Rant!

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My classes are easy to get to, but taking high-school courses is NOT easy. Especially Algebra, thank gods I wasn't smart enough for Geometry, that class is hard-core.

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

We're not even reading a book for comphrehension yet, but we're thinking about doing April Morning to go along with History this year.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

No complaining, I'm taking an Ap course this year, and next year I'm taking Calculus AB and BC... can I cry now?

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

Yes, yes you may. Haha same here Van, Algebra is kicking my but this year.

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

Vanster wrote: "My classes are easy to get to, but taking high-school courses is NOT easy. Especially Algebra, thank gods I wasn't smart enough for Geometry, that class is hard-core."

Oh my God. I have Geometry. -.- I do NOT want to go to high school. I have to stay at school until 4:50 and irkkkkk.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

Do you have to go to school at 6:30??? Aaaaaaahh...

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

My school starts at 8 thank gods. But we have all of our preformamces so ><

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

I don't want to go to High School anyways, and I don't have geometry. I'm not that smart haha.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

You're lucky, alg 2 trig was hard enough, though I liked Geometry- shapes are nice and stable, unlike xs and ys...

I get out of school at 2:30, so not that bad.

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

Magdalena wrote: "You're lucky, alg 2 trig was hard enough, though I liked Geometry- shapes are nice and stable, unlike xs and ys...

I get out of school at 2:30, so not that bad."

If I don't get into Algebra 2 Trig, my mom will be pretty pissed. -.-

Preformamces... >_<*

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

I'm actually good at Algebra. I get it, at least.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

:D

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

Like, he shows us something like a big fat quadratic equation with a square root sign and everything and we freak out, but easier things I understand.

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

Oh gods. Quadratic formula. -.-

Ugh. School. First performance in December, ten juries in January. Then spring performance in April, then juries in June. Lovely.

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

Fun?

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

Quadratic isn't too bad, but there're loads of formulas in trig, and my teacher had us memorize them... then my friend found them on the GRAPHING CALCULATOR!!!! RIGHT after the test, too... URGGGGh

[., Goddess of Bacon]

Kat wrote: "Iviana (The Sign Painter!) wrote: "ShayA-Hi! wrote: "I'm in Pre-AP: Algebra, LA, US History, Science AND Spanish."

You. Do. Not. Complain.
1 - Science.
2 - Grant.
Lunch.
3 - Ballet 2.
Block..."

Er.... Study Hall = Detention in my school...

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

... O.o
Well, if your grade is below a C, then you get assigned study hall... So... Yeah.

[., Goddess of Bacon]

That sucks D;

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

I don't have that problem, thank god. There's this girl who got a D on her chapter 1 test in Geometry. I was was thinking to myself, "How do you get a D on the easiest test ever?!"

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

...
This isn't gonna be my 'normal' ~insanity~ sort of post.
Quite the opposite, actually.

Yesterday, I bawled my eyes out. I don't know why, and it frustrates mr that I don't know, so I cry harder. Normally, I know why I cry... And normally, it's because of physical pain. But this time... I don't know. It just sort of happened.

Normally, when I take a shower, it calms me. Water in general calms me. But it rained yesterday, and that empty feeling that I got so many years ago came back. I love rain, but yesterday...

I'm freaked out, because I know that empty feeling. I don't want it. It scares the crap out of me.

I'm pretty sure all of you have heard about the bullying and how teens commit suicide because of it. But... What happens when the bully is yourself? Like, you verbally tell yourself that you're not good enough in order for you to get better. 'Cause I'm pretty sure that it's a bad thing to be doing that, but if I don't do it, I'm not motivated to do whatever it is I have to do.

I don't know if that's the reason behind the way I feel, but I do know that I'm not exprecting any kind of understanding. I lost hope in that when I realized that my mom gives me bullcrap and my friends also give me bullcrap. I don't want to be told "it's okay" because I know enough to know that it's not gonna be okay.

I'm scared, confused, and probably a little depressed, yet I'm gonna have to hide all this because my mom just woke up, and if she finds me crying... Well, then I'm kind of screwed. I don't to go through therapy again. That's right. Again.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

Ivi... I have that problem, too. And my sisters treat me like that. Sounds like we're in the same boat? Just now, I feel lousy, too. At least you have someone- I've heard that misery loves company. I go to therapy too. For my sisters. Who hate me. I would give you a meaningful hug but this's gotta be virtual. *hug*

[[deleted user]]

I wish I could tell that it's gonna be okay and that it was true, but like doesn't work that way. All I can do right now is try to understand, and give you a virtual hug. ~*huggles*~

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

*hug flood*

[., Goddess of Bacon]

Iviana (The Sign Painter!) wrote: "...
This isn't gonna be my 'normal' ~insanity~ sort of post.
Quite the opposite, actually.

Yesterday, I bawled my eyes out. I don't know why, and it frustrates mr that I don't know, so I cry har..."

Oh, Ivi.

It really pisses me off how people always think that depression is so 'typical' and 'expected of' in teenagers... thanks to all those morons who moan about being suicidal all the time but don't really mean it.

This post of yours really got me... >.< I did feel like that before-- try looking at the little miracles in life: a pretty fall day, a clear blue sky, the beauty of music, how freakin good KitKat Chunky Bars are...

Don't beat yourself up. You're an amazing girl, incredibly talented, mature and smart-- funny, too. You're beautiful, Ivi.

<3

~epikk lurve~

[[deleted user]]

THEY HAVE KITKAT CHUNKY BARS? WHAT CAVE HAVE I BEEN LIVING IN? Sorry, that was....That was a VanVan moment.

[., Goddess of Bacon]

xD They do in Canada!



It's my drug. And my friend Ryan always says KitKat Chunky-- as in, 'Chunky' in a Goyle/Exorcist voice. xDDDDDDDDDDD

[[deleted user]]

LOL. We don't have those. >.> Screw Virginia. We have no Red Vines either.

[Lightfeather ☼☺♥]

SAME! Ugh. WhyWHYWHY!!!

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

Thanks, guys. I'm really scared. I hate being like this. I really do. I feel like my life is pretty f*cked up right now. I practice piano and all for conservatory sh*t, but I'm not getting any better. Yesterday was te first time I've had a break down since the middle of summer.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

Vanster wrote: "LOL. We don't have those. >.> Screw Virginia. We have no Red Vines either."

VA? I LIVE there/here! AAAAAH! Wish they had both...

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

Iviana (The Sign Painter!) wrote: "Thanks, guys. I'm really scared. I hate being like this. I really do. I feel like my life is pretty f*cked up right now. I practice piano and all for conservatory sh*t, but I'm not getting any bett..."

Yeah, I hate it when people think depression is normal. It's not. But don't feel bad. Get Red Vines and eat them for me. ;)

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

I hate when people think depression is sadness, because it's not. -.-*

I'll try. I need to go FIND some...

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

JK Rowling had depression... wasn't that good? That's where she got dementors from.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

*Hufflepuff pride*

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

They suck everything out of you. It's not exactly sadness that they leave behind.

~Hufflepuff Pride~
OMWG, MAGGIEEE. I GOT MY HUFFLEPUFF TIE.

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

NOOOO why can't I be graced with such miracles?

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

XD i's sorries. >.<

[Maggie, Gaea shall smite you all.]

:P

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

^3^

[Lightfeather ☼☺♥]

Iviana (The Sign Painter!) wrote: "They suck everything out of you. It's not exactly sadness that they leave behind.

~Hufflepuff Pride~
OMWG, MAGGIEEE. I GOT MY HUFFLEPUFF TIE."

WOOT WOOT!

[[deleted user]]

I HATE SPEECH AND DEBATE!!!!

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

Sierra wrote: "I HATE SPEECH AND DEBATE!!!!"

AND I HATE A LOT OF THINGS. LIKE MY SCIENCE TEACHER. AND MY MATH TEACHER. AND HALF THE PEOPLE IN EIGTH GRADE.

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

I hate life in itself. But only after I have to run 2 miles in 20 minutes. *shudders*

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

My friend ran a mile in 6:30... @~@

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

Yuck.

[Iviana (The Sign Painter), The Goddess of indecisiveness]

AND I RAN IT IN 11:12. WTFBARBAQUESAUCE.

[[deleted user]]

Iviana (The Sign Painter!) wrote: "My friend ran a mile in 6:30... @~@"

What's wrong with that? :/
JK, I can't do that. xD My time: 9:47

[[deleted user]]

In my P.E. class you have to run 2.3 miles in 22 minutes... I hate cross country.

[Isobel *The Goddess of Annoyance*]

I run it around that time too haha. And I am not made to run fast. 11:01 is my time.