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Dec 31, 2021 11:12PM
Lillian nods and asks, "Would you like me to take you to a hotel, now?" She wiped her own tear quickly.
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"Yeah, it'd be best to be gone before he gets back." She looks down and notices she's still wearing his clothes but doesn't say anything, knowing she'll need the comfort for the trying times to come.
She nods, "You can go get in my car, it's the dark red one," she hands her the keys. "Put on whatever music you want. I'm going to get your school bag." She kisses her forehead and walks upstairs to Liam's room. She walked right in and looked around. They were playing Clue earlier. Her heart melted a little. She sighed and grabbed Skylar's bag and walked downstairs.
She gets in the passenger side and pulls out a Taylor Swift disk, knowing that she'll probably cry and that that's okay. She was grateful for Lillian for going into his room to get her stuff. It would have broken her and Lillian knew.
She walked back to the garage and opened the door. She put Skylar's bag into the backseat and turned the car on. She pulled out the driveway and started driving towards the hotel nearest to them and the school.
Skylar just keeps sighing. There's nothing she can do and it's driving her insane. She tried to help and she just made it worse. You never do anything right her diseased mind shot at her. You've never deserved him. It only took him 2 days to realize you weren't worth it. She starts bawling her eyes out, knowing Lillian had no clue what her inner demons were doing to her mind.
Lillian pulls the car over on the side of the road so she could hug and hold her. She reaches over the console and pulls her gently into a hug.
"It took him two days. Then he realized I wasn't worth it. I'm too screwed up and he can't deal with it. I always mess things up and I get angry quickly and I slapped him. He knows I'm not worth it." she says sobbing into Lillian's shoulder.
"Oh sweetie, he just got mad. He didn't mean any of it. I'm sure he will be crawling back to you on his hands and knees in no time." Lillian held Skylar until she stopped crying and then drove her to the hotel. She payed for her stay and helped her get settled in her room. ~~~~~~~((do you like my fancy time skip thing))
Over the course of the next month, Lillian visited her every single day. Not caring what Jackson or even Liam said.
For Liam, the breakup was harsh. For the first week, he would barely talk or look at anyone. He took a temporary leave((idk if you can actually do that but here you can bc i said so)) from his soccer and football teams. He was mad, sad, worried, about her. He regretted the things he said almost as soon as he had said it. The second week, he felt slightly better but this was when he found out that Lillian had booked Skylar up in a hotel. He still cared about her so he didn't make a huge fuss about it. When he saw her in the hallways at school, he always checked her face. It seemed like for the first two weeks there was always tear marks, but after a while he didn't see them anymore. In the third week, Jackson and Liam finally made up, truly, actually made up and they had a long conversation which ended with both of them crying and hugging. Liam rejoined his sports teams and picked up his grades, which had begun to drop. In the fourth week, he pulled out the Clue game. It was a bad idea, because her scorecard was still in the box. He picked it up and smiled a little in remembering her aggravation at being so close to winning. He sighed and threw it away after five minutes. He couldn't let himself be sad again. For the first time in weeks, Liam really wanted to talk to Skylar. He knew she was doing better though, so everyday in between classes Liam would resist the urge to go up to her and tell her hi and ask how she was doing.
For the first week in the hotel, Skylar was a straight up mess. She showered like once, sexted with Chad and did a bunch of stupid shit. She looked disgusting and she cried for days. Lillian checked in on her of course, but it also hurt seeing her. Just another reminder of Liam, she thought. Everything was a reminder of him. The way she put up her hair. When Chad called her baby. Lillian. His clothes. She wore them the entire day for 3 days before Lillian coaxed her out of them saying that she could wash them and bring back another pair if she wanted. So, she did. By the time a week had passed, Lillian convinced her to go shopping with her, having her shower and put on her makeup and clothes that weren't Liams. She blocked Chad. She blocked out everyone at school too. They were all confused. They saw them kissing to fighting to smacking to nothing. She avoided Liam at schools, knowing his schedule. She sat in the cafeteria by herself avoiding looking at him. The next 2 weeks were easier. She wasn't moved on, but she was healing sort of. She was coming to terms with the mistakes that she made, not just blaming him. They both had screwed up a lot and they definitely were a mess of passion. What they had got to had been dangerous, they had so much lust. He was right in so many situations. She sighed, wondering if he really meant it when he said that they were over for good. Lillian kept mothering her, bringing her dinner, paying her hotel bill, bringing her clothes, carefully avoiding the subject of her stepson. Skylar knew that she could never repay Lillian. People left her alone at school and she got a 98% on her essay, all without L***'s help. His name was a sort of curse word, not that he was bad, just that he shouldn't be mentioned. She waited, each day losing more and more hope that they were ever going to talk again let alone be together again. That tore her apart. When she did look at him, though. He looked different. Distant. Like he was in a different world. She would just sigh to herself and remind herself that it wasn't polite to stare. That last week, she came to school looking flawless every day. Cute outfits, perfect makeup and hair and smiles for everyone. She pushed the thought of him far from her mind. She was depending on herself and not wanting pity from everyone. He had helped her in a lot more ways than one and if this was the end at least she walked away learning something. She was ready to talk to him if he wanted.
Liam noticed, present time, that she looked happy. Should he ruin the happiness, bring back the bad times of the previous month, just so he could talk to her? He wanted to talk to her so bad it hurt him, but did she want to talk to him? There'd been rumors that her and Chad had hooked up in that first week. Liam thought it was gross and hoped it wasn't true, and whether it was or not he hoped she was okay. On the last day of school before the weekend, the english teacher(no i totally didnt forget her name xDD) held him back as he was walking past her classroom. It was the end of the day. He walked into the room to see the only other person in the room was Skylar. Ah shit, he thought. He decided to pretend he hadn't seen her yet, but ohmygosh she looked gorgeous. He watched the teacher as she explained how she needed help with some project and would give them both extra credit for their help.
Skylar couldn't believe Miss Anglemyer. She wasn't mad necessarily. But, whyyy??? Why practically force them to work together? She didn't want to be honest with herself. She wanted to talk to him, but she didn't know if she was willing to walk back through the fire with him, talking about what happened. She sighed aloud, in the middle of Miss Anglemyer's sentence. Both Liam and her looked at Skylar curiously. She looked down and said, "Sorry, just thinking, continue..." She notices that Liam is looking at her, actually seeing her. She gives him a smile, trying to act like he was just another person, but she felt it slip into a surprised face that she couldn't mask.
Liam smiled back, it was the same smile he had been giving to Lillian and his father when they talked, public, not that big, polite, and very shiny. It turned out, over the past month he had just been going through the motions. At first, he was excited and happy to be working with her, but then he felt a sense of dread. She would probably talk about last mon- no. He needed to stop the negative thoughts before they even talked. They would probably have to eventually if they wanted to do the project.
She smiles at Miss Anglemyer, "Okay, awesome. Thank you so much for arranging this for me. It means a lot." She looks at Liam and says, "Hey, let's talk about when we're gonna meet. We could work on it now, if that's good with you." she said all this trying to keep her cool, but her palms were sweaty, her mind screaming at her what he had told her before driving off, leaving her. She didn't think he saw her struggle.
Liam tried to keep his cool. SHE WAS TALKING TO HI- no. Keep his cool. Not lose it. He cleared his throat and nodded, "Yeah sure. I've got soccer in about an hour and a half so I'm free until then." He smiled and walked a little closer to her, feeling his heart skip a couple beats.
"Awesome. Can we take your car?" Totally ignoring all the sirens in her brain. She needed to be okay. She saw him walk closer. He missed her, she could feel it. Keep your cool, she reminded herself.
"Uhm yeah sure." Good thing Lillian had suggested he cleane- NO. His stepmother did NOT have anything to do with this. He cleared his throat a little, trying to forget about that, "Should we go to a cafe or something?"
"Sounds great. Then we can get started and talk."
"Yeah." He said. As they walked out the building he didn't say a word. He didn't act as chrivilous towards her as he had the first time, but he did open the entrance door for her. It was just polite.
She smiled at him, her real, blinding smile. She was nervous as they walked to his car. Thinking of what happened last time they were both in this car together.
Ah, there it was. Her smile. He loved it so much. He felt himself smile his own real smile as they reached his car. He didn't open her door and instead unlocked the doors and got into the drivers seat.
She noticed the tiny differences. She was okay with it. She got in, buckled up and said, "So I was thinking we could make a collage on a poster board and add like quotes..." trying to distract herself from how close they were.
He nodded and agreed. He pulled the car out of the parking lot. It had gone quiet, he wanted to say something, but what? He decided to go with, "It's been awhile. How have you been?"
"I've been pretty great. You?" she asks trying to be courteous, but hears her voice cracking. She curses herself, are you serious???
"Been good, I guess." He said, not knowing how to keep a conversation going with her anymore.
She swallows, knowing they need to talk talk. "About before..." she said, nervous.
"I didn't mean it." Liam blurted, no filter.
She looks down, not knowing what to say. "Okay. I messed up a lot and I hurt you and I pressured you."
Liam sighed a little, "I not only assumed you were ready for something, but I objectified you. Which led you to losing your trust in me and then I broke up with you when you were hurting. I'm sorry, Skylar. Seriously."
"I know. I'm sorry too. And I'm not sure if you care, but I'm sorry for screwing around with Chad... I know we're not together, but it was shitty."
So the rumors had been true, "It's okay." He says, having his voice sound non judgemental and casual.
Skylar looks down, unsure of what to say. "Have you been thinking about...?" not wanting to finish the sentence if he didn't want her back. Leaving it open to his interpretation. It could be anything she reminded herself. Wherever he takes it is fine.
If she meant her, talking to her, their relationship, them getting back together then it was a solid yes. He didn't know what say so he said, "us? Yes, I have been." He said, his voice very positive and filled with hope.
She nods, trying to not give too much away. "Me too." she whispers.
He takes a deep breath and he went for it, "Could we try again?" He asked her, quietly, "Slower." He said a little bit afterwards, "If you let me, I would love to take you on dates. That kind of stuff." He turned in his seat, now that they were parked, and looked at her, watching her reaction.
She nods, missing him, it was so intense in this moment. "I would like that a lot." she said getting choked up.
He smiled and let out a small breath he didn't even know he was holding.
She took a deep breath, knowing that they were starting over, that she had to be better, be stronger, be there for him and think about him first. She knew there was a lot of commitment involved and she was ready. When he first had picked her up, she was broken and out of control on the downward spiral. Now, she had learned what it felt like to stand up on her own, even if Lillian was there often. She missed Lillian, even though she saw her almost daily. She'd be at the hotel tonight, and she was sure that they'd talk for hours about it. She had became her mum, but also a friend to Skylar when she had no one else. She looked at him and said, "We should probably go inside, we can talk more if you want, while we're working." She knew that she didn't sound as chill anymore. And that was okay. She was going to learn ot trust him again, having a clean slate and she would be okay standing on her own. With him. Not being co-dependent which is exactly what lead them down the dangerous path they had been on before.
Liam smiled and nodded again. He knew that this was it, they talked about it and they were going to be trying again. He was going to need to watch himself, though. After the scene in the bathroom he had not only lost her trust but also the trust in himself. "Sounds good, let's go." He said and turned off the car. He got out the car and waited for her to get out too before walking towards the door. He opened the front door and held it for her to walk into.
She could sense his unease through his smile and was glad to see that they were still in sync. She smiled back at him, ignoring the pounding in her heart, her thoughts running rampant in her mind. She needed to be careful and not fall in love with him again, not too fast anyway. The slight gesture of him opening the door made her heart smile as she walked in.
He kept the smile on his face as they walked into the cafe. "Did you want to get something?" He asked as they found an available table.
"Yeah, I was," she replies, wanting him to see that she was working on eating, even though she wasn't with him.
As the waitress came to their table, Liam ordered himself a water and a small salad. When he finished telling her wait he wanted, he shut up and let Skylar order.
Skylar looks up at the waiter and says, "I'll have the same thing, please,"
The waitress nodded and walked away. "So uhm, how do you think we should tackle this project?" He asked.
She doesn't quite look at him when she says, "Oh just like a poster board with a collage on it and quotes like I said before."
He was going to respond, but then the waitress came with their waters and salads. He thanked her as she walked away.
Skylar said thank you too and looked just to the side of Liam, not trusting herself to fully look at him. All this time they've talked, she hasn't looked at him in his eyes.
"So uhm, a quote that came to my mind was uh," he reads the quote. "Do you think that would work?" He took a sip of his water.
She looks at him, really looks at him and she feels her heart break. "
Are you okay?" she asks concerned. She doesn't think he looks alright, not at all.
Are you okay?" she asks concerned. She doesn't think he looks alright, not at all.
