random vent

[lilly ♡ (semi-hiatus, reading slump)]

soo yesterday i wore a crop top ish it hit abt right above my hips and it wasnt tight or anything and i felt super insecure and in one of my classes (choir) my ex bsf sits behind me and i was sucking in so hard during the class that i couldn't breathe or sing and i felt horrible abt myself and then today i was meeting new ppl and this one person kept telling me i was rly pretty with no hesitation. and then also today i was talkin to my friend and she asked to see my school pictures bc we got them and i said nah i cant expose myself like that and she said she'd show me hers if i showed her mine and i said your pretty so it'll look good and she told me to have some self confidence bc i'm rlly pretty. but in the back of my mind im always like if i was actually pretty more ppl would like me/be friends w me and someone would wanna date me. and it just makes me wanna cry bc how can some people look in the mirror and be okay w themselves and i cant and i hate it.

[[deleted user]]

heyy, that step takes a long time people say I'm gorgeous and I just don't think I am.
Try complimenting yourself once a day, wake up say "my hair is pretty" yk? it'll build up that mindset.
Don't let anyone talk lowly about you, don't let anyone make you feel insecure in YOUR body, you're so pretty luv.

[ella]

i used to suck in my stomach in 4th grade bc I did have a big stomach but I was growing and I still don't have a flat stomach but that doesn't make me less "pretty". it breaks my heart that a lot of y'all are struggling with body image and y'all don't think you're beautiful. you shouldn't suck in your stomach let yourself breathe. I started noticing this year that throughout the day my stomach changes bc it fills up with food and bloating is so so normal. I used to hate my stomach but as life went on I didn't care anymore and I hope one day, lily you will learn to love yourself.

[becky]

idk who you are but i want you to know then you are one of a kind, you are beautiful in many ways, in ways others arent, and just bc you dont have ideal facial features or the perfect body or that your not the wanted gf type doesnt mean that you have to call yourself ugly. one day youll open your eyes the see the beauty in you

also, girlyyy if you need to cry, cryyyy~ let it outt, dont be like me and bottle up your tears bc your dont want ppl to know u cried abt somethin that annoyed you, love urself, and treat urself right babes, u deserve it bc you are a queen, and a queen is beautiful and i right or am i right?!

[ella]

@becky u should let yourself cry too it's a human normality.
and honestly I wouldn't care if I cried in front of people I've done it several times.

[becky]

@ella
ya ik ive been trying to remind myself that and i learned from a young age that our bodies wouldnt make tears if we werent supposed to cry