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[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Being single puts a really bad taste in your mouth. XD or maybe I need to brush my teeth lol. Or both. XD

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Still can't eat normally... Mainly just breakfast...

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The Script
"Six Degrees of Separation"


You've read the books
You've watched the shows
What's the best way no one knows, ye
Meditate, get hypnotized
Anything to take it from your mind
But it won't go, ohhhh ohhh
You're doing all these things out of desperation
Ohhh ohhh
You're going through six degrees of separation

You hit the drink, you take a toke
Watch the past go up in smoke, ye
Fake a smile, yeah, lie and say that
You're better now than ever, and your life's okay
Well it's not, no
You're doing all these things out of desperation
Ohhh ohhh
You're going through six degrees of separation

First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What's gonna kill you is the second part
And the third is when your world splits down the middle
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth, you see them out with someone else
And the sixth is when you admit you may have fucked up a little

(Oh no there ain't no help, it's every man for himself)
(No no there ain't no help, it's every man for himself)

You tell your friends, yeah, strangers too
Anyone who'll throw an arm around you, yeah
Tarot cards, gems and stones
Believing all that shit's gonna heal your soul
Well it's not, no

You're only doing things out of desperation
Ohhh no
You're goin' through six degrees of separation

First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What's gonna kill you is the second part
And the third, is when your world splits down the middle
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth, you see them out with someone else
And the sixth is when you admit you may have fucked up a little

No there's no starting over
Without finding closure
You'd take them back, no hesitation
That's when you know you've reached the sixth degree of separation

Oh, no there's no starting over
Without finding closure
You'd take them back, no hesitation
That's when you know you've reached the sixth degree of separation

First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What's gonna kill you is the second part
And the third, is when your world splits down the middle
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth, you see them out with someone else
And the sixth is when you admit you may have fucked up a little

No, no, there ain't no help
It's every man for himself
You're goin' through six degrees of separation

No, no, there ain't no help
It's every man for himself
You're goin' through six degrees of separation

[x3: fading]
No, no, there ain't no help
It's every man for himself

You're goin' through six degrees of separation

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Admiring that I might have fucked up a little... Except a lot. Not even that it's just smiling and telling everyone I'm alright and getting help and shizz. Like... I'm okay. I'm not in that stuff but the feeling hasn't changed... I still feel like shit. Therapy didn't really help that, honestly. It just helped with the loneliness. I'm not as strong as everybody else.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm a dunsparce. Cuz no one likes dunsparce and he's only kept around for the pokedex space. So I'm a dunsparce. Cuz once you catch him you really never wanna deal with him ever again and forget you have him. So I'm a dunsparce.

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ai ni iro wa nakute
MONOKURO fukinukeru
itami goto kimi yudanemashou

The monochrome blows
Through our colorless encounter.
I shall entrust each of my pains to you

kizu ato tsuyoku nazoru
yousha nai aki ga kite
suzushii yubi temaneku mama ni

The unforgiving autumn,
Which forcefully traces my scars, comes
While your cool fingers still beckon me

toketa ato no yakkai na koori mitai na watashi wo
yasashiku sukutte
uwakuchibiru de asobu

After I'd melted, you tenderly save
The troublesome, icy me
And toy around with me with a kiss

sore demo hitotsu no ai no katachi wo sagasu
tooku yori mo ima wo musunda kareta hitomi wa
dekireba kono mama tsutsumarete owaritai
futari de himeta awai hada tsuki mo kakureteru

Nevertheless, I search for a single form of love
Your dried eyes tied it to the present from a time far beyond
If I can, I want to end while shrouded this like
Together, we concealed our pale selves; the moon is hiding, too

are kara ikura ka yoru
suki ni mo narimashita
izon no umi iki mo wasurete

How many nights
Did I come to love since then?
In the sea of dependence, I forget to even breathe

muchuu no sono temae de nama nurusa dake wo nokoshite
hiki kiwa no bigaku
tokuige na kisu kirau

Even with your captivation, you only leave behind a tepid warmth
In the art of knowing when to quit
I dislike your conceited kisses

hitori ni shinai de mou sasshite ayamete
dono kotoba mo kimi no heya de wa surinukete iku no
midarete nemutte sore ijyou wo oshiete?
egao no toi ni mayou toiki tsuki dake ga miteru

Don't leave me alone, perceive and color me already
What words will slip out of your room?
Being confused, falling asleep- Will you tell me about things beyond those?
Only the moon is looking at the sighs lost in the questions of smiles

tsugi no nagai hari ga tenjyou ni todoku koro ni wa
kimi wa mou inai
watashi wa mou iranai

When the next long needle points to the ceiling
You won't be around anymore
I won't need you anymore

sore de mo tashika ni ai no katachi wo sagashita
tooku yori mo ima wo musunda nureta hitomi wa
dekireba kono mama tsutsumarete owaritai
sono negai wa yoru wa munashiku asa wo tsurete kuru

Nevertheless, I definitely searched for a form of love
Your teary eyes tied it to the present from a time far beyond
If I can, I want to end while shrouded this like
Your wish and the night bring morning along in vain

yasashikute atsukute hikyou na KISU de

Paint it with a tender, passionate, yet cowardly kiss

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Two meals today!!!

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

This is life... 4 friends, two of them dueling, a day out, Wendy's, monster, and a scary movie at the movie theater... I haven't been here in over a year. XD

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FUCK. I GET SCARED BY MOVIES EASY. FML.

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I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE TURN ALL THE LIGHTS ON AND SHUT THE FUCK UP JUST KEEP THEM ON

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IM LEGIT STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE LIVING ROOM CUZ SOMEONE TURNED MY ROOM LIGHT OFF WHILE I WAS GONE

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I watched a scary movie with friends and now I need a hug. XD

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I remember the night we kissed, Miki and I had promised to get married by 29 if we hadn't found anyone because 30 was too old. XD

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Kinda wanna take her out on an actual date this time, and see how things go?

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I just... So... Kendra said she's gonna try out for the Voice next season and I made her promise she wouldn't leave and then I made her promise she promised cuz I... If she left I honestly don't know anymore. I just... Even if I'm remembered as an ass, I don't wanna be forgotten.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm unforgettable because I'm easy to connect to and I understand her. If only she knew the half of it. XD I understand people pretty well, actually.

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I just honesty want someone to hold me and tell me I've done something good in the world.

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Just gonna lay on my bed and cry for a little... I'm okay...

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Cuz I'm Rollin' with the dead now

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FUCK THE STUPID SERVER

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Writing feels like rping with myself

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Night slowly stood up, walking to his room, just waiting for a release that would never come. He scratched his head and slowly sat down on the bed, ignoring the pain in his aching bones. Silence. All that surrounded him, not even the wind blew through the open window. He stared at the white wall in front of him, and smiled just a little. And he laughed. He laughed for the fact of his own pain, his fault. "Fuck dude... You really messed up this time." He honesty just wanted out of that house, when or where didn't matter much to him. He just wanted to stop being so alone.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I enjoy writing. :P

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He ran a hand through his unruly hair as he set his weary head on the dirty pillow. Personal hygiene wasn't exactly a top priority for him anymore, his hair hadn't been cut in months, but at least he shaved, he thought. Night slowly traced every single ridge of the ceiling with his gaze, ignoring the floaty things he'd seen almost all of his life. He awaited the sleep that would never come. The peaceful kind, without worries or cares, or nightmares. He just felt very... Lost. Again. All over again.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Still need to get paints...

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So... I've stopped telling people my problems? Like I haven't really noticed but it's just like. Less stress on them and everything. If they ask anything I just give them the same stagnant answer. It just doesn't feel right.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

You... You don't have to stay for too much longer... Another five minutes would do... But this is had and I don't wanna be a bother... Just looking for something new.

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Just trying to find out where the truth starts and the lies end, and vice verse, ya know?

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Why am I so angry? Like little things suddenly set me off into a hell bent rage when I just hate everything.

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I miss my best friend. >.<

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This hurrrttttsssss

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And cue the burning arms.

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I haven't eaten yet today....

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I just walked into a glass door. XD

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Shyanne did too. XD

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Welp... Ian was on the phone with his gf, tony was making drinks, Rondale was asleep, Alex was with shyanne and battin, Clair was with her dogs, I was in the field smoking and writing. So yeah. That's my life. Mason kiking me and complaining about being single again, for like the third time this month with the same girl, Deaunta doing college shit. Me just... Here. Starting job next week though which is good I guess.

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So... Last night it was me, Clair, Shyanne, and Ian on Tony's pull out couch. XD and I was like curled into a small ball in the corner but I actually slept pretty well. Like... Life. Now at jack in the box with Ian and have a Oreo shake.

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When Ian says you're gonna kill someone with your penis? XD

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I forgot how fun partying was. XD and then you all crash.

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So... Um... I kinda left my notebook at Tony's. Slightly freaking. Please don't open. >.<

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So, AJ is chill with me smoking as long as I don't go overboard, which is a no brainer lol.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Walk away... Run, if you have to. It's smart. Better. For you, at least.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

But then again, I've never been exactly the smartest or self serving when it comes to that.

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I find it kinda ironic that Miki says that I've never been an asshole.

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Cuz the truth is I'm about to lose it don't think I can do this blah blah blah blah. >.<

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Kinda scared to go outside cuz world. And I don't wanna get up for other reasons but that just leaves me here rocking in place with music... Isn't so bad...

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Debates on listening to Looking For Alaska on audiobook again.

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My mind is pretty much a relay of 'Just one more cig. Just one more sip. Just one more cut. Just one more kiss. Just one night. Just one more time.'

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Yeah... All of my friend will leave once they find someone better. Mason just did. Deaunta is at college. Barely talk to Greg anymore. So now I'm alone. Great.

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Time to make lightsworns?