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“下棋和赢棋需要注意力的高度集中。在梁朝宫廷诗人看来，对每一个瞬间之思绪也就是‘一念’的全神贯注，都可以具体化为精工细刻的诗篇，而每一首诗都代表了诗人对物象之色与空的聚精会神的观照。那么，是不是真的像是严厉的唐代史臣或者宋代儒生所宣判的那样，梁朝的覆灭乃是由君臣上下错置的注意力所造成的呢？在我看来，这只是一个神话，这一神话之所以产生，是由于道学先生总是在每一个历史事件中寻找‘道德教训’。他们的目标是教导当前的王朝不要重蹈覆辙，以求千秋万代维持王朝的统治。毫无疑问，如果一个人有意寻找某样东西，他总是会找到他所寻找的，只不过寻找得太热情了，这份热情常常会扭曲手头的证据和最后的结论。”

"Everything in nature submits to becoming something to be expected."

Aquilon and Serafica's story... It's beautiful but I do not understand the last part quite well

“[...] In my own case, when I come over Sophie's troubles again—her lack of eyebrows and love of thick cream—I not only go through the same agony and delight that my uncle did, but have to cope with an additional burden—the recollection I have of him, reliving his childhood with the help of those very books. I see again my schoolroom in Vyra, the blue roses of the wallpaper, the open window. Its reflection fills the

“陆杲擅长书画，是虔诚的佛教徒，三十卷《沙门传》的作者。他现存的唯一作品是《系观世音应验记》，包括69个关于观世音神通应验的故事。陆杲作于499年的序言叙述了这一故事集的起源。最早收集这一类故事的人是东晋的谢敷，谢敷把这些故事送给了傅瑗，这些故事在399年的孙恩之乱中丢失了。傅瑗的儿子傅亮后来根据记忆复写下来数条。这就是最初的《观世音应验记》。接下来，张融父亲的一个堂兄弟张演又写下十条作为续集，也就是《续观世音应验记》。在序言中，张演声称对观世音的崇拜是家族传统。据《南史》记载，张淹（？—466），张融的兄弟，陆杲的舅舅，是一个狂热的佛教徒，曾经强迫手下属吏焚烧手臂以供养佛祖，还命令犯法者都必须以拜佛作为惩罚，有时甚至要拜数千次。”

The restraint and tenderness with which Nabokov writes about his mother is quite moving... Interesting that his mother might have had some influence in his sensitivity and interest in nature:

I'm rather in love

Immediately hooked... I sense it to be (yet another) magnetic book by STW

连襟文学

WAIT THE TEA...... OMG WHAT

strangling John Dashwood with my bare hands

八股文 eight-legged essays...

Lovisa and Adela... Beautiful blossoming lesbianisms

Dame Sibilla and Dame Lilias...

An addictive read

Reading about the monasteries' ways to economise and enrich their means of income and their lives made me think of how some buddhist and taoist temples in chongqing took up varied trades like pickling and sewing in early 20th century

"When I went out to meet my mother on her way up to bed, and when she saw that I had stayed up in order to say good night to her again in the passage, I should not be allowed to stay in the house a day longer, I should be packed off to school next morning; so much was certain. Very well: had I been obliged, the next moment, to hurl myself out of the window, I should still have preferred such a fate. For what I wanted

I felt the freedom of the author to write indulgently, for long hours uninterruptedly, dwelling on fine wefts of observations and sentiments, giving free rein to his imagination. I'm jealous3

Acker and Sarah Kane remind me of each other, if SK possesses a finer organization of sentences and precise, intricate poetical bursts.

Acker and Sarah Kane remind me of each other, if SK is more finely organized than Acker in her sentences and bursts of intricate poetry

"... evil (that is the religious word for wildness )"

In the political and socioeconomical cynicisms of Acker I still see some vein of the characters, when Janey paralleled her father sending her away to NYC to Hester Prynne's husband sending her to America to prepare a way for him I went straight insane. The incest in this and EotS, is heavily metaphorical and political (esp in Empire of the Senseless) but I still see something personal to the characters

This after the Waves, both immediate and commanding in their reach towards sensations