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[[deleted user]]

So... I just wanted to stop by and leave a little-bit-more-than-friendly reminder that I love you to pieces and you make my life perfect!!!
<3/ Your beautiful girlfriend.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm breaking down and everyone is in the car and Kass just left and I just can't... I can't... I'm sorry...

[[deleted user]]

Shiv? My inbox is always open if you need to talk.

[[deleted user]]

*gently kisses* Hey baby. I love you.. Making excuses to stay online..

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Thanks, Ayah... I think I'm okay now....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Whatever {Whoops, I did it again :P} wrote: "*gently kisses* Hey baby. I love you.. Making excuses to stay online.."

Don't get in trouble...

[[deleted user]]

*kisses* Geography bee studying. I'm okay.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm really tired...

[[deleted user]]

Sleep when you can, my darling...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm not sleepy though... Just exhausted...

[[deleted user]]

*rubs your shoulders gently*

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm trying but I don't know what's wrong and I don't know how to help... I'm sorry...

[[deleted user]]

Shiv. I love you. It's gonna be okay....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I remember hpw she used to be on the phone with her ex all the time after we started dating and stuffs... I mean... He sort of made her happy... And that one time where she had confused us... Some brownie thing or something...


I'm so tired... I'm sorry I couldn't put you to sleep tonight...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I should sleep, damnit...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

My life is literally falling apart at the seems and I can't help but watch. Everyone is hiding things again... I'm trying... But I can't...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Well... *quietly sigh and begins to hold the weight of everyone again* its been awhile, old friend...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Ironically the skinniest person in the group is the one holding people together.

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Kass has started being distant again and I don't know how or why but I just... Keeping it to myself and my journal cuz everyone else has their own problems.

[[deleted user]]

Shiv {When the world gets too heavy, yours starts falling apart...} wrote: "I remember hpw she used to be on the phone with her ex all the time after we started dating and stuffs... I mean... He sort of made her happy... And that one time where she had confused us... Some ..."

You don't realise how truly unhappy I was. I've always loved acting, you know? He bullied me so much... The brownie thing wasn't just with him...

[[deleted user]]

Shiv {When the world gets too heavy, yours starts falling apart...} wrote: "Well... *quietly sigh and begins to hold the weight of everyone again* its been awhile, old friend..."

I am so sorry... I just... I just want to help... I just want to help you hold it together...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm just so tired...

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm a puppet on a string
Tracy Island, time-traveling
Diamond cutter shaped heartaches
Come to find you four in some velvet morning
Years too late
She's a silver lining lone ranger riding
Through an open space
In my mind when she's not right there beside me

I go crazy 'cause here isn't where I wanna be
And satisfaction feels like a distant memory
And I can't help myself,
All I wanna hear her say is "Are you mine?"

Well, Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Are you mine?

I guess what I'm trying to say is I need the deep end
Keep imagining meeting, wished away entire lifetimes
Unfair we're not somewhere misbehaving for days
Great escape lost track of time and space
She's a silver lining climbing on my desire

And I go crazy 'cause here isn't where I wanna be
And satisfaction feels like a distant memory
And I can't help myself,
All I wanna hear her say is "Are you mine?"

Well, are you mine? (Are you mine tomorrow?)
Are you mine? (Or just mine tonight?)
Are you mine? (Are you mine? Mine?)

And the thrill of the chase moves in mysterious ways
So in case I'm mistaken,
I just wanna hear you say you got me baby
Are you mine?

She's a silver lining lone ranger riding through an open space
In my mind when she's not right there beside me
And I go crazy cause here isn't where I wanna be

And satisfaction feels like a distant memory
And I can't help myself,
All I wanna hear her say is "Are you mine?"

Well, are you mine? (Are you mine tomorrow?)
Are you mine? (Or just mine tonight?)
Are you mine? (Are you mine tomorrow, or just mine tonight?)

[[deleted user]]

Are you mine?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I'm just really tired and I'm really fucked up and I hope Kass is okay. And she's really just the only thing I enjoy in life anymore and I just... I really don't like people. I always end up being the bad guy no matter what and I just give up. F everyone here. They can go do whatever they want with their stupid lives and I'll just focus on grades and Kassi... I love her so much... It would help a lot if we were together right now... But we aren't, and that's okay... We will be. That's what I'm holding on to. The fact that things will get better, even if it might take awhile. Even if I have to drive 14 hours to Wyoming myself.



In other news, I just want to go home and pass out and try not to cut. And wait for Kassi. Her phone's gonna start locking earlier so... Might not be able to talk as much. But that's still okay... Mason and Deaunta jokingly called me a pedo ajd that kinda made me feel weird. But then again I could say so much stuff to them about their shit... Mason is dating someone the same age as Kass and she was willing to send nudes to Daniel, and they've known each other for a week. Deaunta is in between Mia and Battin, which is saying something in itself. Just typing and pretending I'm texting and actually talking to someone. Just staying sane, I guess. Also, lowkey trying tk reach the max amount of characters in a single post.

THINGS I AM SURE ABOUT
•The way I feel about Kassi.
•The way Kassi feels about me.
•My dueling skills.
•My cards.
•School sucks.
•Oreos taste nice.
•Kassi tastes nice. ;)
•Kassi is super beautiful.
•Kassi is perfect for me.
•*yawns*
•Borrreeedddd.
•No one notices my silence, except maybe Kass.
•Probably not sharing food with 'friends' cuz forget them.
•No one else really cares.
•I need to send Kass' gift.
•I'm sleepy.
•I have pizza.
•I have 10,178 characters left.
•Now 10,150
•I can probably do this.
•I'm hungry.
•I miss my Kassi cuddle cakes...
•*shrugs*
•I wanna get better in everything...
•*sighs* Might just stay silent today.

O.O Should I try writing a story???
Nah... Maybe not...
But maybe I wanna...
But maybe I don't...
•Pokemon...
•Brave frontier...
•The crucible isn't that bad of a book.
•I want music.
•I have what... Seven dollars?
•Mason owes ten.
•Taylor owes six.
•Rondale owes five.
•My friends are all just a bunch of fuckboys, sadly. Happened again I guess. *shrugs*
•I want Kasssssiiiii.
•Class ends in thirteen minutes.

Songs I enjoy listening to currently.


•True Friends, Bring Me The Horizon
•LA Devotee, Panic! At The Disco
•Loner, Ghost Town
• Not Today, Twenty One Pilots.


I think that's it... Probably not though.

*yawns* almost to 8,000...


Sitting in English class, Joshua is reading, his character being Giles. Mason's next to me, Daniel is in front of me, and Shyanne is next to Daniel and in front of Mason. Math homework... Crap. After I finish this. Three minutes till class is out.

I miss Kassi...


Gonna do math homework in law. *shrugs* need to get my history and science grades up from F's to B's... One minute. Be back soon? At 8,923.

[[deleted user]]

Something else you should be sure of:
I'm here for you.

[[deleted user]]

*hugs tightly* Hope you're okay... I love you...

[[deleted user]]

Shiv, you are so amazing....

[[deleted user]]

I'm gonna marry you so much...

[[deleted user]]

Kassi Jo M.

[[deleted user]]

I promise you forever....

[[deleted user]]

You are so flawless to me....

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

I love you... And I finished math but never got to the max.. ;-;

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

Ayah ~coмe wιтн мe and eѕcape~ wrote: "Something else you should be sure of:
I'm here for you."

Thank you, Ayah

[[deleted user]]

Shiv {When the world gets too heavy, yours starts falling apart...} wrote: "I love you... And I finished math but never got to the max.. ;-;"

*holds your hands and moves them like a dance* What's that mean?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*smiles and does the same* the max of a GR post. XD

[[deleted user]]

*giggles and twists my hips with my "dance"* Ah. I've done that before :P

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*tries to respond but fumbles stupidly* I figured. XD

[[deleted user]]

*laughs and puts my hands on your sides, trying to help you* Mmm.... Yeah. :P

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*smiles and scrunches my nose* sowwyyy... Never really danced before...

[[deleted user]]

*giggles and kisses the wrinkles in your nose* I know!

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*smirks* I think you missed... ;)

[[deleted user]]

*moves my hands to hold your face and kiss your lips* Did I?

[Shiv {Two Stones, Trying to Float on Water}]

*quietly kisses and tugs on your bottom lip* hm... I dunno. Maybe you should try again... ;)

[[deleted user]]

*giggles and pulls you closer, kissing your mouth again* Should I? ;)

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

*cough* *knock*

[[deleted user]]

*awkwardly steps back* Heyyyyyy XD (WHY DO WE DO THIS, SHIV????)

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

XD I just need an opinion.

[[deleted user]]

Abouuuttt?

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

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