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I'm so shit at this game. >.<

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League makes me feel like shit and I'm only gonna get worse but it's keeping me from cutting tonight so fuck everything.

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I'm such a piece of shit...

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I wanna crawl in a fucking hole and die.

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Today is probably one of the worst days of my life and I'm not even exaggerating.

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I haven't fucking slept in two days.

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I wanna just...

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I'm so shit at everything...

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I'm not in the mood to life anymore.

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I'm trying so hard... Still not enough... For anyone.... I'm just a disappointment.

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They're in my drawer... Not even 5 feet away...

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ThomasRK wrote: "we all been there. you are loved"

Thanks I guess.

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Really wanna just take some Xanax or something and call it good... Pills... No. Not doing that again.

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I can't sleep when I'm alone.

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Miki and battin both know things they weren't supposed to know. Thanks Mason.

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Everyone gets tired of me. It might not be today, or tomorrow. But you will. Because you're just like everyone else.

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Don't trust a perfect person, and don't trust a song that's flawless

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Save your heart, for someone that's worth dying foooorrrrr. <3

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This time next week I'll be in school.... I think I need to drop a few classes...

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We flirt, it feels great. I'm happy again. Then I get up the next morning and it's all gone.

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I feel so freaking empty.

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Put your hand on my heart, and you can feel it beating. Look into my eyes, you can see... Brown.

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I'm sorry.... I'd apologize a million times if it would bring you back? Would I though?

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Work soon.... Duel after. Hopefully Monica will come with me to get pizza? She's chill with me being a mega nerd but I just need a friend... That doesn't duel, or talk behind my a

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MY UBER DRIVER IS LISTENING TO RAY CHARLES I LOVE LIFE. XD

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*goes on date one day, next day wakes up* she's really pretty... But fuck. What drugs was I on???

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So, not sure if I can keep dating? Like its fun, but in the end I don't feel okay?

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When Sabrina says you were great. >.<

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So... Um. I found Olympus' Battle and started reading it again?? It's actually really well written...

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And now reading the new Harry Potter... And remembering an old rp I could never really get into.

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Trying really hard to stay sober.... But then again really trying not to go insane.... The lack of sleep... It... Does things to your head after awhile.... Everything is back the way it used to be... I've been clean from drugs and cutting for about... Four weeks, maybe? And alcohol... Almost two years. I refuse to break that one. No matter how tempting shit gets. I refuse. I also refuse to have any sort of sexual interaction try stuffs till marriage. Not even like... Nudes or anything. Not touching and stuff... Just... No. Unless you're 10000000% sure you're staying with me forever, then nothing is happening between us.

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"There's a hole... In my soul, I can't fill it, I can't fill it.... There's a hole, is my soul, can you fill it, can you fill it?"

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*offers hot chocolate, my blanket and a spot here to sit with me* I'm... Night. Nice to meet you.

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At the end of the day, respect yourself.

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Cards...

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And she's asleep.... So much for that.

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Sleep? I don't think I'm tired yet...

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OH MY GOD THERES SOMETHING UP WITH HONEY

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My cat just died...

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I've had him since... I can remember... Middle school.... I'm just... Crying...

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No... Before that...

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My stomach hurts... A lot...

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This.... Just got a lot fucking harder...

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He was in pain and he was seizing and...

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I want my cat back...

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I loved my honey kitty...

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Gonna try and sleep...

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Honey is really gone... I've had him longer than any of my friends...

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March 22nd, 2013. MCR broke up. Rip.

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Snape died earlier this year. >.<