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“You’re about to commit suicide, it’s not like time is an issue, you’re about to give all yours away, why not watch a movie first?” (294)

“Like every other time I’ve tried to commit suicide, I didn’t think of leaving a note. What could I say? I love you. I’m sorry. They already knew that.” (225-226)

"In the case of suicide, the murderer and the victim are the same person. This doubling, this spinning, is what it is like to be a human. It's just that the suicidal person has taken it out further, has tried to end the doubling by enacting the doubling, so to speak." (216)

"We can say this while at the same time entertaining the thought that suicide in the future may still seem attractive, because we can recognize that our lives, after a failed suicide attempt, have provided us with irreplaceably good things...and yet still know that we might find ourselves again in such a place of depression and self-loathing that we once more see suicide as the only escape." (186)

"At that moment, my needs and my fears are likely quite primitive and direct—pain fighting against love, fear fighting against obligation—and I might not care if what I was doing was fundamentally irrational or even shameful." (163)