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I'm so fucking weak. I always have been. I'm a sophomore in a seniors body. I'm not ready for next year



Fuck this hurts.... Scars are flaring more than ever.... My shoulders feel weighted, chest tight... I need so much help.

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Little ceasars is right next to a fucking Starbucks. Everyone that duels hangs in there. I can't even look at the place without breaking.

So fucking lonely... Maybe it's just loneliness .

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I don't think I'm going to church anymore... I read my bible at night but that didn't work.



Deleting her pics off my profile and insta.

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Sorry? Didn't know I was effecting you by posting on my journal that I thought literally no one looks at?

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Once again. Turning into a giant ass

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I wanna die.

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I'm so tired...

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I wanted to spend my whole fucking life with her.

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I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are [11x])

Brushing my hair—do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos, fake shows, like whoa!
Just go and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile that's my home!
That's my home, no...

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
Yeah yeah yeah

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Now that I think about t, it's more like The Man, than Don't.

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If crazy equals genius...

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I make it up as I go
I make it up as I go

Does it look like I've got everything under control?
I'm good at faking it
The ice is getting thin but I'm the only one who knows
I'm only making it up

On the way,
Just play it cool and take it day by day
Do what I can and if they ask me, I say,
"Hey no big deal, I got it all worked out"

I've got a little confession
I don't know what I'm doing
But if you want, you can play along
Maybe I'll wake
To find that I went and blew it
But 'til I do, I'll keep going strong

I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
Still haven't gotten it wrong

Don't got no master plan, I don't got nothing at all
Please don't think less of me
The chips are in the air, I cross my fingers when they fall
And make the best of each

Hand I get played,
Stay on my toes and take it day by day
Do what I can and if they ask me, I say,
"Hey no big deal, I got it all worked out"

I've got a little confession
I don't know what I'm doing
But if you want, you can play along
Maybe I'll wake
To find that I went and blew it
But 'til I do, I'll keep going strong

I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
Still haven't gotten it wrong

And I won't stop 'til I can
See the dead end with my own eyes
I've got a lot to prove, oh
And if I do get stuck,
I'll just wait for better luck
And if it never comes, I'll make it up

I've got a little confession
I don't know what I'm doing
But if you want, you can play along
Maybe I'll wake
To find that I went and blew it
But 'til I do, I'll keep going strong

I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
Still haven't gotten it wrong,
Going strong, I make it up, make it up
I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
I make it up as I go, oh oh oh
Still haven't gotten it wrong

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When you have to debate if you're stable enough to take the job or not

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Senior year... Picnic, sunrise, dances and prom... Graduation. College, SAT, AP classes.... Job.... And after that comes after. I think I'm done thinking about the future for awhile. Just take it day by day and try not to slip up.

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He was the congregation's vagrant,
With an unrequited love.
When your passion's exaltation,
Then finding refuge is not enough.
She was the youngest of the family
And the last to be let go.
When they decided they would try to make it on their own.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Where'd you go?

(Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh)

When July became December,
Their affection fought the cold.
But they couldn't quite remember,
What inspired them to go.
And it was beautifully depressing,
Like a street car named Desire.
They were fighting for their love that had started growing tired.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Don't fade away!

When money lost momentum,
And the bills were piling high
Then the smile had finally faded,
From the apple of their eye.
They were young and independent,
And they thought they had it planned.
Should have known right from the start
You can't predict the end.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Don't fade away!

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Laying in bed since I woke up this morning cuz I don't wanna get up

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I CAN HAVE MONSTER AND COFFEE AGAIN

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God this tastes amazing. It's not much. But seeing Korey again, eating a maple old fashioned AND TWO MONSTERS THEY JUST GAVE ME A FREE ONE I LOVE BEING FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE THAT OWN THIS SHOP OH MY GOD AND FREE DONUT HOLESSSS

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For the first time in a week I actually truly feel like I can do this.

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And then there's a viagra commercial. XD

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IF A POLAR BEAR CAN DO IT WHY CANT I??

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For ice bear. Survival might be a long shot. Lol same ice bear. But it'll be okay. XD I'm so tired.

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Daaammmmnn. 82* with ice bear. I feel really bad. Why is this on tv.

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Just straight talk to myself.

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WAIT WHAT THE FUCK HE FOUND ANOTHER POLAR BEAR.

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Lol my body is still super sore. XD

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We don't talk anymore
We don't talk anymore
We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
We don't laugh anymore
What was all of it for
Ohh, we don't talk anymore, like we used to do...

I just heard you found the one, you been looking
You been looking for
I wish I would have known that wasn't me
Cause even after all this time
I still wonder
Why I can't move on
Just the way you did so easily

Don't wanna know
Kinda dress you're wearing tonight
If he's holdin onto you so tight
The way I did before
I overdosed
Shoulda known your love was a game
Now I can't get you out of my brain
Ohh, it's such a shame

That we don't talk anymore
We don't talk anymore
We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
We don't laugh anymore
What was all of it for?
Oh, we don't talk anymore
Like we used to do

[Selena Gomez:]
I just hope you're lying next to somebody
Who knows how to love you like me
There must be a good reason that you're gone
Every now and then I think you might want me to
Come show up at your door
But I'm just too afraid that I'll be wrong

Don't wanna know
If you're looking into her eyes
If she's holdin onto you so tight the way I did before
I overdosed
Should've known your love was a game
Now I can't get you out of my brain
Oh, it's such a shame

[Charlie Puth & Selena Gomez:]
That we don't talk anymore
(We don't we don't)
We don't talk anymore
(We don't we don't)
We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
We don't laugh anymore
(We don't we don't)
What was all of it for?
(We don't we don't)
Oh, we don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
Like we used to do

Don't wanna know
Kinda dress you're wearing tonight
If he's giving it to you just right
The way I did before
I overdosed
Should've known your love was a game
Now I can't get you out of my brain
Oh, it's such a shame

That we don't talk anymore
(We don't we don't)
We don't talk anymore
(We don't we don't)
We don't talk anymore
Like we used to do
We don't laugh anymore
(We don't we don't)
What was all of it for?
(We don't we don't)
Oh, we don't talk anymore
Like we used to do

(We don't talk anymore)
Don't wanna know
Kinda dress you're wearing tonight (Oh)
If he's holding onto you so tight (Oh)
The way I did before
(We don't talk anymore)
I overdosed
Should've known your love was a game (Oh)
Now I can't get you out of my brain (Woah)
Oh, it's such a shame

That we don't talk anymore

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Remembering when Peter and James and stuff had suicide going on and I'd helped... Or at least felt like I did. XD but its just been awhile.


Now I'm a senior. Two dates next week. Getting work permit. Yugioh tournament. And lots of... Freedom.

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I'm even more sore. XD



Just gonna do a bit of copy paste from texts lol.


Well... It kinda mostly started when I saw my old friend Korey, who owns a donut shop with his my by the place thrift town. So we sat down and talked and everything, and I had a donut. And in the first time in ever, a monster too. And when I'm drinking this heaven in a can his mom slides me a dented one over and that's like the best thing that's ever happened to me. XD and then I get to thinking and Korey and I do a bit of catching up and he wishes me the best and everything and I have a double date with Kendra and I've just realized that while being with Kass did make me happy, it was also super constricting. And life is just a lot better. Stayed up till like 2 and ended the day with monster and in and out.



Everything is starting to look up again. It's the simple things. :P

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IM SO DUMB.


WHO THE FUCK SPENDS 100 ON CARDS JUST CUZ THEY CAN OH GOD

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I honestly don't totally remember last night cuz the four of us stayed up so late. XD

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Psycho
Twelve Stones
Everybody's going psycho

Lights go out
It's finally going down
You feel it in the air
It's going to leave you hypnotized
I feel so alive
Let's live life like we're never gonna die
Join me if you dare cause we're going to leave the rest behind
I feel so alive

Losing all control
I can feel it in my soul
We can finally let go
Everybody's going psycho
Hands up, turn it down
Lose it to the sound
We can finally let it go
Everybody's going psycho

Now's the time
To see the other side
One last chance to finally step across the line
I feel so alive
Psycho eyes
Leave you paralyzed
Lock all the doors there's no place left to hide
I feel so alive

Losing all control
I can feel in my soul
We can finally let go
Everybody's going psycho
Hands up, turn it down
Lose it to the sound
We can finally let it go
Everybody's going psycho

Let me see you go psycho
Let me see you go psycho
Let me see you go psycho
Let me see you go psycho

Losing all control
I can feel it in my soul
We can finally let go
Everybody's going psycho
Hands up, turn it down
Lose it to the sound
We can finally let it go
Everybody's going psycho

Losing all control
I can feel in my soul
We can finally let go
Everybody's going psycho
Hands up, turn it down
Lose it to the sound
We can finally let it go
Everybody's going psycho

Everybody's going psycho

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Theory Of A Deadman
"Villain"

All day
All night
I've been thinkin why feelin' wrong feels so right
And I know
Yeah I try
To turn myself around but I know what I like

I ain't nice
No I'm quite a dick
I'm the bad guy who's makin' you sick
It's easy for me
I've got no shame
I'm in it for the money and fame

Everybody wants to be like me
The villain is the one that you came to see
Sick of all the good guys savin' the day
Cause the villain always wins when the hero's away

There's days when I wanna give in
But it's hard to be a saint when you're full of sin
Why would I ever think of goin' back
When it feels so fuckin' good to be bad

Everybody wants to be like me
The villain is the one that you came to see
Sick of all the good guys savin' the day
Cause the villain always wins when the hero's away

I know that secretly
Everybody's rootin' for me

Everybody wants to be like me
The villain is the one that you came to see
Sick of all the good guys savin' the day
Because the villain is here to stay

Everybody wants to be like me
The villain is the one that you came to see
Sick of all the good guys savin' the day
Cause the villain always wins when the hero's away

And I'm here to stay

I'm the villain

And the villain always wins when the hero's away

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Cobra Starship
"Good Girls Go Bad"


I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Good girls go bad

I know your type
Yeah daddy's lil' girl
Just take a bite
Let me shake up your world
Cause just one night couldn't be so wrong
I'm gonna make you lose control

She was so shy
'Til I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
You were hanging in the corner
With your five best friends
You heard that I was trouble but you couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Good girls go bad
Good girls go

I know your type
Boy you're dangerous
Yeah you're that guy
I'd be stupid to trust
But just one night couldn't be so wrong
You make me want to lose control

She was so shy
'Til I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
I was hanging in the corner
With my five best friends
I heard that you were trouble but I couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Good girls go bad
Good girls go bad

Oh she got a way with them boys in the place
Treat 'em like they don't stand a chance
And he got a way with them girls in the back
Actin' like they too hot to dance

Yeah she got a way with them boys in the place
Treat 'em like they don't stand a chance
And he got a way with them girls in the back
Actin' like they too hot to dance

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Them good girls go bad
Good girls go bad

I was hanging in the corner
With my five best friends
I heard that you were trouble but I couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Good girls go bad
Good girls go

[jay, rip]

Genghis wrote: "Remembering when Peter and James and stuff had suicide going on and I'd helped... Or at least felt like I did. XD but its just been awhile.


Now I'm a senior. Two dates next week. Getting work pe..."

yikes XD

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Actually not too bad. XD

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I'm so shit at league ever since I had pretty much stopped. XD

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Wiz Khalifa
"No Sleep"

[Verse 1:]
Last night I let the party get the best of me
Waking up in the morning: two hoes laying next to me
Plus I heard an officer arrested me
Good weed and cold drinks: that's the motherfucking recipe
Nigga and we roll deep, so deep
It's going down in this bitch: concrete
We gon party all night: no sleep
Tell the owner them is all my guys
So tonight everything is on me

The drinks is on me
The bitches, the hotel, the weed is all free
Get high, I mean so high
We don't see the whole suite
Then fly to a level where you gonna need your own key (TGOD)

[Hook x2:]
No driving, no sleeping
Live it up like it's the weekend
When the DJ play the right song
Gonna drink, gonna party all night long

[Verse 2:]
Leaving from the club now she wanna stay with us
Came to spend it all, don't care what I'm paying for
Used to be too young, now I'm out here buying the bar
Everytime I look up, it's another red cup
Bunch of niggas in the game but they ain't playing with us
They just paying enough
Man them niggas ain't ballin they just laying it up
Saying they does, I'm just rolling hella weed up
While on my way to the club
I had to wait at the club
But now I don't cause everything is on me

The drinks is on me
The bitches, the hotel, the weed is all free
Get high, I mean so high
We see the whole street
We fly, I mean so fly
We need a whole wing (TGOD)

[Hook x2:]
No driving, no sleeping
Live it up like it's the weekend
When the DJ play the right song
Gonna drink, gonna party all night long

Party all day, party all night
Say you wanna party lets party alright
I, Party all day, party all night
Say you wanna party lets party alright
I, Party all day, party all night
Say you wanna party lets party alright
I, Party all day, party all night
Say you wanna party lets party alright
I..

[Hook x2:]
No driving, no sleeping
Live it up like it's the weekend
When the DJ play the right song
Gon' drink, gon' party all night long

Party all day, party all night
Say you wanna party, let's party alright

[jay, rip]

love that

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Sammmeeee. XD

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Linkin Park
"In The Echo"

(yeah) (yo)
You were that foundation
Never gonna be another one, no.
I followed, so taken
So conditioned I could never let go
Then sorrow, then sickness
Then the shock when you flip it on me
So hollow, so vicious
So afraid I couldn't let myself see
That I could never be held
Back or up no, I'll hold myself
Check the rep, yep you know mine well
Forget the rest let them know my hell
There and back yet my soul ain't sell
Kept respect up,the best they fell,
Let the rest be the tale they tell
That I was there saying…

[Chorus]
[Chester:]
In these promises broken
Deep below
Each word gets lost in the echo
So one last lie I can see through
This time I finally let you
Go, go, go.

Test my will, test my heart
Let me tell you how the odds gonna stack up
Y'all go hard, I go smart
How's that working out for y'all in the back, huh?
I've seen that frustration
Been crossed and lost and told "No"
And I've come back unshaken
Let down and lived and let go
So you can let it be known
I don't hold back, I hold my own
I can't be mapped, I can't be cloned
I can't C-flat, it ain't my tone
I can't fall back, I came too far
Hold myself up and love my scars
Let the bells ring wherever they are
'Cause I was there saying...

[Chorus]
[Chester:]
In these promises broken
Deep below
Each word gets lost in the echo
So one last lie I can see through
This time I finally let you go!!!
Go, go, go.

No, you can tell 'em all now
I don't back up, I don't back down
I don't fold up, and I don't bow
I don't roll over, don't know how
I don't care where the enemies are
Can't be stopped, all I know; go hard
Won't forget how I got this far
For every time saying…

[Chorus]
[Chester:]
In these promises broken
Deep below
Each word gets lost in the echo
So one last lie I can see through
This time I finally let you
Go, go, go. (Go, go, go)
Go. go, go. (Go, go, go)

[jay, rip]

love this one too XD

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Yay! XD

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Hey Mama. >.<

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Yeah I fucking can't.

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Party in five. Later guys.

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This stupid journal is a reminder.

[jay, rip]

hey, you're okay Shiv. I promise.

[jay, rip]

it's gonna be okay. you're strong.

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But... Okay...