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Attempts to plan birthday party somewhere cuz haven't really every celebrated birthday. XD 4 things not to bring. Alcohol, drugs, cards and cigs. All I can think of is pizza, nerf guns, board games and Pokemon. I'm such a fucking child. XD oh. And getting off GR. Good bye guys.

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Blame James for bringing me back on. XD

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Jamie come back. >.< xD

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I know it's the dumbest thing ever, but last message she sent was: "Hopefully. I'm gonna go for a run. Talk to you later?" and the fact that she wrote it out, and had the actual intention of talking to me later makes me feel good.

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We might go on a run sometime too!!!

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I'm freaking trilingual. Oh shit bitches. I wanna learn either Japanese, Latin, or French next.

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So um. I seriously cringe when people call me Shivvy nowadays. Jayson did at work, but he was smiling and it was a good day, so I like let it pass but. >.<

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So, let's learn how to be single. Together, right? Lolz.

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So going to hell for this. Fuck my life. XD

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Albert, a new dueling friend, offered to buy me alcohol. Declined, but no lie hella tempted. XD

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For the party, I mean lol

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He lives just a city over, meeting up with him next weeeeekkkkk

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Monica is.... So I dunno. XD I haven't wanted to cut... Just... Other things.

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Tbh too lazy to change a lot of my passwords. XD

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When you have had a hard time getting up to do laundry for work all week, and then get it ready in 20 min and throw it in and everything for a date on your day off. XD RIP me.

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It feels really good... But it's so bad and half of me feels guilty? XD but I'm amazing, so it's okay. :) waiting for her to wake up to ask. XD Fuccckkkk duuuudddeeeee

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*debates on giving her my favorite card?* o.o don't lose it. Don't throw it away. Hell, you can slide it in a book and forget about it. But don't lose void ogre. Got it?

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Fuck wait up. Time out.

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Am I nervous?? What the fuck xD

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ARE FLOWERS TOO KUCH.

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FUCCCCKKKKK

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She needs to wake up. XD

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I keep having these random spikes of good and bad? >.<

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Oh shit... I've been like this awhile, haven't I? Depressed, and insecure, I mean. I just found crew shots of messages from years ago.... I asked Monica for a warning, too. Like, if/when she found someone better. Cuz I... Yeah.

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Rawr will never be more than just a sound, and Starbucks will never be more than just a coffee shop and a place to spend my breaks. And that's okay. :)

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*sways and dances when your favorite song comes on in grocery outlet*

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Alberts girlfriend lends him money for cards. XD tbh slightly jelly.

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So... Battin sent me a pic pretty much asking 'how do I look?' and I'm just like... Okay? XD

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Re-stocked my monster stash, and if I need cigs or anything, which I probably won't, Albert has me, so it's chill

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MY FAVORITE SONG IS ON AGAIN. XD

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You're gonna lose a few friends, welcome to life.

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"Aye yo, never let go of me."

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Hold tight, it's gonna get hard to breathe.

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All I really want is someone that isn't so temporary?? But right now I think temporary is what I need?? XD

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Legit, half the people I'm talking to are just gonna end up another heart break and I'm just like, fuck it?? XD

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Ewwww. I smell like sweat, lack of sleep and monster. Which isn't far off, but I mean, I need to shower bad. XD

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Funny, talk to a girls parents fluent in their native language and they swoon Lolololol.

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So... I found my fake ID and my friend knows how to update the pic no prob and I actually look 18 now and Iris just invited me to a strip club? O.o

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Teach me how to feel real again, please? Maybe? I wanna fall in love with you, I do. I just don't remember how?

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Really tired of temporary, but that's all I crave?

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When you pretty much mutually agree to go out, casually. You're hung on him, I'm hung on her, let's get over them together? #FuckAwayThePain

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Skin, bones, and muscle.

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Rip I wanna cut kinda bad.

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Shyanne came to me for advice on how to be happy with your body and improve?? Um?? We can workout together, and diet, but that's like it? Cuz I'm not super comfortable in my own skin sometimes.

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Remembering how even after 8 months trust only got worse.

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When you weighed more in 8th grade than you do now. :/

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Two weeks ago, when was at Tony's, he had his revolver out, nothing in it.... So I held it in my hands, and spun around the chamber, and slid a bullet in... Just... Observing, of course, right?

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So, um. I was on my insta, and found the pictures of the dream catcher bracelets and the best friend thing and wondering if that was all BS???

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Do you think she left because of my weight? Or my scars? Or anything?

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*stands in own two feet, by myself, life pushes me down again, lays there, debating if I wanna get up*