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You will find in life that love is not perfect. Love can be something great but it can also hurt like a bitch all at the same time, it can cut you so deep that you just want to crawl in a hole and die and not try again. Most of the time though true love is worth the pain, not all times, but most times. In the case of my first love it wasn’t worth the pain but it taught me valuable lessons.
It was my first week as a freshman at East Davidson High School in Thomasville, North Carolina. It started out okay, I met a lot of new people and I liked most of my classes. I didn’t really feel scared about starting high school because I had my cousin Marie to talk to if I needed her. Marie was cool somewhat, she was a junior with red hair and she was short like me. The only bad thing about my cousin is she had a reputation of sleeping around at East.
My week started out great until that third day of school when I laid eyes on him and my heart stopped. By him I mean Billy Everett. Billy Everett wasn’t the typical jock at East but he was popular.
He stood about five foot four inches tall with tan skin and big strong muscles. His hair was straight and brown and his eyes were a dark sexy brown. He was very attractive, all the girls liked him and wanted him and the sad part was almost all the girls at East Davidson High School had him at least once, he was what you would call a man hoe. He loved sex but was afraid of commitment.
Billy and my friends Leigh and Tony and I all had lunch together that first semester and each day at lunch I would sit with them and occasionally talk to Billy. Our conversations would always start out random but that was just Billy. Our conversations would range from things like class, the military and anime cartoons. Every time I talked to him I wanted to know more and more about him.
It was toward the middle of September and all I could do was think about Billy and I couldn’t figure out why. I had an amazing boyfriend named Roy so why could I not get this guy out of my head? I wondered what I should do. One morning I asked Marie what I should do because she knew him a little too well. I mean she had dated him once.
“Beka just try to forget about him, yes he may look sexy but he is a man hoe and an ass to girls. Trust me, I know I dated him and truthfully he would probably never go for a girl like you. You are fourteen and he is seventeen so just forget it.”
I knew she was probably right but I still gave him my number after fourth period that day anyway, I secretly wanted her to be wrong and for some reason I liked him more than Roy I guess it was because I hardly ever got to see Roy and I got to see Billy every day.
Later that night about six o’clock my phone rung, I was doing math homework so I debated on answering it for a few seconds, finally I decided sure why not. I was in shock when I did because it was Billy. He had just gotten off of work, which at that time was working as a landscaper. We talked for a few minutes then I sadly went back to my algebra homework. Which sucked because math was one of my worst subjects.
After that night Billy and I became good friends and we would talk at lunch and on the phone sometimes at night. We just didn’t let his normal friends know because I was not what you would say popular. His friends consisted of Ian Johnson- A tall skinny basketball player, Tony Stevens- The average guy that sits with us at lunch, Katie Goings- A Stuck up sophomore that loved Billy and Smink Bowers- The nerdy kid who actually was not that bad. Smink was actually cool just like Tony except unlike Tony, Smink didn’t have a secret crush on me.
A couple days later at lunch Leigh, Tony, Billy and I were sitting outside at the picnic tables when I asked Billy
“How is your day going so far?”
“Boring as ever, how is yours?”
“Sucky, I hate my math class.” I responded.
Billy then went to another table that had a bunch of girls sitting at it and started to flirt and talk about partying. He could never stay on one topic and he was such a big flirt. That is who he was but I didn’t mind. I was day dreaming about Billy when Leigh sat down beside me.
“Beka, Tony is so cute and I want to talk to him I just don’t know how.”
“Girl I have known you since sixth grade and you have never been shy before. Just go talk to him like you would any other guy.”
For once she took my advice and soon after those two became an item even though they only lasted a couple months because they were too much alike.
Months passed and the semester was almost over. It was December a couple nights before Christmas and Billy called me and asked to come over to my house to hang out. My mom said sure because she was ready to meet the boy that she heard me talk about all the time and she couldn’t stand Roy. We had to get a few things at Wal-Mart so Billy decided to meet us there so he could follow us back to my house.
Right off the bat my mom liked him. She liked his good looks and his charming personality, she even insisted that I dump Roy for him. Once we got back to my house we hung out for a bit, laughed about crazy stuff, and talked about everything under the sun he even found my tickle spot and rolled me off the couch. I am still lucky I didn’t end up with a bruise from that.
When it was time for him to leave he looked at me like he was waiting for me to escort him out, but my dummy self-sat on the couch and watched him leave. Later that night he called me,
“Hey I was wanting you to follow me outside.” I smiled to myself and asked
“Why?”
“I was going to kiss you that's why, but oh well you didn’t come outside.”
“I’m sorry, I’m not very good with hints.”
“Yeah I can see that.” he said.