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Once Upon A Time + Bee
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Feb 12, 2015 09:39AM
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He started crying again, sobs racking his body but no noise came out. He didn't know who it was at the door but either way they were watching him breakdown.
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Once he finally woke up, he made a decision and ripped a paper from his journal before writing. As he wrote a few tears fell from his eyes and fell on the paper, on the last few words. He went to his room and slipped it under her door. The first three words he wrote were 'I hate love.' He closed his eyes and walked away to his room. 'I don't know why you're so cruel to do this to me. I don't know what I did to deserve this life. I love you with every fibre in my being but you're killing yourself slowly and I refuse to watch you do so. You kill yourself by starving and purging, I'm killing myself with this note. There is no point. You don't give a shit. No one does. If there is even anyone that does, tell them I'm sorry, that it got too much, that I couldn't take the pain, that I tried to stay strong but I can't live. I was never meant to live.This is the last you'll hear from me. Goodbye, my love. Goodbye, cruel world.' And his tears signed it a long with his name.
He opened his window and climbed up on the windowsill, tears falling from his eyes as he stared at the trees 12 stories down.
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The door was cracked open, not enough to see inside but when she knocked it opened further. He stood a step away from the edge, still thinking about it even though he had no idea why. He was doing it either way, his cries intensified when he took one last step to the edge. "Jump," he thought to himself.
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He didn't go back to open the door. It was too late for him. There was nothing to save him after that day. He didn't want to be saved anymore.
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"Excuse me," a nurse said. "Are you okay?" She asked.He wished he'd just slip or something. It was a good thing there was no one in the back garden, otherwise they would have seen him by then.
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"You can go in, since he can't talk and all," she gestured and walked off to see to other patients.
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((He didn't even jump... Unless you want him to have...))
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((Oh xD.))He didn't even notice her come in. He lifted a foot and was going to jump.
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She got to the window and saw that he was about to jump. "Luke what are you doing?" She asked."I thought you loved me?" Not knowing that the 'love note' was actually a suicide note.
"You either didn't read the note or you misread it," he signed as he turned to her, putting his foot back on the windowsill. "I do love you." He admitted, "but that's not enough anymore." He signed, tears still falling from his eyes in waves.
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"It was a suicide note," he told her. "I tried," he cried, "i tried helping you but you just seem to hate me more with each attempt." He started crying harder, the sobs racking his body as he turned around again.
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"Goodbye, Annabelle," he mouthed as he tried to talk but nothing came out.
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One nurse came in and then called in others to restrain him. "No, I can't be alive. I not meant to live," he'd mouth as he cried hysterically, trying to get them to let go of him but they couldn't even understand him. One nurse came in with a needle and drugged him.
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They kept him on suicide watch and in a room that had bars on the windows after that and kept him on lockdown.
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He cried for days, wishing they'd just let him die. Why would she do that when she didn't even care about him? Whatever, after that day, instead of taking his meds he hid them under his pillow so he could overdose whenever it got too much and he could just die.
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He'd never get out of this place. He knew it. He's given up on everything. His last few drops of hope were stripped away when Annabelle rejected him and now he had nothing to live for.
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He spent most of the next few days either crying or sleeping, he didn't even eat anything.
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"In a bit, today's meant to be his last day on lockdown," the nurse smiled.
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"You really like him?" The nurse asked, trying to be her friend.
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"Have you shown signs that you don't care? Being mean? Pushing him away when he needs you..? Leaving him to cry alone?" She asked softly. "It'a okay if you don't want to tell me, i'm just trying to talk to you.."
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"Maybe you should have thought about him too.. Does he have anyone?" She asked, even though she knew he didn't. She talked to him before.
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"Look, honey. He might be a selective mute, but he might not be. He's had surgery's that only made his chance of talking less. It's not easy being him, and it's not going to be easy for him to talk if he is a selective mute. Especially if he has given up on himself like he did yesterday. From what I know, he's been taking his meds, if he does overdose, which he wont, we'll deal with it, we have, countless of times before. Suicide isn't something someone can control. If he's so intent on killing himself, it's not going to be easy saving him because you can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved," the nurse told her.
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"Just because people have it harder or worse than him, doesn't mean he can't be depressed or suicidal," the nurse said, because Annabelle was being selfish.
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