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“I gave up on love today.

Not because I stopped feeling,
but because I got tired of being the only one who did.

I carried us in every possible way I knew how.
I travelled miles just to steal a few moments with you,
adjusted my life around your comfort,
swallowed my ego during fights,
chose understanding even when I was hurting,
and kept calling it patience instead of pain.

I loved you in the purest form I could.
In effort.
In consistency.
In showing up.
Again and again.
Even on the days I was silently breaking.

You never had to ask twice.
I was already there.

And maybe that’s what destroyed me the most,
realising how naturally love came from me,
while reciprocation always felt forced from you.

I kept waiting for you to love me
the way I loved you.
To choose me without hesitation.
To fight for me the way I fought for us.

But somewhere between the compromises,
the long travels,
the endless understanding,
and the nights I cried quietly after pretending to be okay,
I lost myself.

Love stopped feeling warm.
It started feeling exhausting.

So today,
I didn’t give up because I hated you.
I gave up because I could no longer abandon myself
just to keep you.

And the truth is,
the hardest heartbreak
isn’t losing someone you love.

It’s realising
you did everything you possibly could,
and it still wasn’t enough
for them to stay the way you needed.”
― Anamika Mishra, For the Sake of Love