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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Call the doc, I must be sick, better get me my medicine cuz it's five o clock on the phone again, think I'm gonna need another perscriptionnnnn

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

THIS SONG. YES

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BREAKING MY BACK JUST TO KNOW YOUR NAME

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Forget everything and I'm starting with you. <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I think I might miss you. Monica still hasn't replied. Kendra hates me. Battin is... I just can't anymore.... I don't wanna. Dueling is great though!

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Sometimes... I really love life, and the new friends I've made. I can do this. Confidence. I'm asking Monica out tomorrow.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm done, bouncing around, from girl to girl. I've made my decision. And I'm sticking with it. Because she's worth the risk. I just hope this doesn't mess up our friendship. Because I really love having her as a friend again....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Just gonna think of things to say...


Dear Monica,

I'm not the best, I'm not perfect. I can't promise you that I won't get jealous, or feel bad at the worst possible moments in time, or have those nights where all I need is to be reminded that I'm not a total fuck up. I can't. But I can promise you that I'm ready to give it my all again. I'll hold you, if it'll make you feel better. I'll talk with you, through the night, just to help get things off your mind. I can promise you that I'll be there when you need me. Just like when you woke me up and you had a nightmare about your dogs. Or when you had family stuff going on. I can promise you that when you need me, whether I need to take a plane, a train, a car, or walk, hell, even if I needed to bus to get to you, I'd make it as fast as I could. At night, there are times where I really miss you. When I'm working, pepperoning all day, there are texts that just run through my head and make me jump up a few times. You make me smile again. You helped me sleep, the night you stayed up with me... I might not be much, but I'll be as good as I can be. You might not see it, but you're worth the world. I've gotten a new appreciation for everything again, and just... Time is short. And this is how I'm choosing to spend it. Even if you don't wanna date, you're still an amazing friend, and I sincerely hope this doesn't change anything for the worst.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm gonna do my best to make this not sexual, especially if that isn't for us. It was never about sex. I just wanted you for you. And I'm not making that mistake even sort of ever again. It's not worth losing you....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I think I freaking love you again and that's terrifying...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Asking her out today. Confidence. Confidence. Gotta remember.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I left my work clothes at home??? O.o

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

My confidence is all gone. >.< >.< >.< >.< >.< >.< >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Breathhheeeee. Alright. Think. Means I have no time after school, but I feel like that would be the best time to do it? HALP. XD I COULD DO IT AT LUNCH BUT THATS WHEN IM SUPER NERVOUS

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Why did I have to forget my clothesssssss. >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I swear I can't not fuck up. .-.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Halllppp. Freaking shaking.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Nerves.... Shhhhhhhh. >.< void isn't helping. XD come on nowwwww

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Debating how to slyly pull her away from volleyball to ask her out without raising suspicion? XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When you still haven't and are hardcore stalling.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Niagra falls, the Eiffel Tower, the Taj Mahal, hell, THE FREAKING PRYAMIDS. So many lakes, mountains, things to see. The only thing, I need someone to accompany me? :D

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Let's travel. <3 the world.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

She just kiked back? But I still miss you?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Slowly slides off yugioh bracelet and clasps the other on instead. If anything. Stay teathered. To something. Monica and I, we just agreed that not right now. Maybe later, not now.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Rubs it gently... Hey there, old friend... Just... Sh.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*pokes heart* just stop being so confuzzling, okie? I'll abstain from everything.... But just... Figure yourself out.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

So. I won't deny that my chest is heavy, and my arms are burning, my head is bounding, my stomach growling. Bad taste in my mouth, and everything else. But I'm just gonna sit here, watch psych, read Harry Potter, and try to pretend I'm a Broekheart.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Don't wanna get drunk, just really love this song... It fits.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I wanna be drunk when I wake up
On the right side of the wrong bed
And never an excuse I made up
Tell you the truth I hate
What didn't kill me,
It never made me stronger at all
Love will scar your make up
Lips sticks to me, so now I maybe lean back there
I'm sat here wishing I was sober
I know I'll never hold you like I used to

But a house gets cold when you cut the heating
Without you to hold I'll be freezing
Can't rely on my heart to beat in
'Cause you take parts of it every evening
Take words out of my mouth just from breathing
Replace with phrases like 'when you leaving me? '

Should I? Should I?
Maybe I'll get drunk again
I'll be drunk again, I'll be drunk again
To feel a little love

I wanna hold your heart in both hands
Not watch it fizzle at the bottom of a Coke can
And I got no plans for the weekend, so should we speak then?
Keep it between friends
Though I know you'll never love me like you used to

There maybe other people like us
Who see the flicker of a clipper when they light up
Flames just create us but burns don't heal like before
And you don't hold me anymore

On cold days cold plays out like the band's name
I know I can't heal things with a handshake
You know I can change, as I began saying
You cut me wide open like landscape
Open bottles of beer but never champagne
To applaud you with the sound that my hands make

Should I? Should I?
Maybe I'll get drunk again
I'll be drunk again, I'll be drunk again
To feel a little love

All by myself, I'm here again
All by myself, you know I'll never change
All by myself
All by myself

I'm just drunk again
I'll be drunk again
I'll be drunk again
To feel a little love

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Crying.... Haven't in awhile.... In too long...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*squeezes blanket* I need... A hug.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I just.... I really need to figure stuff out... Again...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When you can't stop crying...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I was okay... I was doing well... I wanna cut so bad...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Please don't.... Fuck man.... And I can't really tell anyone but Monica what happened tonight everyone else is gonna judge me and look at me weird and stop talking to me and... Damnit shiv...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I have enough... Right now. In my bank. To just... Go. Get on a plane and be back by tomorrow morning. I don't even have work.... I fucking could. I could. I can freaking reach out and touch my passport and be out.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I wanna say don't give in but damnit when you're the only one convincing yourself it's really hard...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I liked it when he ran.... I loved it.... I'm fucking sadistic

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm a bit more insane then I let on....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I can't not talk to myself.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

The shadows are terrifying.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Shyanne called...: helped a lot..:

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

>.< okay... I can think straight ish now...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Regionals. 9/10. I could run. I could throw away 3-4 months of work... Just for one day.... Just one... Fuck man... My team is depending on me.... But... I could...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Fuck it. Fuck everything.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I wanna do it so bad...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

One deck. Yang zings. This paycheck. I could be so out....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Never actually deleted the Amtrak app.... Or the flight one.... Tripadvisor, apparently.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Feeling... Lost again... Alone now.... I'm cold.... Really cold.... It's so dark... *holds super tight*

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Crying again...