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Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}
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Sep 20, 2016 06:31AM
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Do you think Kass would sing me to sleep tonight? .-.
Like... If I asked and stuff... Cuz haven't been sleeping too great and that always helps and yeah...
I dunno...
No?
I can't sleep...
Kinda wanna call back? >.< but rest... You need sleep. I love you. I'll be okay. Just another sleepless night...
Kass woke up right before her phone locked... That helped... Worried now but still...
Gonna start taking the bus to school cuz I can't handle the yelling anymore...
Oh god... I did it? XD
Shit my nerves crumbled.
God I'm nervous and shaking.
I should've had a freaking speech ready damnit. Alright. Wing it. But think very. Very carefully.
Breathe.... You can do this.
*hides* holy shit.
He read it. Ded. I'm ded. REKT. Rip. All of the above. I'm ded.
She is my light at the end of the tunnel.
Breathe... Try not to overthink. Relax. She's asleep. Just hold out till tomorrow morning.... Probably gonna be up all night but whatever...
Breathe.
I can't do this anymore... I'm so trash...
I think I'm going insane. Again.
I love you...
I don't know... I'm just in AP gov, trying to think but I can't... I can't focus, my mind is on you. Waiting 30 minutes because I know when you're back it'll all be okay again... Monday's mean slow days at work... Less stress... I just want you, with me, now... I don't want anyone else. I don't care who they are or how close they are. I want you. I've always wanted you...
It's not even cigarettes, anymore... I just need to hear your voice... To know that you're okay...
Holy shit man...
All I wanna do is feel like I'm fucking good enough for someone again.
I'm back to where I don't know a lot but I know that I love you.
*kisses* I love you and you are good enough....
*kisses* Darling... I'm not though... I'm not sure if I ever will be... I don't know...
Especially not to you...
I know... I remember the night where I hung up cuz you were gonna call someone else...
It was back when Rhexi and I talked... When I tried lightweight hard to get us back together. *shrugs*
Don't be...
Someone please fucking kill me because I wanna shoot myself in the head.
"We’re gonna dieIt’s just a matter of time
Hard times come
Good times go
I’m either gone in an instant
Or here 'til the bitter end
I, I never know
What I’ve got will make you feel more alive
I’ll be your favorite drug, I will get you high
I will get you high"
Tbh part of me still feels like we aren't supposed to be together. I love you. But this hurts.
And then another part of me feel like if you really loved me the day you did, I wouldn't be struggling through any of this like I am. But why did you bother coming back? I didn't even really know why you left. Why come back, why now?
*bangs head on wall*
You have no idea how bored I am. XD
The Killers Mr. Bright side
I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I never
I never
I never
I never
Sometimes I feel unwanted, and this is one of those times. It's not really anyone's fault, but I'm just gonna blast Halsey and play league till I feel like I can do something right.
She looks so perfect. XD I lightweight don't hate this song
I ain't happy, I'm feeling gladI got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
Yeah... Ha Ha!
Finally someone let me out of my cage
Now, time for me is nothing cause I'm counting no age
Now I couldn't be there
Now you shouldn't be scared
I'm good at repairs
And I'm under each snare
Intangible
Bet you didn't think so I command you to
Panoramic view
Look I'll make it all manageable
Pick and choose
Sit and lose
All you different crews
Chicks and dudes
Who you think is really kickin' tunes?
Picture you gettin' down in a picture tube
Like you lit the fuse
You think it's fictional?
Mystical? Maybe.
Spiritual
Hero who appears in you to clear your view when you're too crazy
Lifeless
To those the definition for what life is
Priceless
To you because I put you on the high shit
You like it?
Gun smokin' righteous with one toke
You're psychic among those
Possess you with one go
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future (that's right) is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
The essence the basics
Without did you make it
Allow me to make this
Child-like in nature
Rhythm
You have it or you don't that's a fallacy
I'm in them
Every sprouting tree
Every child of peace
Every cloud and sea
You see with your eyes
I see destruction and demise (that's right)
Corruption in disguise
From this fuckin' enterprise
Now I'm sucked into your lies
Through Russel, not his muscles but percussion he provides
For me as a guide
Y'all can see me now 'cause you don't see with your eye
You perceive with your mind
That's the inner
So I'mma stick around with Russ and be a mentor
Bust a few rhymes so motherfuckers remember where the thought is
I brought all this
So you can survive when law is lawless (right here)
Feelings, sensations that you thought was dead
No squealing, remember that it's all in your head
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future
