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"i buy my ticket and a large black coffee and a bag of organic popcorn at the corner deli, and then settle in my seat in the back of the theater. just me and a score of slackers, comfortably isolated from the world, attaining our own brand of holiday well-being, no gifts, no Christ child, no tinsel or mistletoe, only a sense of complete freedom."

"the need for glasses intensified my mania for finding a pattern that, in good as evil, would bind my fate and hers: i was blind, she a falcon; i had an opaque pupil, she narrowed her eyes, with darting glances that saw more; i clung to her arm, among the shadows. she guided me with a stern gaze."

"a mysterious inversion of attitudes had occurred: i, despite the rain, would have continued on the road, i felt far from everything and everyone, and distance -- i discovered for the first time -- extinguished in me every tie and every worry; Lila had abruptly relented of her own plan, she had given up the sea, she had wanted to return to the confines of the neighborhood."

i was smiling. my eyes were closed still. it felt good to be wrong about everything. 'since when have you loved me?' i said.
'since i met you, i would think. if i wanted to be very philosophical about it, i'd say i loved you before then.'
'oh you're making me very happy.'
'am i?' he said. 'that's good. i want to make you very happy.'
'i love you too.'

"Reva was a magnet for my angst. she sucked it right out of me. i was a Zen Buddhist monk when she was around. i was above fear, above desire, above worldly concerns in general. i could live in the now in her company. i had no past or present. no thoughts. i was too evolved for all her jibber-jabber. and too cool. Reva could get angry, impassioned, depressed, ecstatic. i wouldn't. i refused to."