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Jan 01, 2022 12:35PM
Lillian smiled softly, "Sweetie, you two have been through so much in the past month and I think right now, you two are closer to each other then ever. Yeah there were a lot of feelings before but it went so fast you didn't get to enjoy those feelings." She paused before adding in a whisper, "I bet he's thinking about you right now."
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She feels the tear fall, knowing that she had thought about Liam every single day and wondered if he knew that. She had tried so hard to mask it, but he, he had to be able to see that right?
Lillian reaches over the table and wipes her tear. "Now now, it's okay." She makes a napkin appear in her hand and gives it to Skylar.
"I masked everything. He probably thinks I didn't even care. I screwed around with Chad." she hits her head, feeling so so stupid. "I know we were broken up. I just, a big thing was that he made me feel like a whore. And then as soon as we break up, I act like one."
"Skylar," she said, "Everyone makes mistakes. If Liam was mad at you for Chad then do you think he would've given you his number or ask to try again? He knows you were hurting and didn't mean it."
She looks at Lillian, "I know. I know."
She smiles, happy she got her point across, "How's your ice cream?" She asked.
"I love it!" she says, her smile bright.
"Yeah, I've never had it before. It's funny how much better it tastes rolled," she says laughing.
"I never have either." Lillian said laughing more. She felt her phone buzz and glance down to see a text from Jackson asking where she was. She sighed, "We should probably head out."
"Okay," she says, content. "Lillian?" she asks, "Is everything okay?"
"Everything's okay, I just don't want to go home right now, but Jackson is getting worried." She said with a sadish smile. She stands up from the booth.
She knows there's more to the story, but isn't going to push at it. If Jackson was just worried she would've just said she was with Skylar. Great, she thought, just another reason for Jackson to hate me. She gets up with Lillian, leaving a 10 dollar tip, thinking wryly about Liam again.
They got into the car and started back towards Skylar's hotel.
Skylar looks at Lillian and says, "Thank you for everything. I can support myself if that's why you and Jackson are fighting. I have multiple jobs. I'm not trying to push you away, I'm just saying."
"I know you can support yourself, sweetheart, I never doubted it for a second." She sighs, "Jackson wants us to stop paying for your stay at the hotel." She admitted, "I told him that it's ridiculous and after the way he treated you." She shook her head, "It's just him being upset. I don't think he hates you or anything, but with him it feels like its money first and family second."
She hung her head, "I can, I know you want to help, and you can, but I can pay for the stay. You guys shouldn't be fighting over your son's ex-girlfriend or whatever I am."
"You aren't just his ex, Skylar. You're my friend and hypothetical daughter. I love you like one." She said, "If you don't want us to pay for it, tell me. If you want me to not see you so often, tell me."
She looks down, feeling bad. Once again, she opened her mouth and her feelings came out in the wrong words. "I know. You're my hypothetical mum." She said, looking at Lillian. "I can pay for it. I want to see you. You're my friend too."
She nods, "I'll pay for this weeks, okay? I worry about you too much not to. If you need help, let me know."
She looks down, "Okay, Lillian." She leans over the console and gets a flashback of a month before how Lillian held her in her arms as she screamed about her step-son, consoling her. Then another one when she leaned over this same console and called her mum. "Don't stop visiting me." She pleaded, I like having you in my life.
"Oh sweetheart, I will never stop, even if you ask me to." Lillian says, pulling her softly into a hug.
She leans into Lillian, not wanting to cry, knowing this isn't goodbye.
They pull apart and eventually get out the car. They go inside and Lillian walks Skylar to her room and hugs her again before she left. "I'll see you soon, okay?"
"Yeah," she says, "Very soon," she laughs.
"Very soon." She agreed. Lillian pulled away and squeezed her shoulders before turning around and going back to the front desk. She payed off the bill for the next week and left.
Skylar laid on her bed and thought about the day. About Liam. About how slow, slow meant. Did he mean as Lillian suggested like friends and then they see? or dating and just super duper slow? she didn't know and she didn't want to think about it. He seemed happy at least texting, maybe he just had his guard up face-to-face. She thinks all this, and eventually drifts off to sleep, awaiting tomorrow's school day. And, yk, seeing Liam.
Liam was propped up on his bed with the television on. He knew he was going to be sore tomorrow because of practice. He was thinking about everything that had happened in the past month. Liam realized that he had grown up in the past month so much, it was crazy. He had his laptop open in his lap. On it, was a college application for ~enterfancycollegenamehere~. This was his dream school and he hoped he could get in. Liam came to terms with the fact that if him and Skylar did get back together then he would have to put himself first. This was his future. Earlier after practice, his coach had told him there would be a scout at the next soccer game. He was also told that he needed to choose between football and soccer, he couldn't do both and needed to pick a favorite. He was leaning towards soccer. He sighed and closed his computer and got ready for bed. It wasn't too long after he was laying down that he thought about Skylars smile. He smiled and fell asleep not too long afterwards.
The next morning Skylar gets up and gets ready
Outfit:
Makeup:
She looked in the mirror. She looked good. She looked better than she has been looking even in that last week. She brushes her teeth and all that jazz and heads to school, truly happy for the first time in a very long time.
Outfit:
Makeup:
She looked in the mirror. She looked good. She looked better than she has been looking even in that last week. She brushes her teeth and all that jazz and heads to school, truly happy for the first time in a very long time.
The next morning, Liam wakes up 15 minutes before his alarm. He smiles and takes his time getting ready. He puts on this outfit:
He walks downstairs and makes himself some toast for breakfast. When he finishes the toast he goes back upstairs and brushes his teeth and all that jazz and heads to school.
Walking into school, she immediately sees Liam as if her body magically pinpointed him out of all the students walking around randomly in the halls. She doesn't know what to do, so she starts playing with her hair, unaware on what "slow' means. Was it Lillian's idea? or was it something else? Skylar wants him to walk up to her if they're going to talk at all.
Liam sees Skylar almost immediately, I mean how could he not. She looked gorgeous and her blonde hair was a giveaway. He didn't know if he should go up to her or if that would be weird. He decided he didn't give a crap and went up to anyways, "Good morning, how was your ice cream yesterday? It looked delicious." He said, nervously, but as casual as he could muster.
She watched him walk up to her, her heart pounding so loud. He had this look on his face, she couldn't pinpoint it, what it was. "Good morning..." she says, trying not to laugh at the formality of it, "It was so good! I didn't even know the place existed! Like how could I have not. You'll love it..." she looks away, wondering if she shouldn't have said that. She had rambled because she was nervous, so they were back here again, with her playing with her hair, being embarrassed. She looked at him, really looked at him like she had the day before, not knowing if it was okay. As much as he said he was okay, she didn't really believe him. And treating her like they never met? She didn't like it. But she would put up with it for him. She would do this his way if it meant that he would be in her life.
Liam was smiling the private smile from the cafe as she talked. "How did you find it, anyways?" He asked lightly. He felt his heart skip a beat when she said that he would love it. Ahhh! The rambling was cute and she was playing with her hair. Nervousness or maybe embarrassment, he thought.
She's still twisting her hair around her finger, worried how he'll react if she says she went with Lillian. But it's not like she's going to lie to him. "Yesterday, at the cafe, we went in your car and I got to school with someone else, so I was, uh, stranded. I called Lillian, we're like friends, I guess, still, even though-" she stops and continues a different train of thought, "She picked me up and didn't want to go home right away, so she took me to that ice cream place, she said she found it on Facebook, I think? I don't know, you said you wanted to go on a date and it looked so pretty I thought-" she doesn't know if she should finish her thought. Might as well, she takes a deep breath, "I thought of you." She stops talking embarrassed over her rambling again, still toying with her hair, her confidence from her clothes, gone, in his presence. She looks down, not sure what to say, how he'll react, but knowing that she misses talking to him.
"I'm sorry I stranded you at the cafe," he said, frowning slightly to himself. Stupidstupidstupidstupid you know she doesn't have a car! What was she supposed to do? Walk back? Stupidstupidstupidstupid. You're messing this up before it even starts, Liam. "I'm happy you have Lillian and I'm happy you two are friends." He said truthfully. He was happy she had gotten close to Lillian. He knew how much Lillian liked her as her and his father were fighting almost nightly. All of the negative thoughts he previously had disappeared, She thought of me ahh! Liam smiled, feeling a slight blush on his cheeks. Please don't notice the blush, please don't notice the blush
She smiles at him, seeing his blush. Upon seeing it, she immediately felt her cheeks flame, she doesn't look at him, knowing that her eyes will betray what her soul is feeling. She takes a deep breath, still not at ease, playing with her hair, "Don't worry about it. It's seriously okay." She can tell that he's upset with himself. She forces herself not to touch his arm or some other consoling thing. She looked at him, thinking that he wouldn't be able to read her face anymore, "Yeah, Lillian, she's pretty cool. She's really kept me goin- Sorry, I'm sorry." She said that last part without thinking. Now she was the one going stupidstupidstupidstupidstupid She thinks he'll react badly. Her cheeks flare up again, embarrassed.
He furrowed his brows, confused, "Sorry about what, Skylar?" He asked softly. What could she be sorry about? The fact that she had someone to lean on and that person was his step-mother? It was fine with him, he was happy that she hadn't gone through the last month alone.
"Well, I'm sorry about everything, but in that moment, I was sorry for saying that she was the person that kept me going. It just seemed mean to tell you," she says, ever so softly.
He shook his head, "It's okay. It didn't come off as mean. Really, I'm happy she's there for you. I'm happy you didn't go through," he paused, thinking of the right word, "everything alone." He added in, "I'm sorry too. I said horrible things to you that I didn't mean." He said, thinking about his comment about her only wanting pity.
That comment had destroyed her worse than the one in the bathroom. She didn't think that she only wanted pity. She wanted someone who could be there and when he said that he proved he couldn't be there, always dependable. She looked down, not knowing what to say, not knowing what to do. "It's okay. I've forgiven you. I think I forgave you before you even drove away. You said a lot of it in anger. I thought that you didn't mean most of it." Now she won't look at him, her emotions are just too strong, if he sees her eyes, he'll know everything that's racing through her mind. She takes the chance anyways and just locks eyes with him, unable to look away. Waiting to see what's going to happen.
He looked back into her eyes, watching them. Whoever said 'The eyes are the window to your soul' was right. He saw that he let her down when he said that comment. He saw that she wanted someone dependable, but he proved he couldn't by saying that awful thing. "Thank you, and I apologize again for everything that had happened." He said, still looking into her eyes.
She hated the formality. It made her want to ruin everything and walk away. "I sincerely accept your apology," she said laughing. "It's okay. I promise." She won't be the one to look away from him. It's like they're communicating through their eyes, not a single word being said in their conversation, the real one. The one that says I miss you and I wish that I could go back and fix this and I hate myself for hurting you and... the list goes on.
Liam laughed without looking away from her. He didn't plan on looking away anytime soon. "Good." He hated being formal with her. It felt wrong, but he
She decides to tell him, "You don't have to act like you don't know me. You don't have to be so polite," she whispers, still watching him.
He nodded, "Okay." (("I'll be rude from now on. Is that what you want?" JUST KIDDDING)) He whispered softly. Still watching her.
Her hearts beating fast, and she doesn't know what to say, "Have you actually been okay? You haven't looked okay." She whispered. She wonders if he can hear her heart. Her hands are shaking so she crosses her arms, acting cold to cover it up.
"I've wanted to talk to you for a while." He admitted, "But you looked so happy. I didn't want to mess it up." He sighed, wanting to say more. So he did, "Uhm other then that, I'm dealing with college applications. It's stressful. Between school, soccer, and that I haven't been getting amazing sleep." He whispered. He continued to watch his eyes.
"Almost all of my "happiness" was fake. I tried. Not for me, but for others. I wasn't happy at all." She wants to stop looking at his eyes but she literally can't, "Wow, college applications. That's cool but like also really scary. I haven't been sleeping that great either."
