Lily’s Random Thoughts

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Am I allowed to have one of these? Just say if I’m not but I don’t really know bc I haven’t been on goodreads for that long

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Hopefully!

Does anyone like ever think about birthdays? Like and growing up? I just turned 14 on the 23rd and I’m always wondering about that sort of stuff. I see all these other 13 and 14 year old girls and I’m like… they all act waaay older than me and have boyfriends and stuff and wear makeup and cropped t-shirts and wide leg jeans, all of which I have no interest in and it’s like I’m the only one because even some of my friends are like that too- but none of them have boyfriends- and it just makes me wonder if thats how I am meant to be….?

[sephora ౨ৎ⸆⸉]

LilyLovesBooks wrote: "Am I allowed to have one of these? Just say if I’m not but I don’t really know bc I haven’t been on goodreads for that long"

youre all good, everyone makes these on their own :)

[sephora ౨ৎ⸆⸉]

LilyLovesBooks wrote: "Hopefully!

Does anyone like ever think about birthdays? Like and growing up? I just turned 14 on the 23rd and I’m always wondering about that sort of stuff. I see all these other 13 and 14 year ol..."

i kinda relate to that, but the opposite
people mistake me for 21-year-olds (at a hotel bar once lol) and often for a high school graduate when i put makeup on and do my hair and stuff

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Hi! I’m good thanks. How are you guys? Thanks for commenting on this!

[mary (betty’s version)]

welcome lily! <33

[mary (betty’s version)]

✨wannabe inej ghafa✨ wrote: "LilyLovesBooks wrote: "Hopefully!

Does anyone like ever think about birthdays? Like and growing up? I just turned 14 on the 23rd and I’m always wondering about that sort of stuff. I see all these ..."

AND YOU SAY YOU'RE NOT PRETTY
swara just-
shut your face before you get whacked with a pool noodle

[mary (betty’s version)]

LilyLovesBooks wrote: "Hopefully!

Does anyone like ever think about birthdays? Like and growing up? I just turned 14 on the 23rd and I’m always wondering about that sort of stuff. I see all these other 13 and 14 year ol..."

i absolutely get that
i'm 16, and when i was 13 and in middle school none of the girls really wore crop tops and stuff like that
but my sister, who's 13 now, does
i think it's just because of the way people grow up and what they grow up seeing other girls wear
but you'll learn that people don't really care what you wear, who your friends with, if you have a boyfriend, if you wear makeup, stuff like that
it may seem like they care now, but i can promise you that if they do, in the future they won't
high school is just kinda a big blur of everyone being too busy trying to get through it to notice what you wear and who you're friends with
as long as you're happy

i hope that helped somewhat lol

[[deleted user]]

Yeah, thanks, I kinda just feel like its like people are judging me for how I dress and what i wear and stuff. I personally try not to care but it’s just like I do think about it because I don’t want to look weird and stuff. But that did help

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Also this is really random but this is my random thoughts so whatever, but has anyone here gone through a Harry Potter phase? I’ve gone through 2 and I kinda feel like I’m about to start another one if I reread the books again. I’m also about to do a Harry Potter escape room. Escape rooms are so fun

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This is probably weird but my pet peeves are:
-People not using capital letters where there should be capital letters like in titles and stuff
-People using the wrong words (your my friend instead of you’re my friend)
Maybe more which I can’t think of right now.

[mary (betty’s version)]

LilyLovesBooks wrote: "Yeah, thanks, I kinda just feel like its like people are judging me for how I dress and what i wear and stuff. I personally try not to care but it’s just like I do think about it because I don’t wa..."

i get that
i'm glad it helped <3

[mary (betty’s version)]

LilyLovesBooks wrote: "This is probably weird but my pet peeves are:
-People not using capital letters where there should be capital letters like in titles and stuff
-People using the wrong words (your my friend instead ..."

i type in all lowercase :0

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Haha I don’t mind too much on texting or messaging but more like the name of a song or something or a book or something like that. All of my posts would probably have way less capitals except I mostly do it on my phone which autocorrects to caps

[sephora ౨ৎ⸆⸉]

LilyLovesBooks wrote: "Also this is really random but this is my random thoughts so whatever, but has anyone here gone through a Harry Potter phase? I’ve gone through 2 and I kinda feel like I’m about to start another on..."

i've had probably six hp phases in my life lol
i just embrace it at this point (we dont support jkr in this household tho)

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✨wannabe inej ghafa✨ wrote: "LilyLovesBooks wrote: "Also this is really random but this is my random thoughts so whatever, but has anyone here gone through a Harry Potter phase? I’ve gone through 2 and I kinda feel like I’m ab..."

Ive heard all of his like controversial stuff about jk Rowling but i probably sound so silly but i dont actually know why? I dont really know anything about her other than that she wore the Harry Potter books- what is it about her that people dont like?

[sephora ౨ৎ⸆⸉]

JKR kinda has like two main things she's unpopular for
the first one happened a couple years ago and is the more main one - there was this (i think but it could be smth else) study and in the article about it, they used the term "people who menstruate", and JKR kinda mocked them and was like "oh there's a word for that! what's it called, wumble, wormen?" and when people accused her of being transphobic, and she pretty much agreed to that and thought trans people were like threats to feminity or something

- another one is her books are so dumb when it comes to other races it hurts. for one, there are barely any non-whites in HP to begin with, which is very inaccurate to the UK at the time. also, the only non-white characters are horribly represented. the only Black character is named "kingsley shacklebolt"... just let that sink in...
and the only East Asian character is named cho chang which ISNT EVEN A REAL CHINESE NAME

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✨wannabe inej ghafa✨ wrote: "JKR kinda has like two main things she's unpopular for
the first one happened a couple years ago and is the more main one - there was this (i think but it could be smth else) study and in the artic..."

Oh thats bad (and sad) about being transphobic!
Also yeah now that i think about it there aren’t that many other races in her books… I never really noticed that before.
She doesn’t really sound like a nice person…

Thanks for telling me :)

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Also I just did a personality test and I was ESFJ-T. I’m not really sure what that means though…?

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I don’t want to go back to school next week.

[keerthi]

✨wannabe inej ghafa✨ wrote: "JKR kinda has like two main things she's unpopular for
the first one happened a couple years ago and is the more main one - there was this (i think but it could be smth else) study and in the artic..."

yeah i don't support the author too
and what about dean thomas?

[keerthi]

Lily :) wrote: "Also this is really random but this is my random thoughts so whatever, but has anyone here gone through a Harry Potter phase? I’ve gone through 2 and I kinda feel like I’m about to start another on..."

i've gone through 3, i mean i just wasn't myself when they announced an hp reunion was gonna happen-

[keerthi]

Lily :) wrote: "I don’t want to go back to school next week."

:(
school's so exhausting, i'm having exams rn and i am DYING.

[[deleted user]]

Poor you- I don’t do exams yet and I’m not looking forward to it

[mary (betty’s version)]

✨wannabe inej ghafa✨ wrote: "JKR kinda has like two main things she's unpopular for
the first one happened a couple years ago and is the more main one - there was this (i think but it could be smth else) study and in the artic..."

we hate her in this household
and some of her tweets oh my god- aghhhhh

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "Also this is really random but this is my random thoughts so whatever, but has anyone here gone through a Harry Potter phase? I’ve gone through 2 and I kinda feel like I’m about to start another on..."

i've gone through.... none
and i have seen all the movies
i just don't get the hype??
i think i would've liked it better if i read or watched it when i was younger
plus when i watched it i already knew about her being a bad person and it just kinda gives me the ick
anyways, percy jackson supremacy

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haha i feel so bad. the biggest secret i've kept from my parents: goodreads. they don't know about my account or that i even use it. i should probably tell them but.................
i dont really want to because they dont let me have any type of social media, i just recently won the battle to get WHATSAPP for goodness sakes. they may be a tiiiiiiiny bit over protective? i dont really know. they're just my parents who im keeping a big secret from

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i am finally getting round to editing my book. it is actually quite good to read, if i do say so myself- i need to end my chapters on cliffhangers.im bad at cliffhangers

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "i am finally getting round to editing my book. it is actually quite good to read, if i do say so myself- i need to end my chapters on cliffhangers.im bad at cliffhangers"

AAAAAAHHHHH!!!
what's it about?

i'm also writing a book lol :D

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its about this place were everyone has magic, fire, earth, water, air, light or shadow. the main characters are 3 girls, 2 are 13, one is 12, and a 13 year old boy. they basically have to save the queen by spying and defeating the dark sorcerer. one of the girls has extremely special powers. that sounds so boring but i don't think it is. i've just found a really good cliffhanger at least at the end of chapter 9.

i'm also trying to write the sequel but i probably should keep editing. i wrote the one i'm editing last year and one BIG problem i'm finiding is that the 13 year old me mixed up her past and present tenses a lot.

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mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "i am finally getting round to editing my book. it is actually quite good to read, if i do say so myself- i need to end my chapters on cliffhangers.im bad at cliffhangers"

AAAAAAHHH..."

whats your book about?

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Lily :) wrote: "its about this place were everyone has magic, fire, earth, water, air, light or shadow. the main characters are 3 girls, 2 are 13, one is 12, and a 13 year old boy. they basically have to save the ..."

all the chapters are like 1700ish words long i feel like thats too short. i was aiming for 2000

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "its about this place were everyone has magic, fire, earth, water, air, light or shadow. the main characters are 3 girls, 2 are 13, one is 12, and a 13 year old boy. they basically have to save the ..."

OOOOOOOOHHHH

ahahahaha yeah…. I’ve read some of the stuff I’ve written at 13 and it’s so cringy i can’t😭

[[deleted user]]

now i'm writing on my laptop i hardly have any capitals. my laptop underlines my lowercase i's but idc

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "i am finally getting round to editing my book. it is actually quite good to read, if i do say so myself- i need to end my chapters on..."

it’s a romance and it’s duo pov
killian and rose have been best friends forever, but when she starts to have feelings she realizes he’ll never love her back
killian’s chapter’s are normal and Rose’s are written in letters to him that she never intends to send out
and at the end of every letter, she puts a poem

it’s a way to get my poetry out there without it seeming so personal lol

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "now i'm writing on my laptop i hardly have any capitals. my laptop underlines my lowercase i's but idc"

lolll :DD

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mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "i am finally getting round to editing my book. it is actually quite good to read, if i do say so myself- i need to en..."

that sounds so cool! my book is 4 povs and one of the chapters is a diary entry. i wish i could write poetry but... lets just say it always ends up being randomly separated sentences that would make much more sense as a paragraph

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "i am finally getting round to editing my book. it is actually quite g..."

oooo I love that!

I’m sure you could write poetry! you just have to dig really deep into your emotions
don’t think, just write
get it out
it’s like ranting but in a form of art

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i'm only on chapter 11 of 33. its been like 2 hours already!

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "i'm only on chapter 11 of 33. its been like 2 hours already!"

ahhhhh!!

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is it weird to laugh at your own writing? is this even funny?:
“What's so funny?” she asks.
“Nothing, just something that happened yesterday with those knives and Rowan and the Weaponmaster.”
“Something is the exact opposite of nothing, didn’t you know?”

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mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "mary (smash the patriarchy, sweetheart) wrote: "Lily :) wrote: "i am finally getting round to editing my book. it is ..."

i guess, i've written a bit before but it didnt really sound good or at least not to me

[[deleted user]]

i actually wrote it at night. do you want to see it? maybe you could tell me if its any good. idk. its pretty deep

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and it doesnt really make sense

[mary (betty’s version)]

Lily :) wrote: "i actually wrote it at night. do you want to see it? maybe you could tell me if its any good. idk. its pretty deep"

yeah <3 I’d love to read it
don’t worry about how deep it is, most of the poetry I write is very very deep

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night falls, lights out,
me and my thought, alone.
its quite, too quiet,
thoughts are spinning out of control.

did I do the right thing?
reviewing every second of my day
one thought leads to another
and another

spiraling into an endless loop
what if...
what if...
what if...

nothing to keep me
nothing to save me from coming back
to my endless thoughts.
drowing in them

an endless sea of nightmares,
wishes, regrets, judgement.
one thought,
eating me from the inside.

i was wrong
i'm not good enough.
im not strong enough.
im not enough.

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i dont know if thats any good but yeah, i worte it a couple of nights ago but it's basically how i feel every night. but i try to say that those thoughts are wrong but its really hard.

[mary (betty’s version)]

awww :(
that makes me sad
but I absolutely understand that
and yes, it is good, I love it

[[deleted user]]

thanks so much :)

[mary (betty’s version)]

<3

if you’d like to read some of mine you can lol