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Rudy, I am told my voice looks green
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Jan 14, 2012 09:04AM
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.____. I'll rant later. I'm not aloud to do anything but homework all weekend....I can't write or read... so.. I'll have to post later. Luckily, they aren't home right now so..... yah
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I must finish science fair. She expects everything to be perfect.... I need to Call my parnter...........
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This isn't one of my really long rants... but it's something that bugged the freaking crap out of me today.I wasn't really hungry today, so I only ate lunch. When it was time for dinner, they asked my sister if she was hungry. She said no, and they told her that she needed to eat. About... twenty minutes later, they asked me the same thing, I replied with the same answer, but they didn't tell me that I needed to eat. Even though I wasn't hungry, it made me upset. It seems like they care more for her than for me. The don't care about my well-being. My mom doesn't even care if I get enough sleep!!!!!
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It just.. irritates me I gueess... to put it that way... My mother once said to me... to my face, that she didn't care. It made me cry... and I don't cry very often.
That's terrible. I'm sorry, Kaylee. :(
No problem. I hope things get better for you.
Here's a rant....I hate being sick.
BEST RANT EVER
xDMy sister got me sick, and now it's even harder to breathe!!!
Darn my life. Darn my effing life.
I love my friends. You get this? LOVE. They have pulled me through some dark sh*t (pardon the curse). But right now, they are pulling me down. I refuse to be part of society and all of it's requirements that no effing one can live up to. I decided, with the help of some pretty intense prayer, that I have to leave them. They are moving forward in society, and aren't being social outcasts like I need my friends to be. Their conversations consist of 'cute' guys, clothes, and pop culture. These are apparently essential to middle school, so I've tried to impress them. But, you know what? I'm done. Social standards and I have never gotten along, and probably never will. I just really really need to figure out how to tell my best friends since second/third grade this in a gentle fashion. Why don't I just say it and leave? Because if I say 'Loose my number, I can't hang out with you anymore.' it will break their hearts. I just don't know how to do it. Help?
I love my friends. You get this? LOVE. They have pulled me through some dark sh*t (pardon the curse). But right now, they are pulling me down. I refuse to be part of society and all of it's requirements that no effing one can live up to. I decided, with the help of some pretty intense prayer, that I have to leave them. They are moving forward in society, and aren't being social outcasts like I need my friends to be. Their conversations consist of 'cute' guys, clothes, and pop culture. These are apparently essential to middle school, so I've tried to impress them. But, you know what? I'm done. Social standards and I have never gotten along, and probably never will. I just really really need to figure out how to tell my best friends since second/third grade this in a gentle fashion. Why don't I just say it and leave? Because if I say 'Loose my number, I can't hang out with you anymore.' it will break their hearts. I just don't know how to do it. Help?
I 've been through that... A lot the past couple years. Not a whole lot of people really like me. I would say... hang onto it for a little longer.. if yo can't take it anymore... tell them what you 've been thinking. Sometimes, that helps. It helped me.. I dunno if it will help you or not Fay, but I'm here to help. That's all I can sthink of right now, I'm sorry that I can't do much more than to be by your side if ya need it.
Fay wrote: "Darn my life. Darn my effing life.I love my friends. You get this? LOVE. They have pulled me through some dark sh*t (pardon the curse). But right now, they are pulling me down. I refuse to be pa..."
I used to be in the exact same situation. Being a social outcast, Faith, has it's advantages: ignore them. All attempts to contact you, try to avoid face-to-face meetings. It's what I've done, and gradually I just faded away from the minds of my friends, I think. I've all but forgotten about them.
:) Thanks guys. Hope, I'm gonna try that.
Yeah, I did something similar to what Hope did when I didn't really want to be as close to my friends anymore. I just avoided doing things outside of school with them. We're still friends, but since I'm not in public school anymore we're definitely not as close as we used to be.I don't get along well with social standards mostly because my standards are so different. Even the little stuff, the status quo's that everyone seems to do I don't take part in. I never liked the typical things people my age like, and I think that's partly why I hate social standards so much. I tried to fit in, but I'm an odd shaped peg trying to fit into a round hole. It's never going to work, and I'm okay with that. It's not something I want to be a part of.
It's figuring out what to do that's confusing. Like you said, you don't want to hurt your friends' feelings, but you just don't want to hang out with them as much anymore. I agree with Hope's suggestion. But if you come into contact with them, which will inevitably happen, just courteously excuse yourself. If they invite you to something, just tell them that you're not really interested.
society sucks. people are too judgemental... there...that pretty much sums it up... i think.
I feel like complaining about something, but I don't know what to complain about....lol
Hey guys.... Yeah I know. I'm here again. My mom finally decided to plunge a dagger into my heart. She's canceling my guitar lessons. Tomorrow's my last one! *smiles, eyes filling with tears again* I love my music lessons. It's my last connection to one of the adults I'm closest to. Guitar was a way of expressing how I felt, unlike piano and voice, where I put on an act of everything being fine. She canceled my way of expressing anything. What's next? Voice? Piano? All social ties I've ever had? She's tearing my life apart. My guitar's probably going to be sold, so I won't be able to practice what I have learned. Yes, I might not have practiced much, but it was to minimize my vulnerability in front of her. When you could see the scars and damage she and my dad have inflicted. I'm almost in tears again! I feel like she wants to hurt me now. After she told me, she walked inside from the front porch, knowing tears would follow. She told me everything I did wrong with it. Every. Little. Detail. And it's not like she would know anything if not for my brother filling her in. So yeah. That's it. I'm finished with guitar lessons. Maybe my friend could teach me before youth. I can only hope.
My parents have done this to ke too. Not in terms of music though. in terms of athletics. My mother likes to take all thw little things away. My sister fets all the extra trainers for softbal.. and do I get anything for soccer? Any extra heler to increase my agility? No. I dont. Fay... You knoe.. if you have enough courage to.. I would ask your mom if you could pay for the lessons yourself. I have a guarenteed job and I babysit.. so I have money to do some extra things. You could ask her for that. Just that little time to do wht YOU love to do. Or ask to get rid of the other lessons. Mke a scrifice and maybe she will reward you with keeping the lessons that you love the most.
This rant is going to be pointless if you don't care... then I don't care I honestly don't.I've been torn down, rebuilt, and torn down again. I'm not a building! You can't build and destroy as you please. I am not your tool. You can't use me, you can't tell me what to do, and you sure as heck can't tell me what my orientation should be. I am sick. Sick of you. Sick of your stupid little rants on how the world should be all straight. So what if I'm bisexual? You got a problem with that Yelly? Yeah, I know you do. I sure as hell know that my family would kick me out onto the streets if they knew, would yu do the same damn thing to our friendship? I sure hope not. I'm just sick of it. You're backstabbing who I am. Who I can't change. I'm me Yelly. You can't, you can't tell me who I should be. You know I love you, but why can't your respect the way I feel? I know my faith doesn't accept it, but does that mean I can't accept it?Or that we can't learnt o accept it? I think we can accept it. I know you can. Keep your comments to yourself, or next time I'll punch you straight in the face.
My rant is kept quiet.I don't know what I'm doing...
Oranges...
Not a whole lot of people like me,
including my mother.
Who really isn't my mother.
*headdesk*
Why does everyone have problems?
this is not rhetorical, I want answers.
People are rude.
I hate insomia, don't you?
Does your own mother call you fat?
I didn't think so.
Pinatas.
I am ranting about nothing...
so honestly, this is just a waste of space....
which I really couldn't care less about....
*headdesk*
Is it nice to have people around (that AREN'T on the internet!) that truly love you for who you are?
I don't know many.
I'm a spaz.
I know that.
I'm rude.
I know that.
I'm a total pain in the ass.
I know that.
Half of you truly think I'm the most annoyingly obnoxious person to ever set foot on this planet.
I know that.
I think I'm funny, but I'm honestly not.
I know that.
I hate pink.
And you now know that.
I'm done with my useless rant now,
would anyone care to add to it?
Dawes. :( The world sucks at times, believe me I know. But if you're own mother is insulting you, that as got to be really tough. You should talk to someone. A family member, a Counsler, maybe even confront your mother. That's just harsh o her to say, and in sure it's not true. Everyone has problems... Well who knows why? If we all knew that we wouldn't have problems and the world would be full of lollipops and gummibears. But it does help develop character. Teaching a touch milestone helps you grow and develop who you are. You'll get through it.
I never knew so many people had the exact same problems at me. If only we all weren't scattered around the world, we could be the awesomest friends in the world!
I don't really like most of my friends, either. There are maybe two that I actually try to hang out with. Since I'm going into high school this coming year, I plan to simply.... not hang out with them. The only thing they really care about is One Direction, reality TV shows, and God knows if anything else goes through their brains. The whole group I'm in is filled with drama.
My old good friend, we'll call her Sara, totally screwed me over. I had this really awesome friend, we'll call him Tim. Me and Tim always hung out and stuff, and eventually he asked me out. I liked him a lot too, but I couldn't date him because my parents would rip my heads off. I told him that I simply couldn't go because of earlier plans, and he understood. WAY later in the year, he confronted me and told me he liked me. Of course, he had to do this in front of all my friends. I'll just say it was super-awkward. After he left, I told all my friends to swear not to tell my mom. My mom tends to hang out with Sara's mom, even though me and Sara aren't the best of friends at all. My mom was at Sara's house, whilst Sara was home. Sara proceeded to tell my mom of the entire Tim situation.
I dunno, my mom asks why I don't hang out with my friends anymore, but in High school I'm joining anime club, Breakfast Club (read books and get free breakfast in the morning) and tons of other stuff. I plan to get new awesome friends who actually share interests with me. I've kind of accepted that, so I think I've gotten all better. ^_^
I don't really like most of my friends, either. There are maybe two that I actually try to hang out with. Since I'm going into high school this coming year, I plan to simply.... not hang out with them. The only thing they really care about is One Direction, reality TV shows, and God knows if anything else goes through their brains. The whole group I'm in is filled with drama.
My old good friend, we'll call her Sara, totally screwed me over. I had this really awesome friend, we'll call him Tim. Me and Tim always hung out and stuff, and eventually he asked me out. I liked him a lot too, but I couldn't date him because my parents would rip my heads off. I told him that I simply couldn't go because of earlier plans, and he understood. WAY later in the year, he confronted me and told me he liked me. Of course, he had to do this in front of all my friends. I'll just say it was super-awkward. After he left, I told all my friends to swear not to tell my mom. My mom tends to hang out with Sara's mom, even though me and Sara aren't the best of friends at all. My mom was at Sara's house, whilst Sara was home. Sara proceeded to tell my mom of the entire Tim situation.
I dunno, my mom asks why I don't hang out with my friends anymore, but in High school I'm joining anime club, Breakfast Club (read books and get free breakfast in the morning) and tons of other stuff. I plan to get new awesome friends who actually share interests with me. I've kind of accepted that, so I think I've gotten all better. ^_^
Well that's good. :3 I used to hang out with bad kids in middle school but this past last yer of middle school I decided I really wanted to change that because they're nothing but drama. So I hang out with the "popular" crowd now and I'm much happier and there's less drama.
This isn't really a rant. It's more like an advice column add or something. I don't know. My friends tell me.. that sometimes I make perfect sense.. in things that matter the most to people. Here's a recen tthing that got a lot of praise. This comes from the poet part of my brain.Love.
That's a word everyone strugges to define. It's the word that people are afraid to commit to.
When you love someone.. you have to more than a best friend. You are their friend for life if you commit to marriage. When you love someone, you don't care if you're happy. All you want is for the other person to be happy. When you truely love... you know them inside and out.
That. That is love.
It is a very goof chapter.. but mine was just a current view.
Nowadays, I'm getting kind of tired of the current school I'm going to. Maybe it's the fact that I moved around too much before I moved 12000 miles away from home. The jokes aren't funny anymore, and I force my laugh just to pass time in class... did I mention the jokes are usually about that?
I sound immature, censoring it. But it gets old after you hear it over...
And over....
And over....
And over....
AND OVER AGAIN.
When the guy that leads the jokes was absent for a day, it was one of the best days of summer school.
It sucks when you're moving into a country from another country and everyone takes pity on you when they know that you don't need it.
Being underestimated is a ****ty feeling.
*sigh*
You ever feel just so ignored to the point where you feel invisible? If you have, you shouldn't put other's through it. Especially when they informed you five minutes ago that they have attempted suicide at least twice over the summer but have chickened out. Nothing kept them from doing it but the will to live! I mean really. Do people think it's okay to ignore people they have known for years? Even if they haven't spoken in a few months doesn't make it okay to act like they don't exist!!! (To sum it up, some people who I used to consider my really good friends are ignoring me.... AND I AM VERY UNHAPPY!!!!)
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Marisa, I haven't been in the same position for the suicide but I have been for the good friends seemingly abandoning you. One of my best friends throughout middle school suddenly stopped hanging out with me for the first 2 years of highschool. Another friend I had made left my school and didn't talk to me for 3 months. In 6th grade, my only friend made other friends and rarely talked to me. But the thing is, they came back, eventually. The sixth grade one I see every Saturday, even if we rarely hang out anymore (he is now a good friend of my brother's). The one who left my school I talk to near daily and is definitely an important person in my life. And the one I rarely see anymore is coming over tonight, we are rekindling the old friendship. Friends are people too, and they have their own lives. They become busy, but they eventually (usually) find the time for your friendship again.
Sorry..... not in good mood. Delete it for me please.. y kinde won't let me do it.
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Rudyards, thank you for the support and I'm sorry about your troubles. I've just been Irritable lately and I just needed to post that.
I pulled out my anger a little bit earlier to one of my best friends but... it didn't really work so I need to do it again..Do you knoe how much it hurts to be ignored by one or two of your fsvorite people ever? It sucks. What avout bei g ignored by them for two months and four weeks? That sucks even more. What do you do whhen you have to turn to a friend whose problems are as bad as yours? It sucks too... especially when both just start tearing up through the middle of our conversation. I can't deal with it anymore...
I see... I lost all of my friends three or four years ago. Because one guy had a crush on me.... Yup... I didn't even really know he existed! But they still killed my reputation. I have been alone for four years. ONe day my life turned upside-down.... I lost everything. My teachers sent me to therapy for a bullying problem I never had! I got slapped for no reason next year and was forced to apologize to the boy who did it. Then I made a friend. I wanted to write a story one day instead of hag out with her so she put me on trial. No one cared. Not the teachers or the other students. They just let it happen. For the next two weeks I was robbed of my lunch break by these people. The next year I made friends. Sorta.... They ignored me after my stories were no longer interesting. Then I found GR. It kept me going.... For a while at least.... Then it hit me how alone I really was. I wrote poetry and though about suicide. Last year it just got worse.... I was a joke to them all. I was the butt end of every joke. A guy asked me out... FOR HALF A SANDWICH!!! Is that all I am to them? These people that I grew up with? Half a sandwich! These people I grew up with now mean nothing to me. Well I mean nothing to them. Expect one who still hasn't moved on from three or four years ago. I don't blame him for any of this. He had no part in the destruction of my life. He was just their motive.
Marisa, have you tried talking to them? Why not just ask people why they're ignoring you? Or what you did wrong? Every person has their own reasons, and you should listen to them. You might find more about yourself than others.
I've tried. Every time I do, they either laugh or ignore me, or they try to act like like they don't. Then the next day, it starts all over again....
Do you do nothing when they treat you badly? Or do you object?
