ماجد دحام

“لم أعد أحبني، وأنا لا أعرف وحدةً أشد من ألا يحب الإنسان نفسه”
― حمزة كاشغري, الشاعر والقرصان

“We have not begun to live’, Yeats writes, ‘until we conceive life as a tragedy.’ Newman confessed that he considered most men to be irretrievably damned, although he spent his life ‘trying to make that truth less terrible to human reason’. Goethe could call his life ‘the perpetual rolling of a rock that must be raised up again forever’. Martin Luther told a woman who wished him a long life: ‘Madam, rather than live forty more years, I would give up my chance of paradise.’ No, the Outsider does not make light work of living; at the best, it is hard going; at the worst (to borrow a phrase from Eliot) ‘an intolerable shirt of flame’,

It was this vision that made Axel declare: ‘As for living, our servants will do that for us.’ Axel was a mystic; at least, he had the makings of a mystic. For that is just what the mystic says: ‘I refuse to Uve.’ But he doesn’t intend to die. There is another way of living that involves a sort of death: ‘to die in order to Uve’. Axel would have locked himself up in his castle on the Rhine and read Hermetic philosophy. He saw men and the world as Newman saw them, as Eliot saw them in ‘Burnt Norton’:
... strained, time-ridden faces
Distracted from distraction by distraction
Filled with fancies and empty of meaning
Tumid apathy with no concentration
Men and bits of paper, whirled by the cold wind
That blows before and after time

But he was not willing to regard himself as hopelessly damned merely because the rest of the world seems to be. He set out to find his own salvation; and although he did it with a strong romantic bias for Gothic castles and golden-haired girls, he still set out in the right direction.

And what are the clues in the search for self-expression? There are the moments of insight, the glimpses of harmony. Yeats records one such moment in his poem ‘Vacillation’:

My fiftieth year had come and gone

I sat, a solitary man

In a crowded London shop

An open book and empty cup

On the marble table-top

While on the shop and street I gazed

My body of a sudden blazed

And twenty minutes more or less

It seemed, so great my happiness

That I was blessed, and could bless

It is an important experience, this moment of Yea-saying, of reconciliation with the ‘devil-ridden chaos’, for it gives the Outsider an important glimpse into the state of mind that the visionary wants to achieve permanently.”
― Colin Wilson

“العرب سرعان ما غلبتهم طبائعهم النزقة فإنحرفوا عن صراط الله، وإستهانوا بوصايا القرآن وأغرقوا في طاعة هواهم ونسمع الآن منهم فخراً بقوميتهم ونرى إنسلاخاً عن الميراث الذي إصطفاه الله لهم”
― محمد الغزالي, نحو تفسير موضوعي لسور القرآن الكريم

“إن هزائم اليوم يمكن أن تتحول إلى انتصارات الغد بشرط أن نواجه أنفسنا ونواجه الحقائق فنسمي الانتصار انتصارا ونسمي الفشل فشلا، ثم ننطلق فنحلل أسباب الانتصار وعوامل الهزيمة.”
― غازي عبد الرحمن القصيبي, تجربة اليونسكو دروس الفشل