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“You can’t do this,” Ryan said. “Don’t do this, Jamie. Not over the
fucking phone. Let’s meet—”
James closed his eyes. “And then what?”
Silence.
“I’m tired, Ryan,” Jamie said, barely audibly. “If I mean anything to you, let me be. Go back to Hannah. Be happy. You were happy with her until I fucked it up.”

~ Alessandra is so lucky I'm emotional rn cuz I have never been so upset when reading (lie, I'm being dramatic)

He was hard. He didn’t lose his erection. He came. In my book, that means he participated in the sex.

~ Oh Luke, don't make me lose respect for you. You're in my 2nd fav book from this series, you do not wanna lose that honour

He had his cock in the person he always considered a little brother—someone to protect and care for, not someone to fuck in the ass. But there was nothing remotely brotherly about the way Jamie looked as he rode his cock, panting, his swollen, pink lips slack and eyes unfocused with bliss. It was impossible to look away from him.

~ This is not a thought normal people have....

“Sometimes…sometimes I hated being a boy and wished I were born as a girl, so that I could know what it felt like to have you—have you that way. I wanted it so badly. It had become something of an obsession—to get you inside me.”

~ L why is half of this sentiment so real (I'm not relating to the sex part). Jamie, I see you.

“The fucked up part is, I get off on it—on how wrong it is. I get off on fucking your mouth because it feels wrong to dirty you up, and because—because there’s a part of me that wants to own you.”

~ At leat they have good communication

Fuck, he’d never been harder in his life, the feeling of wrongness still there— Jamie was like a little brother to him; what was he doing?—but it was only making everything hotter and sharper.

~ I thought this series was the exception, that there would be no stepbrother book... but it seems I was wrong

Ryan’s hips jerked of their own volition, slamming back into the heat of Jamie’s mouth. Jamie let out a long, pleased moan around Ryan’s cock. He was bloody loving it.

~ What a terrible thing to read right after crying for an hour, fuck this guy I hate him sm

“I love you—I love you more than anyone—but not that way. I wish I could give you what you want, but I can’t. You’re like a brother to me. When I tried to imagine having sex with you, the only time it didn’t seem weird was when I imagined you as a girl. ” A faint flush appeared on his cheekbones, but Ryan’s firm expression didn’t change. His voice softened. “I’m sorry. I really am, Jamie.”

~ It's just sad

Fuck I did it again, tab button should NOT be right next to tilda istg. Anyway um, poor Hannah, she was so sweet I actually really like her. I wish the author would make a parallel lesbian series, that would go so hard. Feature Hannah in the first book pls

"Go home. I’ll have to talk to Hannah and break it off with her.”
James’s eyes widened. “What?” he said tonelessly.
“Are you really surprised? Are you kidding me, Jamie? Did you really think I’d let you leave? Really?”
“But you love her,” James said, confused.
Ryan’s lips twisted into a bitter smile. “Yes. But apparently not enough.”

“He’s right to be mad at me,” Ryan said. “I’ll have to do some major grovelling this time before he takes me back.”
Laughing, Sandra shook her head. “You two are like an old married couple without the benefits of sex.”
Ryan averted his gaze.

~ Dramatic irony..?

What was wrong with him? Had he been subconsciously trying to manipulate Jamie? The thought made Ryan deeply uncomfortable. He would like to think he was better than that, but considering his earlier creepy thoughts about locking Jamie up, he actually wasn’t sure he was. Christ.

~ ...

It didn’t make any sense even in his head. He wasn’t sure why he had touched Jamie that way after Jamie explicitly asked him not to a week ago. It was cruel and completely unnecessary.

~ I'm about to punch this bitch

He kissed the corner of Jamie’s mouth. A small whine left Jamie’s trembling lips.
Bloody hell.
He turned Jamie around and looked at him.
Jesus fucking Christ.
The longing, hungry look he gave Ryan was downright shameless and obscene—the kind of look that belonged on a whore’s face before she spread her legs. Ryan stared.

~ Hey Ryan, these actually aren't platonic thoughts to have, just letting you know

Jamie would continue to be miserable—until he finally got tired and left. He tried to suppress the insane urge to grab Jamie and lock him up somewhere safe. Somewhere only he had access to.
He mouthed Jamie’s nape, trailed his lips to the soft skin of Jamie’s cheek. Jamie shuddered and melted against him, turning his face into the touch. Damn, Jamie’s reaction to such an innocent touch was incredible.

~ "innocent"

“You’ll catch a cold,” Hannah said... “I never do,” Ryan said before taking another sip. “But you should go inside. It is cold.”

vs Jamie

“You’ll catch a cold,” Jamie said. Setting the bottle down, Ryan turned his head. He smiled. “I won’t if you come here and warm me up, Jamie bear.”

~ Like... ah yes straight man behaviour??? Like, girl come on

This was sick. The thought of his best mate with a vagina should have been funny, not a turn-on. Christ, Jamie was like a brother to him. Could the gender really change his perception of him so much? Or…was his attachment to Jamie less platonic than he’d always assumed it to be?

~ I wanna cry, Ryan's thoughts make me so upset... wtf is this

Although he would never admit it to Jamie, Ryan had felt a bit like a pervert when he jerked Jamie off. He felt like he was touching his twin’s dick. But the look of pure bliss and pleasure on Jamie’s face…Ryan couldn’t erase it from his mind no matter how hard he tried.

~ Ryan... please never verbalise this thought 🙏

“Come on,” Ryan murmured into James’s ear, his breath hot. His hand squeezed James’s leaking cock, hard. “Come on, Jamie. You need it. Let me
take care of you.”

~ This is actually so fucked for Jamie, I feel so bad for him. If it was me I would immediately have a breakdown and cry for like an hour cuz that's so fucked. Ryan out here playing with (manipulating) his feelings...

The other hand pressed between James’s legs. James flinched with his entire body, his glazed eyes going wide as he tried to focus them on Ryan’s face. “What are you doing—”
His jaw set, Ryan ignored his half-hearted protests and unzipped his jeans swiftly.

~ Ryan... you have a girlfriend? Like, I appreciate that you would rather fuck your bestie than lose him but maybe reevaluate a few things first...

“Jamie,” Ryan said. “I don’t give a shit. Molest me—I don’t fucking care. I’d take that over you being constantly on guard around me.”

~ Wow... what a statement...

Peak Tristan helping James try and cut his losses on this doomed friendship

IM SHOCKED THAT I LOVE JAMES BUT I REALLY REALLY DO