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"I really had no idea what love could be. And now I can never unknow the truest true thing -- the intensity of the love you feel will match the intensity of its loss."💔

"There is a heaviness to every step I take; I am the opposite of carbonated. Flat."

"This is a whole new kind of fried, something beautiful that had to be killed."

this hurts

I am tearing up, I just finished chapter 42.

"It was a summer romance, and it's run it's course."

"I have been dancing on the edge of this cliff, just a breath away -- or eight days to be exact -- from a huge fall. It was a fall I was warned about, big orange cones marking the danger. I climbed up anyway."

"And it's in this moment that I understand my mother's love for me. I can still feel the intensity of that love and the way she walked into my home, bright as the sun, and blinded me to all the shadows. How lucky I was to be loved like that."❤️‍🩹

"It was my life. Not yours. And I know you wanted me so much and that you loved me so much, but that didn't mean my life belonged to you. It was for me to walk through, and for me to figure out."🥺

Read chapter 41,

"I'm scared,"
"That's what happens when something matters."

Read Chapter 40.

"Feeling your actual feelings isn't always so pleasant."

Well, that is relatable AF.

Read chapter 39.

"It's time to get up. The summer is almost over."

Read chapter 38.🛶

"I used to love looking at Beechwood from here because it made me feel like I left it. Like I could enjoy the town from a distance, when it wasn't smothering me.'

Read chapter 37.

✨ "I have the sense that I have stepped into my very best self. I feel warm and generous as if the love I'm letting myself feel is touching everything around me."✨

Read chapter 36.

"Ethan shows up, every time, in the best possible way. And there it is, right in front of me--I am in love with him."

"Here I am, weirdly, inexplicably in love with this man who has cracked me open and helped me feel things again. I am in possession of a clean kitchen, a binder full of power, and a man who wants to surprise me with champagne."

Read chapter 35.
"When I was married I learned that all of my feelings were wrong. I should have felt grateful, not overwhelmed, to be home with three kids. I should have felt relieved, not mournful, that I didn't have to go to work anymore. My mom in particular painted a picture of my life that I felt guilty not embracing. I had everything she'd ever wanted. I think for a long time I just said in that disconnect."

Chapter 34 ---> done.

Read chapter 33, this book is so cute.

Read chapter 32.

"Ever since I met him he has been calling me back to myself, reminding me that I matter. He's that way now, but with his body, listening, responding, following up. I wind my arms and legs around him, and I have this feeling as we make love that I am being discovered. Maybe more than discovered -- I am unearthed. I am no longer weighed down; I am no longer on this earth."

"He looks at me like I'm art like I'm made of something so beautiful that it's going to take his break away."🩷
I wanna be looked at like this by someone.

Read Chapter 31.

"I am very afraid that you're going to break my heart. And I think it's worth it."

"I don't want to break your heart,"

"Okay, then don't."

Read chapter 30.

Read Chapter 29.

“Love is not If you clean up, I’ll help you through your grief. I’m not sure what love is, but I think it’s something different from that.”

Read chapter 28.

So this is love...

"This is not a man I need to pretend for. He is the impossible thing, the one who wants me more when I'm myself."♥️

Read chapter 27.

"Ethan looks up at me and I wonder if all men should always wear a large pink flower."

Read chapter 26.

"What are you so afraid of?"
"He's leaving at the end of the summer."
"Those are the best kind of love affairs. The great love of my life was a summer romance."

"You get a dog and you know two things --you're going to fall in love with it and it's going to die one day. You knowingly walk headfirst into a heartbreak. That's the basic madness of dog ownership."😭❤️‍🩹

Read Chapter 25.

"This is not going to be a lighthearted summer romance where we ride bikes with ice cream cones in our hands. It's going to be the kind where the waves crash over us as we feverishly make love on the sand. It has the same soundtrack, but it ends the same." ❤️‍🩹
I have tears in my eyes.🥺

Read chapter 24.

"It's been a long time since a man has worried about what I wanted. And it's been a long time since I've wanted something this much."

Read Chapter 23.

"This is Ethan's superpower, I think. His ability to meet people where they are and just hold the space for them to step into their best selves without any expectation of what they might be."

"I came up here and it felt like it could be a fresh start. I decided to be the architect of my own experience."

I read chapter 22.