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this book was nothing like what i was expecting, and i had high expectations. it’s so cheesy and fanfiction-esque…. im gonna try and plow through

help this book is so millennial core….its cringe….im going to push through

“Grief is like a deep, dark hole. It calls like a siren: Come to me, lose yourself here. And you fight it and you fight it and you fight it, but when you finally do succumb and jump down into jt, you can’t quit believe how deep it is. It feels as if this is how you will live for the rest of your life, falling. Terrified and devastated, until you yourself die.”

“The harder I chase it, the more it eludes me.”

I can’t put this book down.

“That you have to be able to draw a straight line from how you acted yesterday to how you’ll act tomorrow. You don’t have to be consistent. You can change, I think. Just because you want to.”

“I feel a sense of control that I sometimes get when I wake up before the rest of the world. I have the feeling that the days events are mine to determine, that I hold everything in the palm of my hand.”

“Some men’s childhoods are permitted to last forever, but women are so often reminded that there is work to be done.”

“You weren’t born that person. You were born to become that person.”

“I just tried to be, tried to absorb the man I loved through osmosis, tried to imprint what I had left of him in myself.”

“To teach feels like you are a guardian of time itself, protecting the future happiness of the world via the minds that are yet to shape it.”

“To be somewhere new, when the world has felt so stale and familiar.”

“But sometimes it seems there is no explanation as to why the things are happening…why life’s moments of luck and pain arrive in clusters. All we can do is observe the pattern, the rhythm, and then live it.”

it’s getting hard to keep reading this … might need to continue on to the next

“It is strange how close the past is, even when you imagine it so be so far away. Strange how it can just jump out of a sentence and hit you. Strange how every object or word can house a ghost.”

“Rose sighed. I can remember her sighs. They were rarely sad sighs. They always had a sense of this is the way things are and how they are going to be and that is perfectly fine about them.”

“I had to exist, I realized, because for pain to be felt there must be a living presence - a me - to feel it.”

“Forever…is composed of nows. But how do you inhabit the now you are in? How do you stop the ghosts of all the other nows from getting in? How do you live? I am drifting away.”

tried to get back into this book but it is making me way too uncomfortable…

longest i’ve read this book in one sitting, finally getting a hold of it

slowly but surely i am finishing this book