JULY PT1: Part I My Indoctrination

[Vanessa]

Read all of Part I before checking the comments, or you will be spoiled :)
LET US KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!
Is this relatable for you? eye-opening? funny? or are you learning something new?
and absolutely share anything you've highlighted/ tabbed/ quotes!!

[Vanessa]

"cult (kŭlt) n. 1. A social group defined by its unusual philosophical beliefs."

ok so us

[Vanessa]

"I’m not suicidal, but I’m also not particularly psyched. If I’ve had my first can of Diet Coke plus a nitro cold brew coffee, I get some work done. That is, I make my bed. (I didn’t make my bed today.)"

HAHA ok I'm already being read to filth by this book I feel like I wrote that line

[Vanessa]

"That is because for the past year—as a nine-to-eleven-year-old—I had been tormented by the obsession and fear that I was a violent sexual-deviant-molester-genocidal-monster disguised as a sixth grader with a lopsided dimple and a Dorothy Hamill haircut. I hadn’t slept for months."

this is something I recently started talking to my therapist about. I've had this insane thought since I can remember that everyone is going to figure out that I've done something TERRIBLE I'm convinced I've killed someone as a child or something and I'm going to get caught one day. so there's some lore if you needed to know more about me
I actually didn't realize this was an intrusive thought (along with many others I have) until I was laughing telling my therapist and she just blinked at me and let me sit with that thought

[Christina]

Just finished part 1! I’m listening to the audiobook, and the narrator is the author. It adds a sense of humor to the topics she discusses. I especially like how she’s discussing intrusive thoughts! There were definitely some “oh shit” moments when she was discussing her mental health and struggle with disordered eating.

On to part 2!

[Alyson]

“recipe for chip off the floor” following a pretty heavy chapter about intrusive thought OCD had me ROLLING

[Jess]

i’m just getting into the book and i’m not going to lie i HATE how this woman writes. it’s giving trying to hard to be a quirky girl.

that being said, her description of OCD and intrusive thoughts vs a “normal” brain had me crying at 1 am because it was the most simple explanation of OCD i’ve ever seen and made me feel so understood.

so overall looking forward to really get into this !

[Vanessa]

Ahhh I totally understand the “quirky girl” comment. I had to force myself to take it as it is the entire book because I’m the same way. This is the third book in a row for me that felt corny to read. But this one is actually so good if you can ignore it haha

[Christina]

Not the “quirky girl”! 😭 Her writing is rather all over the place, but so am I 😂😂😂

[Alyson]

i just finished part 1 and i can definitely see the try-hard-quirky-girl style. i think what she’s writing is so important and entertaining that i’m able to look past it!

[Sheena]

I’m trying really hard to like this author bc I do relate to some of her experiences. Especially the need for constant attention and reassurance from everyone else around me or otherwise they must hate me and I clearly failed them in some way. I sometimes avoid making friends so they won’t get sick of how “crazy” I am. I definitely feel her frustration and always want to yell at myself “WHY can’t you just be normalllll?!”