Nightfall's Records Of Recollection Showing 1,351-1,400 of 2,012

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Going home is gonna be so fucking hard...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm not gonna ever be able to hold honey again...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I don't wanna get a hair cut... Literally the only thing I'm doing Kay with nowadays. >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I think I've had my fun being single.... I'll ask her out the day school starts.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

This house seems even more lonely now.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I prefer functioning, alcoholic.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Found enough sleeves for two decks.... Tonight is gonna be fun.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

so... Still trying to settle down again... I'm a piece of shit, and not even sort of worth it, but I'm gonna try.... One... Last... Time.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"She Is."
The Fray
Do not get me wrong I cannot wait for you to come home
For now you're not here and I'm not there, it's like we're on our own
To figure it out, consider how to find a place to stand
Instead of walking away and instead of nowhere to land

This is going to break me clean in two
This is going to bring me close to you

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around
When it falls in place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

This is going to bring me clarity
This'll take the heart right out of me

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

This is going to bring me to my knees
I just want to hold you close to me

[x2]
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

She is everything
(I needed)
She is everything

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

My senior year depends on if makeshift ZombieSworn can beat this new Dragon deck. And then if Yang Zing will overcome it all.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Might go to a friends church... Catholic, but yeah....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Truth is, I'm not a total fan of the life I've been living. It's fun, and it's slightly exciting, unexpected. But, it's empty. The next day nothing has really changed. If I smoke a cig, haven't in a month but still, it feels better for a little. It calms me down so I don't wanna die every single moment of every day. Now, I'm getting clean from stuff, and it's just... Ugh. I miss my old life, ya know? But I'll get through. I'm getting clean and settling down, just like before. Just a little more trust issues and a teeny bit broken. But more independent, I guess. Cuz that might have been my problem. I read through a few messages I'd found. I can't depend on people like I did.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I think getting worse actually helped a lot... Part of me forgot how other people felt, needing help and getting worse. I've been able to help Shyanne, and Monica with problems I never used to have. One being smoking and heartache, and the other being... Very similar heartache. I get it now.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Monica says I should be selfish for awhile, focus on myself, and not worry about everyone else. And that sounds great and all, but I can't. I just can't. I honestly don't know how. It's not who I am.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*tries to be selfish* *heart twangs* *gives up* I can't do it. >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

That honestly might be what kills me...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yeah I'm really tired of being lonely.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

So... Might be slightly addicted to monster, or just tired.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Cards and music. <3 deck building.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

ZombieSworn Sleeved. <3 orange, but finally in sleeves

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Need a freaking Crystal wing.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*shivers from cold* I'm good, I swear.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Think I'm colder cuz hair cut. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I passed out on the desktop yesterday. >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Gawd my room is a mess

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Two Starbucks cups, WENDYS and Burger King trash, wing stop, and fucking empty monster cans everywhere. XD and in and out. And cards.... Lots of cards. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Rip breakfast. Going to DMV to take permit test. I'd say wish me luck but I have no friends. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yeaaahhhh. Can't stop shaking. Not sure if cold, lack of sleep or something else. Shaking really bad. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Try and live at least another ten years. >.< but that's a freaking long time. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

#backtonoregrets

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I need sleep. >.< *drinks monster* I'm gooooood

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*bangs head on wall* I don't want monster rn oddly enough. Sleep sounds... Good.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I don't wanna get up. ;-; tourney today. Let's fucking do this shit.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Not doing dmv cuz can't find the paper. XD going to a tourney todaaayyyyyyy

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

No tourney.... Just hung with Gio and Ron instead. >.< I don't wanna be 17.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*is back to being super pathetic and alone cuz I stopped flirting with people cuz yeah* *cards* *school* *job* *is alone* *responsibilities* *senior year* *no drugs*

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

no one talks to me anymore....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Oh shit. She asked how I was.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

She's asking more questions. O.O

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm winning regionals.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I really wanna be apart of your life. Whether dating or not, you're just a really good friend to have, ya know? Not sure if I'd want to date Monica... Like... Boyfriend and girlfriend. But I still want her as my friend... Cuz this is gonna sound really dumb but she asks how I'm doing and stuff.... And she helps...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Talking to amazing people at one am. <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*thrashes around in bed* three hour shift in less than three hours. I don't wanna. >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I put people to sleep last night. XD <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Sour ring pops. <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I kinda wanna hold you? O.o

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"Feel Again"
One Republic
I've been everywhere and back trying to replace
Everything that I had 'til my feet went numb
Praying like a fool that's been on the run

Heart's still beating but it's not working
It's like a million dollar phone that you just can't ring
I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing
Yeah, my heart is numb

But with you
I feel again
Yeah, with you
I can feel again

Yeah

Woo-hoo [x4]

I'm feeling better ever since you know me
I was a lonely soul but that's the old me

It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face
I've been everywhere and back trying to replace
Everything that I broke 'til my feet went numb
[Album version:] Praying like a fool just shot the gun
[Radio version:] Praying like a fool just shy of a gun

Heart still beating but it's not working
It's like a hundred thousand voices that just can't sing
I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing
Oh, my heart is numb

But with you
I feel again
Yeah, with you
I can feel again

But with you
(I'm feeling better ever since you know me)
I feel again
(I was a lonely soul but that's the old me)
Yeah, with you
(I'm feeling better ever since you know me)
I can feel again
(I was a lonely soul)

Woo-hoo [x5]

(I'm feeling better ever since you know me)
(I was a lonely soul, but that's the old me)
(I'm feeling better ever since you know me)
(I was a lonely soul, but that's the old me)
(I'm feeling better ever since you know me)
(I was a lonely soul, but that's the old me)

I'm feeling better ever since you know me
I was a lonely soul but that's the old me
A little wiser now from what you've shown me
Yeah, I feel again
Feel again...

Woo-hoo

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When your family says you can't do shit. But you're on your way to work eight hours? XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*bangs head on wall* workkkkk. I look really good though? XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Just got off work. <3 gonna do chores for a little then cards with friends. :) on the off side, Monica's addict brother is in prison again. >.<