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Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments She literally used to be my center of happiness. Now we can't even talk without me bothering her.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I wrote her a letter the day after we broke up.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I really wanna get high


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I think what hurts is the fact that if you think about it I got straight played from the beginning.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Not played but mainly made into a joke. Now that I think about it it's the same thing.


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Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Don't think telling Kendra I'm getting high is a great idea so I'll pass lol


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Like I won't make this a habit but it won't be completely non existent.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I haven't eaten all day... I'm just not hungry...


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Im just really fucked up cuz I really wanna date Kendra but I just don't know if I can cuz I don't want her to get hurt and leave too because she'd get tired of me.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments So I told Kendra about the polar bear thing and it lead to me having a polar bear fetish and she said she'd dress up in the suit? XD


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Her best summer ever is the one without me.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I guess the only reason I'm stuck in it is because it hurts a lot and I really wanna try things with Kendra but I just don't wanna feel like this ever again. She even says she won't leave, no matter if other people did.

How the fuck did I end up like this...


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments literally shaking. I didn't eat yesterday. Let's hope it's from the cold.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Hollywood Undead
"Medicine"
[Charlie Scene:]
Oh no, how'd I sink so low? Ain't got the patience
I need my medication
I need to crawl out, out of this hole now
Before the darkness grabs a hold and takes my soul now

[Danny:]
And it just goes on and on and on
On and on and on

Yeah, call the doc, I must be sick
Better get me my medicine
Now it's five o'clock, on the phone again
I think I might need another prescription

Call the doc, I must be sick
Better get me my medicine
Now it's five o'clock, on the phone again
I think I might need another prescription

[Johnny 3 Tears:]
Oh, holy ghost, is this a vision?
I've got one, two, three admissions
I'm getting sick of superstition
I need a dose, man, fuck the fixing

Mama, what'd you feed the children?
Pills in milk and nothing to mix, man?
Who needs the milkman? I got the tricks and
Another refill ain't gonna fix 'em

[Danny:]
And it just goes on and on and on
On and on and on
[Johnny 3 Tears:]
Another refill ain't gonna fix 'em

[Danny:]
Yeah, call the doc, I must be sick
Better get me my medicine
Now it's five o'clock, on the phone again
I think I might need another prescription

Call the doc, I must be sick
Better get me my medicine
Now it's five o'clock, on the phone again
I think I might need another prescription

[J-Dog:]
Oh no, I can't fight it
Even when I hate it, I still wanna like it
Oh no, I can't hide it
I ain't got a dollar, but I still try to buy it

Oh no, I can't fight it
Even when I hate it, I still wanna like it
Oh no, I can't hide it
I know you don't know me, but I know you supply it

[Danny:]
Call the doc, I must be sick
Bitch, get me my medicine
It's five o'clock, on the phone again
Think I might another prescription

Call the doc, I must be sick
Voices in my head again
It's five o'clock, on the phone again

Yeah, call the doc, I must be sick
Better get me my medicine
Now it's five o'clock, on the phone again
I think I might need another prescription

Call the doc, I must be sick
Better get me my medicine
Now it's five o'clock, on the phone again
I think I might need another prescription

So call the doc, I must be sick
I'm so sick
I think I might need another prescription

So call the doc, I must be sick
I'm so sick
I think I might need another prescription


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I HAVE SCHOOL DAY WTF


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments There's literally no way I can do this without breaking down somewhere in there


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I need to eat like everything to even sort of get back on track with my eating. Damnit shiv.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I just don't know how I'm not hungry yet?


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Linkin Park
"Burn It Down"
The cycle repeated
As explosions broke in the sky
All that I needed
Was the one thing I couldn't find

And you were there at the turn
Waiting to let me know

[Chorus:]
We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

The colors conflicted
As the flames climbed into the clouds.
I wanted to fix this
But couldn't stop from tearing it down.

And you were there at the turn
Caught in the burning glow
And I was there at the turn
Waiting to let you know

[Chorus:]
We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

You told me, "Yes"
You held me high
And I believed when you told that lie
I played soldier, you played king
And struck me down, when I kissed that ring
You lost that right, to hold that crown
I built you up, but you let me down
So when you fall, I'll take my turn
And fan the flames
As your blazes burn

And you were there at the turn
Waiting to let me know

[Chorus:]
We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

When you fall, I'll take my turn
And fan the flames
As your blazes burn

We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

When you fall, I'll take my turn
And fan the flames
As your blazes burn

We can't wait
To burn it to the ground


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I will get through this song. I really like this song. XD


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Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments BEATING MY DRUM LIKE DUM DA DE DAY I KNOW YOU WANT IT IN THE WORST WAY.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments i hear your heart beat to the beat of the drums



Lol. I did it. XD


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Next song to conquer. XD



They say, do you need me, do you think I'm pretty? Do I make you feel like cheating? Lol


Lifeeee


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Don't think I'll get through shut up and dance or Barcelona... Hm. I have 20 min and another monster. Wurf.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Barcelona I still long to hold her once moreeee



Yeah I can't. I'm done. Gg guys. Taking the L lol



I just don't like this song? XD wtf... XD


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I can do this once just fine. XD

THE CHEMICAL PHYSICAL KRYPTONITE.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments When all of your flaws and all of my flaws are laid out one by one


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I only got halfway through this burger and I wanna throw up. >.<


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Tbh kinda wanna date Kendra but she might leave and I don't think I wanna be tied down again yet? Lol


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Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Omarion
"Post To Be"
If your chick come close to me
She ain't going home where she post to be
I'm getting money like I'm post to be
I'm getting money like I'm post to be
Ooh, all my niggas close to me
And all them other niggas where they post to be
Ooh, the hoes go for me
Have your chick send a pic like pose for me
That's how it post to be
That's how it post to be
That's how it post to be
Everything good like it post to be

[Verse 1 - Omarion:]
Pull up to the club and it go up
Make your girl fall in love when I show up
It's not my fault she wanna know me
She told me you were just a homie

She came down like she knew me
Gave it up like a groupie
And that's facts, no printer
Cold nigga turn the summer to the winter
She save me in her phone as bestie
But I had her screaming, oohh
Yo girl wasn't supposed to text me
You wanna know how I know what I know

[Hook - Omarion:]
If your chick come close to me
She ain't going home when she post to be
I'm getting money like I'm post to be
I'm getting money like I'm post to be
Ooh, all my niggas close to me
And all them other niggas where the post to be
Ooh, the hoes go for me
Have your chick send a pic like pose for me
That's how it post to be
That's how it post to be
That's how it post to be
Everything good like it post to be

[Verse 2 - Chris Brown:]
Got your girl in my section finna blow up
And nigga smoking loud, I'm 'bout to roll up
She ain't never got high like this with a guy like this
When she pop it tell her hold up
Better believe she gon' leave with a real nigga
I dick her down can't put it down like I do
I get to bussin' no discussin', gotta deal with it
Team us, we ain't worried about you
Murder she wrote
Yeah, yeah, when I hit it, I'm a kill it, I'm a get it like
Murder she wrote
You wanna know how I know what I know

[Verse 3 - Jhene Aiko:]
If your dude come close to me
He gon' wanna ride off in a ghost with me (I'll make him do it)
I might let your boy chauffeur me
But he gotta eat the booty like groceries
But he gotta get rid of these hoes for me
I might have that nigga selling his soul for me
Ooh, that's how it post to be
If he wants me to expose the freak
Ooh, that's how it post to be
Ooh, that's how it post to be
Ooh, that's how it post to be
Everything good like it post to be
Ooh

[Hook - Omarion:]
If your chick come close to me
She ain't going home when she post to be
I'm getting money like I'm post to be
I'm getting money like I'm post to be
Ooh, all my niggas close to me
And all them other niggas where the post to be
Ooh, the hoes go for me
Have your chick send a pic like pose for me
That's how it post to be
That's how it post to be
That's how it post to be
Everything good like it post to be

[Outro - Chris Brown:]
She 'bout to ride with me
And I don't even know her name
But I know that she your girl
She chose up, are you mad, or nah, bruh
Don't be mad about it
These chicks be for everybody


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Like I don't have to worry about anyone cheating or anything even sort of like that. Flirting is fun. And I just dunno. I can be an ass and do what I want.



In all honesty. I dunno. Just making it through.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Sometimes I get what life is. Falling back into old habits it horrible. I don't wanna be that guy anymore. Not doing it. But even Mason said he thinks it's coming back. And probably worse. And then there are times where I feel like shit because of it. And then there are those times where it's just like why tf not. Old habits can't be that bad.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Can you feel it?
Now it's coming back we can steal it
If we bridge this gap,


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I CAN LISTEN TO MAYDAY PARADE AGAIN


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Mayday Parade
"Oh Well, Oh Well"
When you're alone, do you think of me?
And my diamond ring's thrown out to sea.
And when you love, do you love for me?
Like harmony, a never ending dream.

Oh well, oh well. I still hope for the best.
Say goodbye and send me off with a kiss farewell.
And I promise I'll be just as strong as I can be.
Maybe you could get some sleep tonight.

So here's your song. It's twisting me.
I'd give anything to make you scream.
And I'll just smile, and make believe I don't feel a thing.
That doesn't work for me.

Oh well, oh well. Guess I'll see you in hell.
There's a pretty little picture that's in my head.
And I'm starting to dream, changing colours while I sleep.
Maybe I'm just wasting time.

Sit still and listen to the soundtrack.
I'll tell you how I took one straight through the heart,
And it's not easy to talk about.
So we all scream loud.

And that was it.
I had made it clean just across the street with my new wings.
So I'll just fly and hope that I remember the good times when it's done.

Oh well, oh well.
I can't live with myself as I'm climbing in your window to get to your bed.
And I'll be what you need,
You can call me anything
Just as long as we're still friends.

Sit still and listen to the soundtrack.
I'll tell you how I took one straight through the heart, and it's not easy to talk about.
So we all sing.

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh ohh-oh

When she smiles, well it's got nothing to do with me.
I'm not the one who sings her to sleep.
And I've been talking to God asking for just a little help with you but it's hopeless.

It's not the first time but this one really carved it in.
Tell your new friends that they don't know you like I do.
It's over. I wanna see you again. I wanna feel it again.

Ohh, it's not the first time, but this one really carved it in.
Tell your new friends that no one knows you like I do.
It's over. I wanna see you again. I wanna feel it again.

I'll keep you warm safe in my arms. 'Till heaven calls, keep holding on.


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments THIS SONG IS PERFECT


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Mayday Parade
"Jersey"

Cause Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know I'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now I'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, I swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

Let's write a song that we can dance to
Cause they all wanna listen
Just to know how it sounds when
I do that thing you know that I do
When I find inspiration
This is me breaking down when

Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know I'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now I'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, I swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

Let's write a song that we can sing to
And you can lead the choir
And put the hook where it hurts most
And you threw a spark that lit the candle
That set us all on fire
And sent a flame down the east coast

Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know I'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now I'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, I swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

And I should have been your everything
I'm now at the end of my eternity
And I will sleep to have the darkest dreams
This just won't seem right to me
I close my eyes and beg for peace

Jersey just got colder and...
Jersey just got colder and...
Jersey just got colder and...

Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know I'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now I'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, I swear
I'm just gone beyond repair


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments These guys used to be my favorite band... I really miss this. XD


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments TimeFlies
"Once In Awhile"
I Thought I would know better
That's wishful thinkin'
Thought there'd be no pressure
That's wishful drinkin'
Is anything forever or just a feeling?
What have I been so afraid of?
I don't know

From Brooklyn to New York, then off to the West
In Cali, no Khaled, but fuck, we the best
My stripes, stay American, lemme express
And I keep it as live as a Total Request
Then they ask me these questions
Like, "How do you do it?
Press and the road and the music"
Truth is, I'm always up, I'm always down
Worry about everyone else

But once in a while, I catch myself
Once in a while, I ask myself
What am I doing?
Once in a while, I need your help
But once in a while I feel like
I just wanna dance
I feel good, I feel good
I feel good, I feel good

I live life like my blood type, B positive
These days something got me feeling quite the opposite
Music like my heroin, but all I hear is poppy shit
Time to get up off of it and watch somebody copy it
I'm West bound down and out
Feeling fake now like somebody found me out
Need to slow down, I'm brownin' out
So many thoughts, lemme drown 'em out

Yeah, I thought I would know better
That's wishful thinkin'
Thought there'd be no pressure
That's wishful drinkin'
Is anything forever or just a feeling?
What have I been so afraid of?
I don't know

But once in a while, I catch myself
Once in a while, I ask myself
What am I doing?
Once in a while, I need your help
But once in a while I feel like
I just wanna dance
I feel good, I feel good
I feel good, I feel good

I've been looking at where we're going
There's no slowin' down to go back
And thinking of where we've been
No one's ever been given a road map
Say "Slow down, turn here, graduate and work here
Come and get a raise when you finish up your first year"
No, if you're doing it, you're doing it right
Keep it movin', now tell me what you're doing tonight
Cause sometimes we're up, sometimes we're down
Don't worry about anyone else

But once in a while, I catch myself
Once in a while, I ask myself
What am I doing?
Once in a while, I need your help
But once in a while I feel like
I just wanna dance
I feel good, I feel good
I feel good, I feel good


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Wait... I... I think I'm hungry again


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments This... IM HUNGRY. YESSSS XD


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Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments I'm so done with myself. XD


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Summer school is sooooo boring.


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jay (jaysonstreet) | 35349 comments Mod
eeeeeeweewwwww school


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments DNCE
"Jinx"
Feels like I'm in a cartoon
Lovestruck, shot with a harpoon
Flying high as a balloon
And I ain't coming down
Got no, no chill around you
But I'm trying, trying to play cool
Don't want to rush it on too soon
I'm keeping you around

Superstitiously, I'm watching my words
All of my words
Now
Like a birthday wish
Don't say it out loud
Never out loud

Yeah I want to tell everyone
That you are, you are my only one
Screaming at the top of my lungs
But I'm whispering, I'm whispering, I'm whispering
Cause I don't wanna jinx it

Blue birds fly over my head
Wet dreams swimmin' 'round my bed
Eyes closed, 11:11
Hoping you will stay
Fingers cross when I kiss you
Knocking wood when I miss you
Acting like a teenage fool when you are with me

Superstitiously, I'm watching my words
All of my words
Now
Like a birthday wish
Don't say it out loud
Never out loud

Yeah I want to tell everyone
That you are, you are my only one
Screaming at the top of my lungs
But I'm whispering, I'm whispering, I'm whispering
Cause I don't wanna jinx it

I don't wanna jinx it

Superstitiously
Like a birthday dream
Don't say it out loud [x2]

Yeah I want to tell everyone
That you are, you are my only one
Screaming at the top of my lungs
But I'm whispering, I'm whispering, I'm whispering
Cause I don't wanna jinx it

I don't wanna jinx it [x2]


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments *is kinda just trying to get through life and figure everything out*


Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water} (mathew-sonofvulcan) | 3645 comments Welp... I tried. Gonna wait with her and stuff till the whole Kass thing blows over but yeah... That kinda ended pretty quick. .-. FML. Really tired of this shit


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