready to rend.  These are the bones that […]

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The Oblong Box Has an Expiration Date

I am fearful of death but enamored with it at the same time.  My lust towards my own eventual demise is heightened, of course, during the throes of Bipolar depression, but I find that I am constantly dipping my toes into the grave just to get a taste of the nonexistence that will eventually be […]

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The Head and the Heart

I’ve been facing another identity crisis as of late.  Two and a half years ago, when confirmation of psychopathy was made by my psychotherapist, I thought that I had finally found insight into my inner workings and core self.  A Cluster B storm, the combination of ASPD, NPD, and BPD seemed to shed light on […]

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A Demon in the Playground of Angels

Sometimes I have to eat crow.  A mess of personality disorders, it seems that whatever lies at the core of this person often has its words drowned out by the maelstrom going on upstairs.  The comorbidity of psychopathy and Borderline Personality Disorder is well documented in the literature and results in a person that can be […]

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The World Expects Humans, Not Demons

There was a time in which I was nothing but a caricature.  I was completely dismissive of others, abused and neglected those in my life, and lived far beyond what this body was equipped for.  I learned quickly that success in life was more probabilistic if I were to learn restraint and to be a […]

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Keep Talking

For millions of years, mankind lived just like the animals. Then something happened which unleashed the power of our imagination. We learned to talk and we learned to listen… mankind’s greatest achievements have come about by talking, and its greatest failures by not talking. It doesn’t have to be like this… all we need to […]

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