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DNF - too much farm talk maybe I’ll come back to it someday

I do not want solicitude. I want anger, vituperation, violence. I am like a man w/ an agonizing toothache who despite the pain takes a vindictive pleasure in prodding [..] his tongue again and again deep into the throbbing cavity. I imagine a fist flying out of nowhere and striking me full in the face, I almost feel the thud & hear the nose- bone breaking, then the thought of it affords me a grain of sad satisfaction

.. pinkish-grey rubber that bears no more than a passing resemblance to the image of what I look like that I stubbornly retain in my head.’

‘Usually these days I do not dally before my reflection any longer than is necessary. There was a time when I quite liked what I saw in the looking-glass, but not any more. Now i am startled, and more than startled, by the visage that so abruptly appears there, never and not at all the one that I expect. I have been elbowed aside by a parody of myself, a sadly disheveled figure in a Hallowe’en man made of sagging

‘Once I used to cherish schemes and promises for the future; now my feelings and my joys are smoothed and softened with the shadowy velvet of time past.’

…They do not speak with voices of the many but rather as members of the privileged few and usually reflect those interests. Wariness is reasonable. After all, the world being the unequal rat race that it is means that even the deepest forms of love must be watched carefully for selfishness and greed.’

‘We human beings are built to love and share stories. It is one of the best ways to connect. Lore transcends difference. And yet storytellers who belong to powerful groups are reasonably met with suspicion because of how the world has been carved up and stratified...

‘I didn’t understand the magic of those words then, and I don’t understand it now. I know only this: that when my mother told me she had not been the mother to me that she wished she’d been, she became that mother for the first time.’

‘I read them to learn what to think, not how to think for myself.’

I began to experience the most powerful advantage of money: the ability to think of things besides money.

‘Mama got up from the table saying, “Well, it’s like I said, I can’t say no and I can’t help worrying. I’ll pray every night you’re out.” The way mama had me feeling, I didn’t know whether to go hunting or not.