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[aubrey🎀]

feel free to cent about sh and other things like that. remeber to mark sensitive content with "!!!" in the beginning

[Leah]

!!! Most of this will be nondescript but I will mark when I mention a few things !!!!

I've been having a hard time resisting the urge to sh lately. I had done it a lot when I was younger (12-19) but had stopped for quite a few years. Last year my mental health took a dive and I ended up sh-ing again, a few times over a couple of months. I had been doing okay for the past few months but I can't stop thinking about it again and am having trouble focusing on other things when I'm not reading or sleeping.

I get urges to physically sh but also to just put myself into scenarios that are self destructive. These moods usually only come occasionally and I just wait them out for a day or two until they're gone. But when they stick around for more than a few days it becomes difficult to focus on anything else and not think of ways that could potentially be risky.

!!!! Risky behaviors and sh that cross my mind (and I sometimes actually do) include drinking, drugs (nothing hard), doing anything that will help me forget or stop thinking, picking at scabs, plucking hairs, seeing how far I can get before I hurt myself.

I've been doing therapy for a while now and have dealt with some trauma and depression/anxiety but it's expensive and as a university/college student I have almost no income so can't go very often.

Thanks for listening to me vent, no one that I know really knows the extent of how much this impacts my daily life and it's too difficult to confide in anyone because I'm scared of being a burden and having people worry about me.

[Bridgett]

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