Got Help?

[Cheyenne, Impressive, Star Fox]

Need help or advice? Problems?

Just ask away, and we'll answer from heart.

[Tea in Chapter Three]

What do you do when all you feel everyday is brooding, and nothing makes you even slightly joyous?

[Vish]

You open www.stumbleupon.com and keep stumblin'!
Or www.reallol.com
Talk to people
Draw something. Read funny comics.
Play Limbo.

[Tea in Chapter Three]

I have a problem that is quite out of the ordinary too, and it is not fun. Very complicated.

Oh, and I will always be brooding. I am a freak of nature. :(

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

Well, try and look at the things you do appreciate in life, even if they're small. Say 'em out loud if you need to. For example:

I enjoy the way the sun soaks its warmness through my clothing when there's a cool breeze around. I like how my shoes fit my feet well. I like hot showers, and how my penmanship has improved over the years. I love watching my favorite films, Happy Gilmore, and things like that.

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Loudfire wrote: "Hmm... Find little things to be happy about, think about something upcoming that you would be excited about, or go ahead and plan a fun activity with a friend. Maybe to a movie? Something to get yo..."

You can tell us that problem of your Loudfire, I am always open for words.

[Cheyenne, Impressive, Star Fox]

Loudfire wrote: "Hmm... Find little things to be happy about, think about something upcoming that you would be excited about, or go ahead and plan a fun activity with a friend. Maybe to a movie? Something to get yo..."

What's wrong? I'm all ears.

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Oh Loudfire. Hmm, that is an indeed interesting story. Synethesia would be actually rather fasinating to have. Well, it is nothing that you should feel embarrased about in anyway, because it is actually a great opportunity to experience. Not many have this. Also, I do not feel in anyway you are crazy. Think of it as a weight being lifted, because now you know what you have, and you need not worry you are going insane. I have multiple secrets wrapped tightly in my brain that I am afraid to tell people too.

[Cheyenne, Impressive, Star Fox]

Yeah you probably think I'm a little crazy,

I do not think that at all, actually. Synesthesia… wow. I've never heard of that before.

I think you can do no harm, per se, by telling people about the disorder. It sounds very disturbing (not in the morbid sort of way, more like disturbing in that it bothers you, it's constantly grating away at your nerves sort of disturbing. You know what I mean?)

So, if I may ask, what is it that Synesthesia does? How does it affect you?

[Tea in Chapter Three]

*Nods* I might tell one. Just maybe. Let me think.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

Loudfire, I know exactly what's happening to you. I just came across a Psychology Magazine article on Synthesia, and let me tell you, you're not crazy. It's just a condition, and shouldn't really affect your life too much. There's nothing "wrong" with you, you just think differently than other people, and that's okay.

Just take a deep breath, and calm yourself. Who says normal is so great anyways? I'm not normal, and I'm damn okay with it. So what you think differently? Anyone who can't accept that, is obviously not worth your time. Because you're not a bad person Loudfire, or an "accident". You're perfect the way you are

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Alright, I have a question. If I tell my problem (one of them anyway) will you guys care? If not then I won't post it.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

@Loudfire, No problem, it's my goal to help people out. It's just what I do, no thanks necessary :)

@Nemp, *laughs* Will we care? Is that a real question? Of course we care, now shoot girly.

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Ok. It is rather twisted to me, but I must get it off of my shoulders, easier to say to people I haven't met.

So, some of you may have realized that the things I say are quite rude, or uncompassionate. And I hardly reveal real things about me.

Well, that is because my thoughts are always dark. I am almost never 'joyous' and I always caught in a terrible world I created. On accident. One that is filled with terrors and horrors and all sorts of things. Worse than the Hunger Games. And my roleplay characters? The things they experience, are things I always think about. I am trapped in a world, where I see two. One is reality. And one is the nightmare world. Death, blood, demons, evil, warlocks, vampires, golbins, fairies... all live within my world and threaten to murder me. In the most painful ways they can manage. Which is why in real life, I am never seen without a book or notebook, where I write my most daunting thoughts, and read to take my mind off of the worst. If you had read what was in my notebooks, what I scrawled in black ink, you would have nightmares too.

That is just a sort of summarized version of what the 'real' me is. A ravaged human being that has no such reason to have thoughts like that.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

Everybody has a different way of thinking, Nemp. Just because your ways consists of darker methods, doesn't mean that you're a monster. Just think of the great writers, like Stephen King, and Edgar Allen Poe. They are famous and admire world wide, and they had minds sicker than yours! Anything is possible Nemp, you just have to take what you are, and use it to your advantage.

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Sure, sure. Like writing down thoughts of people gripping the ground as life bleeds from them? Oh, and I have a real problem of being gripped in a place where I scream, as I think of what happens to us. When we die. Or other mysteries that people should not dwell on. Life is hell, and when you spend it thinking of those things, without a way out of the mindset, it is not fun.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

1. http://www.creepypasta.com/ You'd like this site, some freaky shat right there, and evil always wins.

2. Nemp, the only person who can make it better is you. It may be hard to change your way of thinking, maybe even the most difficult thing you're bound to do, but anything can be done.

"Door: ...but it's very improbable.
Alice: Don't you mean impossible?
Door: No, nothing is impossible."
~Alice in Wonderland

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Damn. I looked at the link and now I am really depressed. Why did I do? *Facepalm*

Thanks Ri. Nothing is impossible. But in my situation, it seems nearly impossible.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

Nearly impossible, and impossible are two completely different things love. Everybody has a past to turn the page on, to read the next chapter of their story. It's as easy as flipping the page Nemphisi, you just gotta know how.

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Thanks guys, I appreciate it. Good to get it off my chest.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

Anytime Nephisi, anytime at all :)

[Tea in Chapter Three]

Oh, and sorry for dumping that on you guys. God, it is wierd to type, because I have been practicing violin and my fingers feel wierd.

[Cheyenne, Impressive, Star Fox]

You don't have to feel bad at all for venting. That's why I created this forum.

Like Autumn said, everybody thinks differently. It's all about perspective-- it's who you are, it's your inner voice.

Sometimes I feel really self-centered, because you know those days where you don't care what people think about you?

That never happens to me

I am CONSTANTLY concerned with how people think of me. Everything I do, from the music I like to the way I speak to the tilt of my handwriting, it's all perfected after years of training. And I'm obsessed with my body, with making it perfect. I'm obsessed with not wearing too much makeup. With having a 'naturally' perfect face. With being not too girly, and not too tomboy-y. I don't know if any of that makes sense, and writing it all down makes me feel even more self-centered. Guys?

[Elizabeth]

I totally know what you mean from 1st to 7th grade i tried to fit in with my friends and do everything like them, they were the popular people in my grade and this year (im in 8th) I decided i wasn't going to be fake and care what they thought about me and now i am a totally and completely new me I love it but ya I still worry what people think about me

[Cheyenne, Impressive, Star Fox]

Today I'm bummed. I like this guy even though I know I shouldn't, even though I know he won't ever like me back. Problem is that he's really funny, more mature than most guys at my school, and he's similar to me. He's also super cute. But I could never tell him, it's terrifying. He says he's an A**hole, and I believe him. But I still like him, and I don't know why. THIS SUCKS!

[[deleted user]]

I like a guy...who is dating my friend. They just recently got together but I never thought he liked her!!!! I never seen them talk EVER before until now. I probably sound really jealous. I am. And he does all these little things that make me think he likes me but then...bam.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

@Chey Chey, I know how you mean. It's only natural to want to fit in with the rest of the group, to flow well with the rest of our peers, but I'll let you in on a little secret; just being yourself, and not caring what others think, is so much easier, and you'll feel way better about yourself too.

@Ally, I know how you feel too. I was in the exact same situation, or rather, I was the friend, and my friend was in your position. If you both value you each other's friendship, then boys shouldn't get in the way. I'm not going to lie, it probably won't be easy, but what in life is? Just let things play themselves out, and remember, keep your options open.

[[deleted user]]

It wasn't only me that thought it. Many other people that shared classes with him and me suspected something but, I guess not? I'm kinda bummed out but surprisingly, I feel like I should've been more heartbroken? Looking back on other crushes I had, I remember one guy who I liked and it turned out he was a total douchebag, excuse my French, and I cried over him for weeks. Now this more recent crush, I liked (still do) a whole lot more then the ex-crush, but I'm not that...depressed about it I guess? The first ten minutes after hearing the news I was a dark cloud, but the rest of the day I was fairly...chipper.

[Cheyenne, Impressive, Star Fox]

All I can think is that maybe you're getting more mature. Like, maybe you realize that this guy isn't everything in life. You still have your friends.

Too, maybe its the fact that you know he is happy.

That's all I can think of at any rate

@Ri and Loudfire, Thank you guys so much. I feel waay better now.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

1. Don't be nervous, just start talking to her like you would any person. If she can't speak that well because of a speech impediment, then you can try doing things that don't require talking like drawing, or puzzles and what not. It will get easier as you go along :)

2. Maybe you should take a step back, draw in a deep breath, and try to look at everything from an objective point of view. If you do like him, then why? List the reasons clearly to yourself. Then, decide if it's worth the trouble. If it is, well, take everything one step at a time. You can't always control the way things will go, but you can try not to get too overwhelmed.

[[deleted user]]

I'm sick of everything right now, life mostly. Just feel depressed 24/7. There only one person that really knows who i am, and soon they'll be gone too. :(

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

I'll give you the same advice I gave to Nemp. Try focusing on the things you do like in life. Even if they're little, just list them to yourself. Think of life without them, and it'll help you appreciate the small things a little more :)

[[deleted user]]

hm....yep i got nothing. sry i'm just so tired of feeling like this. im so ready to just give up on life.

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

Don't give up on life. My uncle killed himself, and to this day I wish I'd gotten to meet him. There is so much that you'll miss out on if you're gone, you just have to stick in there. Life really sucks sometimes, but just think about all the people who have it worse than you. Force yourself to recognize how lucky you are to be free, walking, getting an education. Some people can't even say that.

[[deleted user]]

i can walk, but im not free and im not getting any education. im homeschool which to my parents equals i do nothing. and my parents rarely let me do anything. and what i do do i have to do behind their backs.

[Vish]

You can't just give up on life!

[[deleted user]]

it'd be a heck of alot easier for everyone if i did.

[Vish]

Not for me.

[[deleted user]]

how come?

[Vish]

Whom would I date next Valentines Day?

[[deleted user]]

lol mostly like not me

[Vish]

Most likely you, if you live. Don't deny me the chance. :p
Cheer up!

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

Keep your head held high, and when life get's hard, just tell the bad things to (and excuse my language) go fuck themselves. Seriously, I mean it. Example:

What? I have a pop quiz? And I didn't study? Eh, fuck it, I'm not letting it get me down.

What? You say I'm grounded for three weeks, in which I won't see daylight once? Fuck it, I'll read.

[Vish]

RI!

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

If you let life defeat you, life wins, and then what? You just die defeated? Like you meant nothing? Well, news flash for ya here, believe it or not, you mean everything. Live life, rush at it head on, and when it knocks you down, stand back up!

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

The Warrior's Destiny wrote: "RI!"

Well it's true! And I'm not afraid to say it! Sometimes, all you need, is to tell the sucky things in life to go eff themselves, and there is nothing wrong with that. Try it, it feels better.

[[deleted user]]

i know how to act like im fine i've been doing it for the last three years i just wish once i could say im good and actually mean it for once.

[Vish]

..I was greeting you.. -.-

[[deleted user]]

huh? lol

[rollyflan, Oh dear.]

@Vish, Oops! Sorry, it's not the first time I've been scolded before, so I guess I jumped to the wrong conclusion ;)

@Jamie, You know what makes me feel better? Music. Get to a radio, youtube, anything, and just listen to something that makes you feel. Tune out the world for a couple minutes.