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[jay, rip]

Shiv {Take my hand, through the flames} wrote: "My mind is pretty much a relay of 'Just one more cig. Just one more sip. Just one more cut. Just one more kiss. Just one night. Just one more time.'"

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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Yeah... Last night was a teeny bit rough.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

EVERYONE. CHUCK. SEASON 2 EPISODE 22 IS LITERALLY MY LIFE. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I don't feel at home in my own skin anymore, except when I'm smoking. The warmth keeps me tethered to what's real and not, black and white. Just everything. Home is no longer where the heart is cuz my heart is lost. I could go on but don't feel the need.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Why am I so shit at life??

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Fruity Dino bites and late nights... Fuck dude. I'm back.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

At this point I barely remember you telling me you love me. All I remember are the stupid fights... Literally all of them. Bashing my brain in one extended battle of control.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

So many fights... So many times I've been compared to others... I'm just not enough I guess...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm so shit at league. XD oh my god why I am so bad again?? Lolz

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

My life is officially over.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I really don't wanna deal with my family cuz they act like they're proud and shit but without my music these walls seem pretty fucking thin.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When you honesty just can't even. So tired of all this crap...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Fak. And now I'm in that mood again xD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When she wakes you up cuz she can't sleep without music. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I is so tired. XD I enjoy when I'm woken up in the middle of the night by people needing me. Is that weird? XD and tomorrow ugh. Little Caesars. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

And now I don't wanna sleep. XD damnit

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

EVERY SINGLE MOTHER CLUCKING TIME IM ABOUT TO PASS OUT HOW BAD IS YOUR TIMING

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

To do list. XD :
Finish eating
Shower
League
Yugioh
Maybe more league
Eat
Shower
Shave? I already did a few days ago lol
Get dressed
Bus to work.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

OH MY GOD BUTTERBEAN GOT FERN THE CUTEST THING FOR THEIR 1.5 YEARS TOGETHER OH SHIT. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

School starts August 22nd. Not totally sure if ready or not.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Wait... She got that for him. XD still super adorable

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

So... I don't exactly know why but I don't wanna celebrate my birthday this year? Like at all? Maybe hang out but nothing special or anything... I just... I dunno

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Watching flash again.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Dude... Chucks love advice in here is... Tempting, to say the least. XD maybe... I dunno... No... Yes... Maybe... Back to maybe... Hold your legs steady so you don't run out... You have a job to go to...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

AND THEN IT COMPLETELY FUCKING CONTRADICTS ITSELF MAKE UP YOUR MIND

[Zombieslayer⚡Alienhunter]

Shiv {Take my hand, through the flames} wrote: "So... I don't exactly know why but I don't wanna celebrate my birthday this year? Like at all? Maybe hang out but nothing special or anything... I just... I dunno"

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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

PH MY GOD ITS CROWLEY AGAIN. XD I LOVE THIS GUY

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Hey Z!

[Zombieslayer⚡Alienhunter]

Shiv {Take my hand, through the flames} wrote: "Hey Z!"

Hola XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Look what you did. Now they're both dead cuz you couldn't choose.


What's up? XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

This show makes me feel like shit. XD WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL WATCHING.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

He did it. O.O

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Why did it have to be March 22nd that chicks girlfriend and Shaw went off the grid. XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

All I Want ~ Kodaline

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

What if... I'm not Barry, and I'm Eddie, and I end up dead, and without the girl I thought I loved? Shit. O.O oh god overthinking sucks a lot... This hurts again... >.<

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When your sister is going through your room and it's a mess, and you kinda sorta have a lighter and cigs in there that you can't find? XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I have work today and I'm over thinking and I can't sleep...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Went to work... From 2-6, not too long but I'm tired. Didn't go to movies with shyanne and friends as planned cuz too tired. Apparently my birthday is coming up. Bought the new Harry Potter book.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*shivers* The cursed child, Pokemon, Starbucks, and music.... I'm lonely but I don't mind this time...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Cyndaquil. <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Can't sleep again...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

So... My insomnia is back but I'm hungry again? And when I do sleep, still more weird dreams and nightmares.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I don't wanna be alive anymore...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Work is fun, I'm getting paid and distracted and it's working. It's chill. But then I get back home... And Pokemon and yugioh aren't as big of distractions as they used to be. Now they're kinda sorta reminders, but pretending not to be. Worked another few hours, wasn't bad.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

It's gotten to the point where I have to debate on whether I should start smoking weed more often just to fall asleep like I had before. This is so shit. What the fuck. And literally no one seems to want to talk to me except Katherine, oddly enough. Kendra is at a firmness cabin, and that's chill and stuff but we're awkward. Battin is still just weird. Julia and I stopped talking, Fern is doing her own stuff. But I don't have anyone staying up with me at 1 am just taking about everything and anything anymore, like I used to. I don't even know why I still try to sleep, when I know it won't come, or it'll be more nightmares.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Woke up... Had about half an hour.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I wanna cut kinda really bad...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I can't even write without my notebook...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

This is the memory... This is the curse of having, too much time to, think about it..,

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

MayDay Parade
"Hold Onto Me
and it starts with me
She saw something inside that I can't see
And late at night, yeah she'll comfort me
Hold onto me, hold onto me

I got a nervous habit and I drink too much
She said she hates her life and wants to change her ways
She wakes in the night and whispers
Oh so quiet

Hold onto me, hold onto me
Don't you ever leave, Don't you ever leave
I know I've got my problems and it's probably me
So hold onto me, hold onto me

Stayed up too late and it hurts to breathe
Said it's 4 A.M., girl go back to sleep
Sometimes at night I can hear her dreams

Come rescue me, Come rescue me
Don't you ever leave, Don't you ever leave
I know we got our problems and it's probably me
So hold onto me, hold onto me

I'm a drifter's body in an open sea
And I've seen my reflection staring right back at me
With no place to go and you're left all alone
There's no place like home

Hold onto me, hold onto me
Just stay with me, Just stay with me
I know we got our problems and you'll probably leave
So hold onto me, hold onto me

I could never leave, I will never leave
So hold onto me, hold on to me