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3:22!!!

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Cuz I love my smexy Kassi. XD

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*curls up and kisses* Yay!

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Starting to rain super hard...

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Woke up a little past 11:30... Went to the bathroom, then decided to make some food, cuz I forgot dinner. Went to play league till it was done and lost my appetite. Tried sleeping... A little after my room shook and it was really loud, thought it was an earthquake. But it was lightning, I went and checked. Cuz thw flash was confusing, we don't often get lighting. And now I'm laying here, under my blanket and casually over thinking as usual.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Runaway, Ed Sheeran


I’ve known it for a long time
Daddy wakes up to a drink at nine
Disappearing all night
I don’t wanna know where he’s been lying
I know what I wanna do
Wanna run away, run away with you
Gonna grab clothes, six in the morning go

How long you leaving?
Well, dad, just don’t expect me back this evening
Oh, it could take a bit of time to heal this
It's been a long day, thumb on side of the roadway, but

I love him from my skin to my bones
But I don’t wanna live in his home
There’s nothing to say 'cause he knows
I’ll just run away and be on my own

I’ve never seen my dad cry
Cold as stone in the kitchen light
I’ll tell you it’s about time
But I was raised to keep quiet
This is what I’m gonna do
Gonna run away, gonna make that move
Gonna grab clothes and when it’s morning go
How long you leaving?
Well, dad, just don’t expect me back this evening
Oh, it could take a bit of time to heal this
It's been a long day, thumb on side of the roadway, but

I love him from my skin to my bones
But I don’t wanna live in his home
There’s nothing to say 'cause he knows
I’ll just run away and be on my own

Backpack and a flat cap turned to the back
As I packed my clothes up
My dad wasn’t down with that plan to attack, intends to show love

I don’t wanna live this way
Gonna take my things and go
If things change in a matter of days
I could be persuaded to hold on
Mama was the same
None of us are saints I guess that god knows that
I don’t wanna run away
And one of these days I might just show that
Put my home in a suitcase
Tie both shoe laces and hope that
Things change, but for now I’ll leave town with a backpack on my shoulder

I love him from my skin to my bones
But I don’t wanna live in his home
There’s nothing to say 'cause he knows
I’ll just run away and be on my own

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I love you, Shiv...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I love you the same, Kassi...

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Please don't be on your own...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I won't...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

"Control" by Halsey
They send me away to find them a fortune
A chest filled with diamonds and gold
The house was awake
With shadows and monsters
The hallways they echoed and groaned

I sat alone, in bed 'til the morning
I'm crying, "They're coming for me"
And I tried to hold these secrets inside me
My mind's like a deadly disease

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

And all the kids cried out,
"Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

I paced around for hours, on empty
I jumped at the slightest of sounds
And I couldn't stand the person inside me
I turned all the mirrors around

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

And all the kids cried out,
"Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

I'm well acquainted
With villains that live in my bed
They beg me to write them
So they'll never die when I'm dead

And I've grown familiar
With villains that live in my head
They beg me to write them
So I'll never die when I'm dead

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

[2x]
And all the kids cried out,
"Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

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*hugs tightly* I love you.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*holds you close* amd I love you.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Picture this: A gorgeous mural, one of the best you ever seen. With vibrant colors in just the right spots, amazing contours, making it reflect light perfectly. Little by little, the mural deteriorates, getting a little less vibrant, and a little more worn. But one day, something happens, and the mural breaks. All over the floor, shattered to pieces. Is it just as beautiful as it once was?





Well... To me it is. Maybe even more beautiful. Because now this mural has a few more stories to tell, and yet, is just as magnificent.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Did I just write that?? O.O

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*cries and holds you* Please don't let me break...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*smiles and kisses your cheek* never ever...

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*looks at you* The artist knew when he painted the mural that perfection always gets a little worn down over time... But that's why He give the mural people to keep it as beautiful as they can. In the end... that mural will need to fight its own battle, you know. He loves that mural and that's why he gave it to you...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Confession 1: A lot of the vocabulary I know came first from being a huge pokemon nerd. Revive, substitute, etc. In like... Elementary school.

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*laughs and hugs* Adowable!

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm so tired but haven't been able to sleep... I'm sorry...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

This is by Taylor Swift but I like the nightcore cover by Austin Landon and Ellie something rather better.

'Safe and Sound'

I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La (La La)
La La (La La)
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La (La La)

Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound...

Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh oh oh

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I love you, Shiv...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Amd I love you, Kassi...

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Welp... Today I was woken up at 1 in the morning, Kass was having trouble sleeping and staying strong. Did I mind? Not at all. Kassi... Well, she doesn't think that she's very beautiful. She also thinks that I'd get bored of her and leave. She doesn't love her weight or size. She has problems with cutting and stuff. And I'm just stating facts, this is all true. But I love Kassi no matter what. No matter what her weird quirks are. No matter what she says, she's super smart, and super beautiful. She is amazing. She doesn't quite understand how strong she is and how much I need her. But I do. I need her and I love her. And I'd never ever get bired of cuddling with her, only her... Unless there's um... In about 10ish years... *cough* I'd also never get bored of rawr. Or stopping on numbers that end in zero. ;)

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Crying and laughing and stop! Don't mention that! It took me almost a year to tell you that XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I DON'T KNOW WHY THOUGH. XDDD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I love you. <3

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BECAUSE IT'S JUST HIGHLY AWKWARD???

I love you <3

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

SO?? XD

Yay!!

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I don't know. It's just silly.

Very!!!!!!!!!

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I just wanna play league...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I CAN'T SLEEP CUZ MY MIND WON'T SHUT UP.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I miss my beautiful Kassi... And I miss pictures of you... And I'm sorry that we've been growing distant... I don't want to lose you... I'm sorry... I can't sleep again...

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*gently curls onto your lap and lays my head on your lap* You are amazing and I love you forever and ever.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I feel like shit and I just don't know what to do anymore...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

When you have that one journal out of everyone you know that no one cares about XD

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Tbh I'd rather play league than do anything else my mind is telling me to do right now

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Shiv I love you so much, okay? You're my best friend and it's all gonna be okay... Call if you're feeling bad...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

So... I'm back

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I'm so tired...

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WHat's wrong, love?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Being away from home is nice.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Called my therapist last night when I got home. I can't do this... I've tried hanging out with friends. I've literally tried everything I used to. Zombies just aren't enough I guess.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Such a dumbass.

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My arms haven't stopped burning for about a month. So yeah. I need help. I'd love drugs but I can't. That would be stupid with a job, school, and everything else.

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I can't even read my favorite fucking books anymore.

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I can barely duel without wanting to break down. I can't do shit on my own anymore. Groups bigger that three make my skin crawl. I'm in bed and feeling like crap and sore cuz I'd worked out with Julia and her sister for about 3-4 hours. Then went to the hot tub at the apartments. And it was fun. I did things I normally don't do cuz awkward. But it was... I dunno. It was fun but it wasn't.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I just don't understand how I let any of this happen. Like wtf. Like... I was completely guarded and everything. Now in in bed, fucked up and defenseless.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Maybe this is why that started in the first place. But I didn't leave. I never would. Just need to find someone the same I guess. I'm turning into an asshole again and Mason's voice once again pisses me off and I honestly wanna punch Deaunta in his irritating face almost always and I just can't. I need new friends. I need new music. I need to stop dueling. Again. But this time for real. I can't start a card shop anymore. Why was I so stupid... I'm really dumb. Like... In all of the movies this happens but yeah... Life isn't a movie. More like and Ed Sheeran song by the name of 'Don't'