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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

To what? .-.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Another picture of my beautiful girlfriend? XP

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Anything but the current picture you have of me. I hate it >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Awwww

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Can i do the fishy one? :D

[[deleted user]]

If you really want ;)

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yay...

[[deleted user]]

Hehe.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Well, um. Hey journal. Haven't written im her for awhile and just figured I should. Well, um. Hey. Haven't typed in this for about a month, I'm barely active on this site as a whole anymore... Just stuff I guess. I don't know. I hardly ever do. Well... Just been playing minecraft, yugioh, and texting Kass like I always do I guess. Nights have been alright, minimal nightmares I guess. Mostly just been worried about Kassi... I honeslty don't know why I'm writing, its actually kinda stupid. Uh, well... Listened to an audio book with Kassi today... 'Looking for Alaska' is actually pretty interesting... What else... That's kinda it... Got a few new white tees today... Got more chicken nuggets... But yeah... Later, Mr. Journal of Awkward.

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I like reading these...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Why?? XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

In* here* XD not I'm her.

[[deleted user]]

XD XD I dunno. I just do.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Well, I like reading yours too. XD just haven't in awhile.

[[deleted user]]

XD Cuz I haven't posted.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Well, still. I've read the stuff from months ago too...

[[deleted user]]

Yeah... Some of it probably didn't make things better.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

What do you mean?

[[deleted user]]

I just said depressing shit.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

But Kassi... Its alright. Really. I love you.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

[[deleted user]]

Shiv {3/22. Tell me I'm alive} wrote: "But Kassi... Its alright. Really. I love you."

And I love you.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yay...

[[deleted user]]

HI YOU'RE AWESOME BYE

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

... Thanks... You... Just helped me a lot just then. Over thinking and stuffs... Didn't really think anyone looked at my journal except me and maybe Kass....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I can hold off and be okay for six hours, right?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Music.... Picnic tomorrow with church. Ugh.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Just gonna do my best... Try and get these thoughts out of my head so I can get some sleep.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Just gonna do my best... Try and get these thoughts out of my head so I can get some sleep.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I hope Colt is okay.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Kass too...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

And just... Thoughts... Crappy internet doesn't help...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Just not trying to explode... Or get high... Or cut... Or anything like that...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Time suuuuucks....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I just don't know sometimes...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I honestly don't know if I'm helping her anymore....

[[deleted user]]

Everything okay?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yeah. I'll be alright, thanks.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Sometimes I just feel a little lonely I guess, no big deal. Really don't like the feeling of being ignored, my mind kinda just goes off leash... Trying to disract myself and it not working... Watching arrow.... One person I want to text hanging out with her friends... And yeah... That's my life...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Well... Watcha wanna chat about?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

And thanks...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

The newest one, like... 3 I think.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yeah

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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I feel like a total piece of shit right now...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I want to cut myself so much more than I have before.... Except when I did cut... I just... I don't want to cut...

[[deleted user]]

Don't do that...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I know...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yeah here we go for the hundredth time
Hand grenade pins in every line

Throw 'em up and let something shine
Going out of my fucking mind

Filthy mouth, no excuse
Find a new place to hang this noose

String me up from atop these roofs
Knot it tight so I won't get loose

Truth is you can stop and stare
Bled myself out and no one cares

Dug the trench out laid down there
With a shovel up out of reach somewhere

Yeah, someone pour it in
Make it a dirt dance floor again

Say your prayers and stomp it out
When they bring that chorus in

[Chorus]
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out

Go stop the show
Choppy words and a sloppy flow

Shotgun opera lock and load
Cock it back and then watch it go

Mama help me I've been cursed
Death is rolling in every verse

Candy paint on his brand new hearse
Can't contain him he knows he works

Fuck this hurts, I won't lie
Doesn't matter how hard I try

Half the words don't mean a thing
And I know that I won't be satisfied

So why try ignoring him?
Make it a dirt dance floor again

Say your prayers and stomp it out
When they bring that chorus in

[Chorus]
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out

I've opened up these scars
I'll make you face this

I've pulled myself so far
I'll make you face this now!

[Chorus]
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out digging deeper
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
I bleed it out
I bleed it out
I bleed it out