Syncuvane

“Despair is always described as dull, when the truth is that despair has a light all its own, a lunar glow, the color of mottled silver.”
― Daphne Merkin, This Close to Happy: A Reckoning with Depression

“Spring and Fall” …cannot be said to be about depression - but of course, to someone who is depressed, everything is about depression. …For some of us, the sadness running under the skin of things begins as a trickle and ends up a hemorrhage, staining everything.”
― Daphne Merkin, This Close to Happy: A Reckoning with Depression

“What would it be like as an adult to open my eyes with a feeling of even mild anticipation?”
― Daphne Merkin, This Close to Happy: A Reckoning with Depression

“pick you apart like puzzle pieces, stick my fingers in your cracks and split you open to see the inside because I am so damn naive that I am always expecting a sweet, soft center even when there’s none to be had. You did not want to be smashed open and dived greedily into. You pressed your mouth to my fingers and toes, wrote prose into my palms where every other line began with “No” and ended with a reason that you could not bear to stay.”
― Trista Mateer, Honeybee