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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Just got home from work... It's exhausting, but not too much and a lot better than being at home where I can think. When I'm not working, I'm dueling, when I'm not dueling, I'm smoking, when I'm not smoking, either writing, wishing I was, or wanting to be dead. It's not like I need therapy or anything. Just tired of things that don't last. Sleep doesn't last, either. Last night I had a creepy nightmare about a place I used to go to when I was younger. Some tiny figurine backed up and said some reaaallllyyy creepy stuff. But it's alright. Sometimes Monica stays up with me a little while, at least.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Work today was literally me making a shizz ton of pizza, especially pepperoni, while singing Bacon, By Nick Jonas.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Too lazy to put pants back on so I'm just gonna play my 3ds and lay in bed.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Put my hand in the flame of a flickering lighter again and again I was lucky just to find her... >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Forget perfect, I'm just trying not to feel worthless.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Up again.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

And up again.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

My life is pretty much me holding on tight to a twenty one pilots song and hoping it works. School is in two weeks... Almost. If I can stay sane and clean till then, it'll get better. Halfway there... Work tomorrow 5-8. Seems legit.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Just don't cut...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When your demons are right for once, it starts making you debate if they've ever been wrong.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

My life is pretty much just a whole lot of numbers.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Work is 12 hours. XD watching flash and eating cereal at 5 am. Lolz

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm really cold. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Mayday! Mayday!
The ship is slowly sinking
They think I'm crazy but they don't know the feeling
They're all around me,
Circling like vultures
They wanna break me and wash away my colors
Wash away my colors

Take me high and I'll sing
Oh you make everything okay, okay, okay
'Kay, Okay, Okay
We are one in the same
Oh you take all of the pain away, away, away
'Way, away, away
Save me if I become
My demons

I cannot stop this sickness taking over
It takes control and drags me into nowhere
I need your help, I can't fight this forever
I know you're watching,
I can feel you out there

Take me high and I'll sing
Oh you make everything okay, okay, okay
'Kay, Okay, Okay
We are one in the same
Oh you take all of the pain away, away, away
'Way, away, away
Save me if I become
My demons

Take me over the walls below
Fly forever
Don't let me go
I need a savior to heal my pain
When I become my worst enemy
The enemy

Take me high and I'll sing
Oh you make everything okay
We are one in the same
Oh you take all of the pain away

Take me high and I'll sing
Oh you make everything okay, okay, okay
'Kay, Okay, Okay
We are one in the same
Oh you take all of the pain away, away, away
'Way, away, away
Save me if I become
My demons

Take me high and I'll sing
Oh you make everything okay, okay, okay
'Kay, Okay, Okay
We are one in the same
Oh you take all of the pain away, away, away
'Way, away, away
Save me if I become
My demons

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

5 am is my favorite time of day so I'm pretty happy rn.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I kinda like being cold. Is that weird? XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Collllddddddddddddd. At least I don't feel as lonely. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I know I've already finished this season, but I still get surprised when Dr. Wells stands up. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Waiting for Kendra to get back from camp so I have someone to remind me I'm not a total piece of shit. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

so... How bout dem senior strats.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Slip out the back before they know you were there, and at the worst you'll see nobody cares...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Still don't know my classes, still haven't gotten senior pics done, but I have a job, and my birthday is soon, so I'll be alright. Gonna make my max rarity ZombieSworn deck first... I miss it a bit. And they deserve this much at least.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Back at the point where I can only eat cereal. We have like 2-3 gallons of milk in the fridge because of me. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Make that 1 now, just finished the other. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Writing out deck lists cuz my mind is a machine.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Speaking of machines. Bought a cyber dragon deck for around 100 cuz I felt like it. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

How the fuck does a dusclops evolve??

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I dread going to work, and yet I dread coming back home. My life

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Might try out for this years talent show... Yeah... I think I will. I'll head the yugioh club, and a like... Chill group for anyone who needs help, and a few others, and I'll get my work done, and I'll do all of my AP tests. And I'll work, and I'll duel. Regionals this October, debating on 1 of 4 decks. It'll be alright. Like... I'm okay with smoking, it's not even that bad it's like whatever. Do what you need to to relax and not die pretty much.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

It's your fault shiv, don't know why you're still being a little bitch about it.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Shyanne's high. >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Cuz, when a heart breaks no it don't break even, no

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Gonna try opening up... Just a little...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I live once again, in the night. :P

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I had a really good dream... Gonna write it down... <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

How do I write this down? .-.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Done. <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Don't remember how to put pictures. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

This is probably one of my favorite/best writings of mine so far. It makes you feel something. Hope. Warmth. Happiness. Good things.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

If I were to get published it would be this one. Definitely.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm cold as shit but I feel warrrrmmmm. Got a milkshake and a burger and I'm happy.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Scratch that. No milkshake. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Debating on trying to get published even though I'm a total shit author. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

3 am friends. <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Forgot how fun she was to talk to when she wasn't being creepy. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

And then she asks to see your story and you're like naaaaahhhhh

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

For about a month now I've really wanted to become an author.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Ouch... I could either make two stories, or have this one be a dream and the other, less fun/ more lonely one be the reality, with smoking and everything. XD