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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Eating cookies and cream chocolate and blasting feel good inc. xD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Sometimes, I miss being out till 2 am... The lack of rules, stress or cares...

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I'm sorry...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

For?

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You still can, you know. If you want.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I can't.

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why not?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Cuz life.

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Cuz me? Cuz I'm not a prison. Go wherever you want.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I never said you were? But ok. Sorry. Sorry for thinking about anything.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

So you can leave, whenever you want, but I can't?


Sorry for fucking up.

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Sorry...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

For?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I've missed you so much...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

The self doubt and the worries are just after effects of the nightmares that plague my head oh so often.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} wrote: "If I'm being truthful, she's the only person to make me feel like I was even sort of good enough. But then again, she saw I was a piece of shit and left. So yeah. My life. I'm a shit person and I'm..."

My life.

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Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} wrote: "The self doubt and the worries are just after effects of the nightmares that plague my head oh so often."

Baby....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Ish okey...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"Little Bird"
Ed Sheeran
If we take this bird in
With its broken leg
We could nurse it
She said
Come inside
For a little lie down with me
If you fall asleep
It wouldn’t be the worst thing

But when I wake up
Your make-up is on my shoulder
And tell me, if I lie down
Would you stay now
And let me hold you?

But if I kissed you
Will your mouth read this truth?
Darling, how I miss you
Strawberries taste how lips do
And it’s not complete yet
Mustn’t get our feet wet
'Cause that leads to regret
Diving in too soon
And I’ll owe it all to you
My little bird
My little bird

If we take a walk out
In the morning dew
We could lay down
So I’m next to you
Come inside
For a little home-made tea
If you fall asleep
Then at least you’re next to me

And if I wake up
You see, it’s late, love
Go back to sleep
I’m covered by nature
And I’m safe now
Underneath this oak tree
With you beside me

But if I kissed you
Will your mouth read this truth?
Darling, how I miss you
Strawberries taste how lips do
And it’s not complete yet
Mustn’t get our feet wet
'Cause that leads to regret
Diving in too soon
And I’ll owe it all to you
My little bird
My little bird
My little bird
My little bird

And of all these things
I’m sure of
I’m not quite certain
Of your love
And you made me scream
But then I made you cry
When I left that little bird
With its broken leg to die

But if I kissed you
Will your mouth read this truth?
Darling, how I miss you
Strawberries taste how lips do
And it’s not complete yet
Mustn’t get our feet wet
'Cause that leads to regret
Diving in too soon
But I’ll owe it all to you
My little bird
My little bird whoa oh oh
My little bird
My little bird
You’re my little bird

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future is coming on
It's coming on."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"Everyone knows how this lifestyle is dangerous
But I love it the rush is amazing
Celebrate nightly and everyone rages
I found how to cope with my anger
I'm swimming in money
Swimming in liquor my liver is muddy
But it's all good I'm still sippin' this bubbly
This shit is lovely, this shit ain't random, I didn't get lucky
Made it right here 'cause I'm sick with it Cudi
They all take the money for granted
But don't want to work for it tell me now, isn't it funny? Nah."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"Cause they will run you down, down til the dark
Yes and they will run you down, down til you fall
And they will run you down, down til you go
Yeah so you can't crawl no more."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away.
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And she's always gone too long
Anytime she goes away."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Almost trips on own feet 4 times on the way to class. Rip

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

No matter what I do, she's gonna hold camp above me, and hats okay. That's totally chill. But why should I even try then? If there's that constant fear of her leaving, again. And just... Nightmares.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Fact of the matter is, whether I like it or not, you're probably going to leave again. And I'd never forgive myself, but that's not too uncommon, now is it? I dunno. I'm not the smartest, I guess. I follow my feeling and hope and... Don't listen to rational. Let's just leave it at that.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I chose you over my mental health.


God I'm insane.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm such a dumbass...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

But I love you.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I wanna throw up.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I wanna do something right, damnit.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Damnit tears.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I don't mean to hold it against you, but that doesn't mean it doesn't go through my mind non stop.


"She said she wouldn't leave..."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

The fact hat battin is the only one who actually got me something for my birthday still kinda sucks.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I just... I don't know...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Maybe you were right, leaving, telling everyone we just weren't right for each other.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I just... Want you happy.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"And of all these things
I’m sure of
I’m not quite certain
Of your love."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

But what if I'm not enough? Just pushing those thoughts out of my mind cuz it's now or never and I'm just stressed... But I love you, and can't wait to see you...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, ooh
'Cause you left me with no love and honour to my name."

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

All I am is a fucking burden

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"Sure. It's gonna be a good weekend. Just don't ever say you love me again cuz I can't even wake up without crying at the thought of that. I've tried. And I've tried. I think I'm done trying. That's the thing. "
God I hate myself.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

She doesn't love you. Your arms are burning and your chest is tight and all you want to do is punch a wall. If she loved you it wouldn't be like this. And this summer wouldn't have hurt as much. You don't do that to someone you really love, do you? Cuz I honestly have no idea.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I don't wanna leave. Never have, never will. Sometimes I feel almost as if I might NEED to though, and I feel like a dumbass. Once is okay I guess, twice is a little much. After 15 months. I don't know anymore.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Deep breaths and sunsets.

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We'll get through it together...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Gonna go ahead and die in a hole now.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I've learned to accept that I'm a giant piece of shit.

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Hey yeah so I love you